The Beetle and the Womb

[Anemone]

In a few days, it will be my birthday. I will be two years old in a 40-year-old body. I was born through deliverance ministered by You Are My Angel Dasom. Since then, remarkable changes, both natural and supernatural events, have flowed through my life. Although my flesh and my Earthly identity remain the same, my spirit and my identity in Christ are drastically different.

Before I was delivered through HODAH, I was still in the “womb.” This womb is not my mother’s but a spiritual one. I cannot pinpoint when I was “conceived,” but I can testify that I was not a mistake and that the Holy Spirit truly has “knit me together in [the] womb” (Psalm 139:13).

The Holy Spirit began to call me 9 months before I came to HODAH (the month I was still in the “womb”).  He began to mold me even though I was not aware of His works.  How do I know?  It is because the beetle that received “I love you” from DK began to chase after me. 

The beetle came everywhere I went.  The beetle would circle around me when I was at the park watching my kids enjoying the playground.  It did not go after other people, just me.  When I was at a town center parking lot, the same beetle tried coming into the car while loading the children.  The clever beetle made it into the car, and my children and I made a ruckus in trying to kick the beetle out.  We screamed and shooed away, but it did not leave. 

There was another event when I went to an amusement park; the beetle was stuck on my shirt, and I did not know.  A stranger told me about the bug, and though I shook and jumped, the beetle held tight to my clothing.  Eventually, the stranger used her amusement park map to scrap the beetle out of my shirt, and it flew away.  The following day, I was eating my lunch in the car when the beetle came under my car seat.  It took about 20 minutes to get the beetle out. 

For about 3 months, it came to me daily. Ask my children; they are witnesses to these events. They were awed, too, that beetles would continue to come to their mom.

I didn’t know then, but I know now. The beetle that took a bite of HODAH’s watermelon and received one of the most beautiful words in the world, “I love you,” was trying to share the same love with me. It knew that my deliverance was coming, and I would no longer be in the “womb.”  It was a clear sign and indication that I would be born again.

After I joined HODAH and heard about the beetle's story, I understood why the beetle eagerly chased after me.  This was the time when the Holy Spirit was turning me in the right direction, just as a baby turns face-down before birth. After nine months of the beetle-chasing event, my deliverance came, and I was born-again to be the daughter of God.

Psalm 139:13-16. 

13. For you created my inmost being;
    you knit me together in my mother’s womb.
14 I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made;
    your works are wonderful,
    I know that full well.
15 My frame was not hidden from you
    when I was made in the secret place,
    when I was woven together in the depths of the earth.
16 Your eyes saw my unformed body;
    all the days ordained for me were written in your book
    before one of them came to be.

These verses shed a different light than before because it describes the spiritual “womb.”  I was made and molded so that I can be born again – born again as a daughter of God.  I always thought of this verse as an embryo developing into a fetus, and in many ways, it is.  However, I received a new revelation that it can apply to those who are in the spiritual “womb”.  I believe many who were delivered can agree with me that situations caused them to mold them to become born-again.

I celebrate my second birthday with this revelation and testimony.

Happy Birthday, Anemone.

Happy Birthday, DK.

[You are my angel Dasom]

The beetle flew all the way to Anemone
With echoes of mercy
With whispers of love
This is your story
This is your song
This is your Psalms

The happiest of birthdays to my El <3
To whom shall we fly to next?
To be continued!