작업을 그만두려는 작가를 위한 정원

<img src="https://t1.daumcdn.net/cfile/cafe/22379B3C551F4BAA1F" class="txc-image" hspace="1" vspace="1" border="0" actualwidth="1024" width="1024" exif="{}" data-filename="dvsaasd.jpg" style="clear:none;float:none;" id="A_22379B3C551F4BAA1F2596"/> <img src="https://t1.daumcdn.net/cfile/cafe/2344DD37551F4C002E" class="txc-image" hspace="1" vspace="1" border="0" actualwidth="1024" width="1024" exif="{}" data-filename="IMG_5090.jpg" style="clear:none;float:none;" id="A_2344DD37551F4C002EDFC5"/> <span style="font-size: 9pt; line-height: 1.6; background-image: initial; background-attachment: initial; background-size: initial; background-origin: initial; background-clip: initial; background-position: initial; background-repeat: initial;"> <span style="font-size: 9pt; line-height: 1.6; background-image: initial; background-attachment: initial; background-size: initial; background-origin: initial; background-clip: initial; background-position: initial; background-repeat: initial;">꽃이 피는 걸 못 보고 떠납니다<span style="font-size: 9pt; line-height: 1.6; font-family: 함초롬바탕; letter-spacing: 0pt; background-image: initial; background-attachment: initial; background-size: initial; background-origin: initial; background-clip: initial; background-position: initial; background-repeat: initial;">. <p class="0" style="background-image: initial; background-attachment: initial; background-size: initial; background-origin: initial; background-clip: initial; background-position: initial; background-repeat: initial;"><span style="background-image: initial; background-attachment: initial; background-size: initial; background-origin: initial; background-clip: initial; background-position: initial; background-repeat: initial;">잘 마무리 하고 나갔으면 했는데 제가 먼저 포기해 버렸네요<span style="font-family: 함초롬바탕; letter-spacing: 0pt; background-image: initial; background-attachment: initial; background-size: initial; background-origin: initial; background-clip: initial; background-position: initial; background-repeat: initial;">. <p class="0" style="background-image: initial; background-attachment: initial; background-size: initial; background-origin: initial; background-clip: initial; background-position: initial; background-repeat: initial;"><span style="background-image: initial; background-attachment: initial; background-size: initial; background-origin: initial; background-clip: initial; background-position: initial; background-repeat: initial;">포기라는 단어를 쓰니까 제 자신이 너무 초라해지고 부족해 보이는 느낌이 듭니다<span style="font-family: 함초롬바탕; letter-spacing: 0pt; background-image: initial; background-attachment: initial; background-size: initial; background-origin: initial; background-clip: initial; background-position: initial; background-repeat: initial;">.<p class="0" style="background-image: initial; background-attachment: initial; background-size: initial; background-origin: initial; background-clip: initial; background-position: initial; background-repeat: initial;"><span style="background-image: initial; background-attachment: initial; background-size: initial; background-origin: initial; background-clip: initial; background-position: initial; background-repeat: initial;">이런 결정을 내리게 된 이유는 아무래도 제 이기심 때문이겠지요<span style="font-family: 함초롬바탕; letter-spacing: 0pt; background-image: initial; background-attachment: initial; background-size: initial; background-origin: initial; background-clip: initial; background-position: initial; background-repeat: initial;">.<p class="0" style="background-image: initial; background-attachment: initial; background-size: initial; background-origin: initial; background-clip: initial; background-position: initial; background-repeat: initial;">   <p class="0" style="background-image: initial; background-attachment: initial; background-size: initial; background-origin: initial; background-clip: initial; background-position: initial; background-repeat: initial;"><span style="background-image: initial; background-attachment: initial; background-size: initial; background-origin: initial; background-clip: initial; background-position: initial; background-repeat: initial;">작가들이 스스로 수업과 노동 그리고 자기 일을 하면서 작업을 진행하기에 <p class="0" style="background-image: initial; background-attachment: initial; background-size: initial; background-origin: initial; background-clip: initial; background-position: initial; background-repeat: initial;"><span style="background-image: initial; background-attachment: initial; background-size: initial; background-origin: initial; background-clip: initial; background-position: initial; background-repeat: initial;">이상적인 환경임에도 불구하고 저는 어딘지 모르게 어색함을 느꼈습니다<span style="font-family: 함초롬바탕; letter-spacing: 0pt; background-image: initial; background-attachment: initial; background-size: initial; background-origin: initial; background-clip: initial; background-position: initial; background-repeat: initial;">. <p class="0" style="background-image: initial; background-attachment: initial; background-size: initial; background-origin: initial; background-clip: initial; background-position: initial; background-repeat: initial;"><span style="background-image: initial; background-attachment: initial; background-size: initial; background-origin: initial; background-clip: initial; background-position: initial; background-repeat: initial;">수업을 잘 만들지도 못하겠고 사람들과 대화도 못했습니다<span style="font-family: 함초롬바탕; letter-spacing: 0pt; background-image: initial; background-attachment: initial; background-size: initial; background-origin: initial; background-clip: initial; background-position: initial; background-repeat: initial;">. <span style="background-image: initial; background-attachment: initial; background-size: initial; background-origin: initial; background-clip: initial; background-position: initial; background-repeat: initial;">거부했어요<span style="font-family: 함초롬바탕; letter-spacing: 0pt; background-image: initial; background-attachment: initial; background-size: initial; background-origin: initial; background-clip: initial; background-position: initial; background-repeat: initial;">. <p class="0" style="background-image: initial; background-attachment: initial; background-size: initial; background-origin: initial; background-clip: initial; background-position: initial; background-repeat: initial;"><span style="background-image: initial; background-attachment: initial; background-size: initial; background-origin: initial; background-clip: initial; background-position: initial; background-repeat: initial;">저는 그저 밖에서 조금 일하고 제 시간에 작업하기를 원했습니다<span style="font-family: 함초롬바탕; letter-spacing: 0pt; background-image: initial; background-attachment: initial; background-size: initial; background-origin: initial; background-clip: initial; background-position: initial; background-repeat: initial;">. <p class="0" style="background-image: initial; background-attachment: initial; background-size: initial; background-origin: initial; background-clip: initial; background-position: initial; background-repeat: initial;">   <p class="0" style="background-image: initial; background-attachment: initial; background-size: initial; background-origin: initial; background-clip: initial; background-position: initial; background-repeat: initial;"><span style="background-image: initial; background-attachment: initial; background-size: initial; background-origin: initial; background-clip: initial; background-position: initial; background-repeat: initial;">제가 조금 마음이 열려있고 적극적으로 임했다면 <p class="0" style="background-image: initial; background-attachment: initial; background-size: initial; background-origin: initial; background-clip: initial; background-position: initial; background-repeat: initial;"><span style="background-image: initial; background-attachment: initial; background-size: initial; background-origin: initial; background-clip: initial; background-position: initial; background-repeat: initial;">분명히 다른 좋은 결과를 가졌을지도 모르겠으나 저는 그렇지 못했습니다<span style="font-family: 함초롬바탕; letter-spacing: 0pt; background-image: initial; background-attachment: initial; background-size: initial; background-origin: initial; background-clip: initial; background-position: initial; background-repeat: initial;">.<p class="0" style="background-image: initial; background-attachment: initial; background-size: initial; background-origin: initial; background-clip: initial; background-position: initial; background-repeat: initial;"><span style="background-image: initial; background-attachment: initial; background-size: initial; background-origin: initial; background-clip: initial; background-position: initial; background-repeat: initial;">혼자서 조용히 도인처럼 독립해서 작업하기를 원했던 것 같아요<span style="font-family: 함초롬바탕; letter-spacing: 0pt; background-image: initial; background-attachment: initial; background-size: initial; background-origin: initial; background-clip: initial; background-position: initial; background-repeat: initial;">. <p class="0" style="background-image: initial; background-attachment: initial; background-size: initial; background-origin: initial; background-clip: initial; background-position: initial; background-repeat: initial;">   <p class="0" style="background-image: initial; background-attachment: initial; background-size: initial; background-origin: initial; background-clip: initial; background-position: initial; background-repeat: initial;"><span style="background-image: initial; background-attachment: initial; background-size: initial; background-origin: initial; background-clip: initial; background-position: initial; background-repeat: initial;">작업을 그만두려는 작가를 위한 레지던시<span style="font-family: 함초롬바탕; letter-spacing: 0pt; background-image: initial; background-attachment: initial; background-size: initial; background-origin: initial; background-clip: initial; background-position: initial; background-repeat: initial;">.<p class="0" style="background-image: initial; background-attachment: initial; background-size: initial; background-origin: initial; background-clip: initial; background-position: initial; background-repeat: initial;"><span style="background-image: initial; background-attachment: initial; background-size: initial; background-origin: initial; background-clip: initial; background-position: initial; background-repeat: initial;">저는 이 레지던시는 작업의 성과를 기록하고 판단하는 레지던시는 아니라고 생각합니다<span style="font-family: 함초롬바탕; letter-spacing: 0pt; background-image: initial; background-attachment: initial; background-size: initial; background-origin: initial; background-clip: initial; background-position: initial; background-repeat: initial;">. <p class="0" style="background-image: initial; background-attachment: initial; background-size: initial; background-origin: initial; background-clip: initial; background-position: initial; background-repeat: initial;">   <p class="0" style="background-image: initial; background-attachment: initial; background-size: initial; background-origin: initial; background-clip: initial; background-position: initial; background-repeat: initial;"><span style="background-image: initial; background-attachment: initial; background-size: initial; background-origin: initial; background-clip: initial; background-position: initial; background-repeat: initial;">저는 사 개월 동안 소품 한 점과 채색을 덜 끝낸 백호 한 점을 그렸습니다<span style="font-family: 함초롬바탕; letter-spacing: 0pt; background-image: initial; background-attachment: initial; background-size: initial; background-origin: initial; background-clip: initial; background-position: initial; background-repeat: initial;">.<p class="0" style="background-image: initial; background-attachment: initial; background-size: initial; background-origin: initial; background-clip: initial; background-position: initial; background-repeat: initial;"><span style="background-image: initial; background-attachment: initial; background-size: initial; background-origin: initial; background-clip: initial; background-position: initial; background-repeat: initial;">쓰고 있던 장편 소설도 스무 페이지 정도 쓰고 논문도 조금 썼네요<span style="font-family: 함초롬바탕; letter-spacing: 0pt; background-image: initial; background-attachment: initial; background-size: initial; background-origin: initial; background-clip: initial; background-position: initial; background-repeat: initial;">.<p class="0" style="background-image: initial; background-attachment: initial; background-size: initial; background-origin: initial; background-clip: initial; background-position: initial; background-repeat: initial;">   <p class="0" style="background-image: initial; background-attachment: initial; background-size: initial; background-origin: initial; background-clip: initial; background-position: initial; background-repeat: initial;"><span style="background-image: initial; background-attachment: initial; background-size: initial; background-origin: initial; background-clip: initial; background-position: initial; background-repeat: initial;">준호작가님에게 식물과 정원에 대한 이야기도 듣고 함께 벽돌도 나르고 나무도 조금<p class="0" style="background-image: initial; background-attachment: initial; background-size: initial; background-origin: initial; background-clip: initial; background-position: initial; background-repeat: initial;"><span style="background-image: initial; background-attachment: initial; background-size: initial; background-origin: initial; background-clip: initial; background-position: initial; background-repeat: initial;">옮겨 심었습니다<span style="font-family: 함초롬바탕; letter-spacing: 0pt; background-image: initial; background-attachment: initial; background-size: initial; background-origin: initial; background-clip: initial; background-position: initial; background-repeat: initial;">. <span style="background-image: initial; background-attachment: initial; background-size: initial; background-origin: initial; background-clip: initial; background-position: initial; background-repeat: initial;">꽃돌이와 산책도 자주 했고 똥냥이를 많이 쓰다듬었네요<span style="font-family: 함초롬바탕; letter-spacing: 0pt; background-image: initial; background-attachment: initial; background-size: initial; background-origin: initial; background-clip: initial; background-position: initial; background-repeat: initial;">. <p class="0" style="background-image: initial; background-attachment: initial; background-size: initial; background-origin: initial; background-clip: initial; background-position: initial; background-repeat: initial;">   <p class="0" style="background-image: initial; background-attachment: initial; background-size: initial; background-origin: initial; background-clip: initial; background-position: initial; background-repeat: initial;"><span style="background-image: initial; background-attachment: initial; background-size: initial; background-origin: initial; background-clip: initial; background-position: initial; background-repeat: initial;">레지던시를 정말로 원하는 작가들이 이 글을 읽는다면 작업하려는 사람이 저래도 되나 생각할 지도 모르겠어요<span style="font-family: 함초롬바탕; letter-spacing: 0pt; background-image: initial; background-attachment: initial; background-size: initial; background-origin: initial; background-clip: initial; background-position: initial; background-repeat: initial;">. <span style="background-image: initial; background-attachment: initial; background-size: initial; background-origin: initial; background-clip: initial; background-position: initial; background-repeat: initial;">저는 방황했습니다<span style="font-family: 함초롬바탕; letter-spacing: 0pt; background-image: initial; background-attachment: initial; background-size: initial; background-origin: initial; background-clip: initial; background-position: initial; background-repeat: initial;">. <span style="background-image: initial; background-attachment: initial; background-size: initial; background-origin: initial; background-clip: initial; background-position: initial; background-repeat: initial;">들어온 전시도 힘에 겨워 포기했고 그저 조금만 더 조용해지고 가벼워지길 원했어요<span style="font-family: 함초롬바탕; letter-spacing: 0pt; background-image: initial; background-attachment: initial; background-size: initial; background-origin: initial; background-clip: initial; background-position: initial; background-repeat: initial;">. <p class="0" style="background-image: initial; background-attachment: initial; background-size: initial; background-origin: initial; background-clip: initial; background-position: initial; background-repeat: initial;">   <p class="0" style="background-image: initial; background-attachment: initial; background-size: initial; background-origin: initial; background-clip: initial; background-position: initial; background-repeat: initial;"><span style="background-image: initial; background-attachment: initial; background-size: initial; background-origin: initial; background-clip: initial; background-position: initial; background-repeat: initial;">자정이 넘은 밤과 새벽녘이 되면 이곳은 어둡고 춥고 완벽한 적막 속에 둘려 쌓이게 됩니다<span style="font-family: 함초롬바탕; letter-spacing: 0pt; background-image: initial; background-attachment: initial; background-size: initial; background-origin: initial; background-clip: initial; background-position: initial; background-repeat: initial;">. <span style="background-image: initial; background-attachment: initial; background-size: initial; background-origin: initial; background-clip: initial; background-position: initial; background-repeat: initial;">별들은 빛나고 개들은 가끔 짖어 댑니다<span style="font-family: 함초롬바탕; letter-spacing: 0pt; background-image: initial; background-attachment: initial; background-size: initial; background-origin: initial; background-clip: initial; background-position: initial; background-repeat: initial;">. <span style="background-image: initial; background-attachment: initial; background-size: initial; background-origin: initial; background-clip: initial; background-position: initial; background-repeat: initial;">작업을 하다 화장실이 급해 문을 열고 나오면 야생동물들이 저를 보고 놀라 도망가고 날아오릅니다<span style="font-family: 함초롬바탕; letter-spacing: 0pt; background-image: initial; background-attachment: initial; background-size: initial; background-origin: initial; background-clip: initial; background-position: initial; background-repeat: initial;">. <span style="background-image: initial; background-attachment: initial; background-size: initial; background-origin: initial; background-clip: initial; background-position: initial; background-repeat: initial;">숲이 우거져서 숨쉬기 편하고 흙과 낙엽을 밟으며 걸을 수 있습니다<span style="font-family: 함초롬바탕; letter-spacing: 0pt; background-image: initial; background-attachment: initial; background-size: initial; background-origin: initial; background-clip: initial; background-position: initial; background-repeat: initial;">. <span style="background-image: initial; background-attachment: initial; background-size: initial; background-origin: initial; background-clip: initial; background-position: initial; background-repeat: initial;">바깥 세계와 완벽히 차단됨이 느껴지는 순간 완벽한 자유를 얻습니다<span style="font-family: 함초롬바탕; letter-spacing: 0pt; background-image: initial; background-attachment: initial; background-size: initial; background-origin: initial; background-clip: initial; background-position: initial; background-repeat: initial;">. <span style="background-image: initial; background-attachment: initial; background-size: initial; background-origin: initial; background-clip: initial; background-position: initial; background-repeat: initial;">앞으로도 이런 적막함과 외부와의 차단 그리고 혼자만의 시간을 그리워 할 것 같아요<span style="font-family: 함초롬바탕; letter-spacing: 0pt; background-image: initial; background-attachment: initial; background-size: initial; background-origin: initial; background-clip: initial; background-position: initial; background-repeat: initial;">. <p class="0" style="background-image: initial; background-attachment: initial; background-size: initial; background-origin: initial; background-clip: initial; background-position: initial; background-repeat: initial;">   <p class="0" style="background-image: initial; background-attachment: initial; background-size: initial; background-origin: initial; background-clip: initial; background-position: initial; background-repeat: initial;"><span style="background-image: initial; background-attachment: initial; background-size: initial; background-origin: initial; background-clip: initial; background-position: initial; background-repeat: initial;">이곳에서 조금은 저를 알게 된 것 같아요<span style="font-family: 함초롬바탕; letter-spacing: 0pt; background-image: initial; background-attachment: initial; background-size: initial; background-origin: initial; background-clip: initial; background-position: initial; background-repeat: initial;">. <p class="0" style="background-image: initial; background-attachment: initial; background-size: initial; background-origin: initial; background-clip: initial; background-position: initial; background-repeat: initial;"><span style="background-image: initial; background-attachment: initial; background-size: initial; background-origin: initial; background-clip: initial; background-position: initial; background-repeat: initial;">저에게 이런 기회를 주고 지원해주신 준호작가님 정말 고맙습니다<span style="font-family: 함초롬바탕; letter-spacing: 0pt; background-image: initial; background-attachment: initial; background-size: initial; background-origin: initial; background-clip: initial; background-position: initial; background-repeat: initial;">.<p class="0" style="background-image: initial; background-attachment: initial; background-size: initial; background-origin: initial; background-clip: initial; background-position: initial; background-repeat: initial;"><span style="background-image: initial; background-attachment: initial; background-size: initial; background-origin: initial; background-clip: initial; background-position: initial; background-repeat: initial;">계획대로 생각대로 앞으로의 일들을 풀어 나아가겠습니다<span style="font-family: 함초롬바탕; letter-spacing: 0pt; background-image: initial; background-attachment: initial; background-size: initial; background-origin: initial; background-clip: initial; background-position: initial; background-repeat: initial;">. <span style="background-image: initial; background-attachment: initial; background-size: initial; background-origin: initial; background-clip: initial; background-position: initial; background-repeat: initial;">감사합니다<span style="font-family: 함초롬바탕; letter-spacing: 0pt; background-image: initial; background-attachment: initial; background-size: initial; background-origin: initial; background-clip: initial; background-position: initial; background-repeat: initial;">.^^ <p class="0" style="background-image: initial; background-attachment: initial; background-size: initial; background-origin: initial; background-clip: initial; background-position: initial; background-repeat: initial;"><span style="font-family: 함초롬바탕; background-image: initial; background-attachment: initial; background-size: initial; background-origin: initial; background-clip: initial; background-position: initial; background-repeat: initial;"> <span style="background-image: initial; background-attachment: initial; background-size: initial; background-origin: initial; background-clip: initial; background-position: initial; background-repeat: initial;">짐을 싸다보니 여러 감정이 교차해서 무뚝뚝하게 나갔네요<span style="font-family: 함초롬바탕; letter-spacing: 0pt; background-image: initial; background-attachment: initial; background-size: initial; background-origin: initial; background-clip: initial; background-position: initial; background-repeat: initial;">. <p class="0" style="background-image: initial; background-attachment: initial; background-size: initial; background-origin: initial; background-clip: initial; background-position: initial; background-repeat: initial;"><span style="background-image: initial; background-attachment: initial; background-size: initial; background-origin: initial; background-clip: initial; background-position: initial; background-repeat: initial;">더욱더 멋진 담비 스튜디오 만들어주세요<span style="font-family: 함초롬바탕; letter-spacing: 0pt; background-image: initial; background-attachment: initial; background-size: initial; background-origin: initial; background-clip: initial; background-position: initial; background-repeat: initial;">. <p class="0" style="background-image: initial; background-attachment: initial; background-size: initial; background-origin: initial; background-clip: initial; background-position: initial; background-repeat: initial;"><span style="background-image: initial; background-attachment: initial; background-size: initial; background-origin: initial; background-clip: initial; background-position: initial; background-repeat: initial;">테디베어 해바리기 씨앗은 고향 집 옆 담에다 심었어요<span style="font-family: 함초롬바탕; letter-spacing: 0pt; background-image: initial; background-attachment: initial; background-size: initial; background-origin: initial; background-clip: initial; background-position: initial; background-repeat: initial;">. <p class="0" style="background-image: initial; background-attachment: initial; background-size: initial; background-origin: initial; background-clip: initial; background-position: initial; background-repeat: initial;"><span style="background-image: initial; background-attachment: initial; background-size: initial; background-origin: initial; background-clip: initial; background-position: initial; background-repeat: initial;">자라나면 사진 찍어 올리께요<span style="font-family: 함초롬바탕; letter-spacing: 0pt; background-image: initial; background-attachment: initial; background-size: initial; background-origin: initial; background-clip: initial; background-position: initial; background-repeat: initial;">.^^  <p class="0" style="background-image: initial; background-attachment: initial; background-size: initial; background-origin: initial; background-clip: initial; background-position: initial; background-repeat: initial;">고맙습니다. 준호형님~!!