4) Church, Denominational and Group Representatives God's words
3. Dominic (1170 - 1221, founder of the Order of Friars Preachers [Dominicans])
Upon hearing the Principle, I realize my own wretched and disappointing form
God created man and he waited with hope and expectations for humanity, but we turned our backs on God's will. However, God came to us as our Parent. People have thought that throughout the long passage of time they have shaped history, while all the while they lived tormenting their Parent's heart.
Through this realization, I've come to understand the level of God's heart, while he has waited and watched people at this tail end of history. As I've studied God's history of his providence of restoration, it seems the same as a situation in which someone founded a country, and then some false owner came by and stole that nation, ruled it as he pleased, and called it his own.
Would the original founder just stand and watch? Would he try and get his country back? To put my feelings and reflections on my education of the Principle into one phrase, I have no choice but to conclude that the history of humanity has been too gruesome. Because they did not know the ruth of history, many religious people spent their lives by throwing away all earthly pleasures and tried only to live their lives devoutly in service to God.
Why was this truth kept so far away, until a false history, false Parent, and false lineage already were formed? God sent Reverend Moon to the earth in this Completed Testament age in order to clean up this pathetic history, and I feel that the people on earth are truly glorious and blessed.
But how then will the spirits in this place, whose fates and futures are different from the earth, be compensated, especially those who lived alone in their ascetic lives? After studying the Principle, I feel as if our situation is so miserable and desperate. The fact that we did not know God's original will, and the fact that we could hardly receive the benefit of this age, is to us a most cruel and desperate situation. Reverend Moon, Completed Testament Parent of humanity, how shall we manage our lives? Even if you comforted us saying, "You cannot receive the benefits of this age, so what would you like to do?" I could not accept it! How earnest must my heart for God have been to choose the life of a monk? Why, God, as the Parent of all people, do you make us suffer so? My life of asceticism was not an easy life.
But because of my desire to stand in a position of absolute obedience under the one and only God, I cut off from all earthly things and chose the path of a monk, believing that in such a life would be my reward. In today's world, people have a family and follow all the physical desires that they wish, while at the same time leading a life of faith. Monks, however, cut off from all physical things and devote themselves to a lifestyle of purity, devotion and holy worship.
So imagine how wretched it is to discover that that lifestyle was in vain?! To the monks, there is no fourposition foundation. Without an object, how can there be a fourposition foundation? True Parents of all people, Reverend Sun Myung Moon, what will you do with us monks and nuns? The ideal of Heaven is in the perfection of a family, so what are we to do? I don't want to be treated liberally, nor do I want you to be generous. Based on the standard of the Principle, what will you do? God, despite being an almighty Parent, did you let us go down such a wrong path? I will go confront the people who originated the destruction of humanity, Lucifer, Eve, Adam and others.
I will confront them and ask them if they can take responsibility for our lives. It is so depressing, so regrettable. I cannot bear it. There is no way that we cannot envy for all time, the people on earth today, who are blessed to be in the posi tion to receive the Messiah's grace. Reverend Moon! There is no reason for you to know who Dominic is. I am a sinner who encouraged all people to live ascetic lives only.
And reading the Principle, I've realized that that's not even the whole of what I've done. It's so depressing and miserable. It would be better if the Unification Principle were just one big lie. Hearing about the Parallel Periods of Providential History drives me insane. Who can truly understand this pain I feel? In the course of hearing the Unification Principle, I gave no small amount of effort to find parts of it that were false. All my effort was in vain. Messiah of all people, Reverend Moon, True Parents, what should we do? Please ease our hearts of this misery and frustration that we feel, and provide us a way. To put my reflection into one phrase, I am miserable, irritated and depressed. That is all.
Dominic 2001.10.23 |