Andrea's Testimony

[Dasom]

I didn’t know where to start so I opened my Daily Devotionals and read this: 

“WHEN YOU SEEK MY FACE, put aside thoughts of everything else. I am above all, as well as in all; your communion with Me transcends both time and circumstances. BE PREPARED TO BE BLESSED BOUNTIFULLY BY MY PRESENCE, for I am a God of unlimited abundance. Open wide your heart and mind to receive more and more of Me. WHEN YOUR JOY IN ME MEETS MY JOY IN YOU, THERE ARE FIREWORKS OF HEAVENLY ECSTASY. This is eternal life here and now: a tiny foretaste of what awaits you in the LIFE TO COME.”

That, right there, that’s my testimony. God basically just told me what to write.

If I had to summarize all of what I am feeling right now and tell you what I believe He has taught and shown me so far, that would be it. 

It’s so simple and yet so difficult for most ALL of us – LOVE. 

Love in the most encompassing way you could think of, if that makes any sense – to basically love yourself like He loves us, and I mean REALLY TRULY loving every physical part of your body because you are BEAUTIFULLY made in Him, to sincerely believe and know that you are BRILLIANT in all the ways necessary for His will to be done through you, and to just know that YOU ARE MADE PERFECTLY and should be so joyful for being YOU. 

After you love yourself as much as He loves you and you see ALL that He see’s in you, that’s when the “fireworks of heavenly ecstasy” start firing-up in your life! It’s no joke! 

After deliverance I didn’t know what to think. 

I guess I was expecting to be a completely “new Andrea” and to not be recognized by others – a free soul just flying around so happy and in love with God. 

I thought I wouldn’t have any more bad or negative thoughts, temptations, stress or needs, and that I would just be this newborn beautiful child of God roaming the streets on Cloud 9. 

That wasn’t the case. 

I felt like “normal Andrea” and was honestly pretty bummed out that I didn’t feel crazy different. 

I began to doubt and began thinking that maybe I was pretending to be “changed” in order to not disappoint others. 

I was wrong. 

And thank goodness I was wrong! 

I’m not saying that some big BOOM incident happened where I became this completely AWESOME new person, but little by little He was showing me how things have changed, how my life has changed, how my eyes see differently and my heart listens differently.

I began to notice that I wasn’t stressing out about every little thing and that I was less irritated with certain people and situations that have been really eating at me for the last few months. 

Instead of snapping at my parents who have been somewhat overwhelming and too much to handle lately, I was able to forgive them and tell them I love them rather than being angry or giving attitude.

One morning I woke-up (I was still at Dasom’s house) and I looked in the mirror and was pleasantly pleased with my face – this might sound silly, but I really did look at myself with no make-up and messy hair, and thought, “oh wow, not bad!”

I actually looked at Dasom and told her I thought my face and skin (which is what I’m shy about) wasn’t terrible! 

She laughed and told me she knew it was beautiful all along and I just didn’t see it! 

I am still shy about my skin and I find myself going back to my old habits, but my dislike is not as strong and when I do look at myself, I try not to think negatively, but more positively – the way God does.

I moved to a new city with new roommates a week ago and not only has God blessed me with nice girls to live with, great rent, and amazing location close to work, but also the best sleep I’ve had in over six months and a job I still can’t believe I landed. 

It’s funny because I knew I was blessed and my prayers were being answered, but it took me so long to really see it. 

I was driving home from work one day and something just clicked – all of a sudden I was laughing and smiling uncontrollably because of my joy! 

This is what I wrote to my girlfriends after stopping the car – I just had to share what I was feeling: 

I can’t believe how AMAZING everything is. I was just driving home and just AWED at His glory. How did He answer my prayers and give me TEN-FOLD?!?! Sure, it took over six months and I almost lost hope in it all, but this is just CRAZY! I’m not trying to brag about my good fortunes or anything, but WHAT IN THE WORLD?!?! How can He love so deeply?! This is wild! I’m like MIND BLOWN. Yeah, I knew how good it all was, but for some reason today... it just slapped me right across the face and I am SPEECHLESS. HE IS SO SO SO GOOD. I’m so happy.

I don’t think I knew just how much I was changed until my eyes were miraculously opened and I was overwhelmed with joy. 

All I can say is that, HE IS LOVE, HE LOVES ME, and with Him I can finally love myself and be in love with all He has blessed me with.

Like He told me to write in the beginning of this testimony, “When you seek His face and put everything else aside, be prepared to be blessed BOUNTIFULLY, for He is a God of UNLIMITED ABUNDANCE.” 

There are so many things I could share here and probably a hundred more things I am forgetting about, but that is okay, because I am able to tell you my main message, which is He is love, He loves me.

Therefore, I love me, and when you give it all up to Him, He gives more PLUS MORE to the point where you’re bursting with joy and jubilation! 

Thanks for reading! I love you!

[Dasom]

Amen! He is love therefore you are love! Your words just reached Heaven and back and will now go forth from you to the other children of God. I am so touched to hear your love confession to your parents and God. I am so proud of you! Good job Andrea :3
Thank you for the beautiful testimony and I pray that you will always remain in this peace and love with Jesus! I love you so much mate!

[새성전의 기둥]

WOW. Yes. He loves you so much. He is only interested in you and wants to have relationship with you. He created you in a perfect form and said you are beautiful. But these evil spirits were deceiving you that you are not good enough. Now you know the truth and loves you. Only thing that you have to do is let him love you and shares with you. We are always here praying for you. Love....