참父母經 / Chambumo Gyeong - 351 - 평양에서 40일간 제자 수습

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참부모경 - 351. 평양에서 40일간 제자 수습

흥남감옥을 나오신 참아버님께서는 10일 만에 평양에 도착하셔서 많은 사람들이 피란길을 떠나는 상황에서도 40일 동안 흩어진 제자들을 일일이 찾으셨다. 고향 정주가 먼 거리가 아님에도 부모형제를 만나러 가지 않으신 것은 아벨보다 가인을 먼저 사랑해야 된다는 탕감복귀의 길을 가셔야 했기 때문이다. 그리고 김원필․박정화씨를 데리고 남하의 길에 올라 비로소 새 출발을 하셨다.
 
8 생각만 해도 아주 몸서리쳐지는 평양인데 흥남감옥에서 나와 평양을 찾아들어 갔습니다. 거기에 식구들이 있었기 때문입니다. 세상사람 같으면 응당 자기 고향을 찾아갈 것입니다. 내가 감옥에 들어갔을 때 나를 생각해 준 몇몇 식구가 남아 있는 것을 알았고, 또 내가 이런 생활을 하게 된 것은 하늘이 동기가 되었기 때문입니다. 그래서 옛날 평양에 있을 때 관계되었던 식구들을 전부 찾아본 것입니다. 반대하던 사람, 떨어져 나간 사람까지 찾아본 것입니다. 그 사람들은 내가 감옥에 들어갔기에 떨어진 것이지 내가 있을 때 떨어진 것이 아닙니다. 감옥에 들어가기 전에 나를 믿는다고 맹세했던 사람들입니다. 나한테 떨어진다고 보고를 안 했고 통고도 안 했기 때문에 나에게는 스승된 책임이 있다는 것입니다. 그들은 배반하더라도 하늘 앞에 믿겠다고 맹세하고 약속했던 기준이 있습니다. 그 사람들을 직접 만나서 그들이 박대할 때에는 하늘도 역시 포기하겠지만, 하늘이 아직까지 나에게 관심을 갖고 있는 이상 그전까지는 스승으로서 맹세한 책임을 져야 됩니다. 그렇기 때문에 흩어진 모든 식구들을 찾았던 것입니다. 내가 직접 못 가면 김원필을 시켜서 만나다 보니 고향에 가지 못했던 것입니다. 일주일을 헤매도 못 찾은 사람이 있었습니다.
 
9 아버님이 흥남감옥에서 나올 때 따라 나온 사람은 네 사람입니다. 예수님은 홀로 갔습니다. 그렇지만 아버님은 감옥에서 나올 때 네 사람이 같이 나왔습니다. 함경남도에서부터 평안남도까지 제일 어려운 산악지대를 걸어 나온 것입니다. 동해안을 중심삼고 금강산․설악산의 태백산맥, 강원도․함경도․평안도의 삼각지대를 넘어온 것입니다. 그때 북한 인민군이 태백산맥을 통해서 도망갔습니다. 군대가 우글우글하던 소굴을 거쳐 나온 것입니다. 자기들은 도망가는데 우리는 이남으로 내려오니 문제가 되었습니다. 돌아가려면 나흘 닷새를 잃어버려야 되기 때문입니다. 데리고 갔던 죄수들을 쏴 버리고 도망가는 판입니다. 그런 위험지대를 거쳐 올 때에도 ‘감옥에 있다가 나오는 사람에게는 다 위험지대지 못 갈 데가 어디 있느냐?’라면서 일부러 그런 데를 찾아 나왔습니다. 그렇게 해서 평양에 왔습니다. 피란민 생활을 하면서 평양에서 전도할 때 모였던 사람들을 찾았습니다. 내가 감옥 갈 때 눈물짓던 사람들을 잊지 않고 찾겠다고 해서 찾은 것입니다. 중공군이 평양에 입성한다는 보도를 들은 판국이었지만 만나 보지 못한 한 할머니를 찾으러 갔습니다. 그 할머니가 죽은 것을 알고 난 후에 피란을 나온 것입니다.
 
10 북한에서 공산당이 모든 종교단체를 핍박하고 없애려고 했는데 제일 나중에까지 남은 단체가 우리였습니다. 그때는 통일교회라는 이름이 없었습니다. 아버님이 가르치는 하나의 집단이었습니다. 감옥에서 나와서 해야 될 것은 교회 일을 계속하는 것이었습니다. 그래서 우선 평양에 있는 옛날 식구들을 만나 봤습니다. 아버님이 3년 가까이 감옥에 있었고 공산당이 핍박을 하니 드러 내 놓고 종교생활을 할 수 있는 환경이 못 됐습니다. 그래서 점점 지하로 들어갔기 때문에 감옥에서 나와서도 그런 일을 전혀 할 수가 없었습니다. 그때 이남으로 내려오기 전에 옛날에 인연되었던 모든 식구들을 다 만난 것입니다. 감옥에 들어갈 때 그들이 눈물 흘리고 슬퍼하던 것이 생생합니다. 내가 쇠고랑을 차고 5년형을 선고받고 5년 동안 잘 있다가 만나자고 할 때 눈물 흘리던 그것을 생각하면 지금도 생생합니다. 감옥에서 나와 뜻 가운데 맺어진 식구들을 다시 규합하기 위해 늙은 사람으로부터 젊은 사람에 이르기까지 생각나는 모든 사람들을 찾았습니다.
 
11 내가 흥남감옥에서 평양으로 나온 후에 세 번씩이나 사람을 보내 찾았던 사람이 있습니다. 한 번 가니 문전에서 배반하고 두 번 가니 문전에서 배반하고 세 번 갔는데도 문전에서 배반하였습니다. 나로서는 하나님이 돌아서라는 지시가 있을 때까지 최고의 정성을 들여야 됩니다. 버릴 수 없습니다. 남들은 전부 이남으로 피란을 가는데 12월 2일 저녁때까지 사람을 시켜서 연락한 것입니다. 거기에서 내가 할 책임을 다했습니다. 천하의 어디를 가도 부끄럽지 않다는 것입니다. 심정의 이념을 들고 나와 심정에 받은 상처, 내 가슴속에 심어졌던 모든 상처를 뽑고 새로운 심정을 하나님 앞에 연결시킬 수 있다는 자신을 찾고 나서 비로소 거기를 떠나왔습니다. 그렇기 때문에 밤에 평양을 떠난 것입니다. 지도자는 이렇게 신중하게 책임을 져야 합니다. 사지사판에서도 하나님이 맡겨 준 책임분야를 끝맺고 가지 않으면 그 사람이 가는 길이 막혀 버립니다. 그렇기 때문에 그때에 인연되었던 사람에 대해 끝을 맺지 않으면 안 됩니다. 그래서 내가 하늘땅 앞에 금세나 내세에 있어서 그들의 조상이 동정하고 후손이 동정할 수 있는 자리에 서야 됩니다. 그런 것을 생각했기 때문에 그 사람들을 찾아갔던 것입니다.
 
12 나는 8남매의 형제를 다 버린 사람입니다. 이북에서 감옥생활을 할 때 앞으로의 정세가 어떻게 될 것인가를 예상했던 사람입니다. 평양에 가서 40일 동안 있었는데 거기에서 280리만 가면 내 고향입니다. 이틀이면 고향에 갔다 올 수도 있었지만 고향에 있는 부모형제들을 찾아가지 않고 뜻을 대했던 사람들을 한 사람도 남기지 않고 찾아갔습니다. 하늘을 두고 맹세했던 사람들을 만나러 다닌 것입니다. 고향에 있는 부모와 친척을 돌보지 않고 식구 한 사람을 위해 생명을 걸고 찾아다녔습니다.
 
13 내가 평양에 가 있을 때 이틀만 걸어가면 형님을 모셔 올 수 있었습니다. 그러나 나라를 형님 이상 사랑했다는 조건을 세워 놓지 않고는 모셔오지 못하는 것입니다. 이것이 완전한 탕감복귀입니다. 아벨이 되기 위해서는 가인을 사랑해야 됩니다. 그다음 참부모를 모시기 위해서는 먼저 사탄세계의 부모를 모셔야 합니다. 그렇기 때문에 내가 그런 역사를 했던 것입니다. 그래서 할머니들을 모시고 나왔습니다. 원칙이 그렇습니다. 할머니들을 삼위기대로 묶고, 모자협조를 할 수 있는 사탄세계의 세 아들딸을 세워 나온 것입니다. 여러분도 이 원칙대로 그렇게 해야 됩니다.

真の父母経 - 351. 平壌で四十日間、弟子を収拾

興南監獄を出られた真のお父様は、十日後に平壌に到着され、多くの人々が避難の途に就く状況で も、四十日間、散り散りになった弟子たちを一人一人捜し求められた。故郷の定州（チョンヂュ）は それほど遠くなかったが、父母や兄弟に会いに行かれなかったのは、アベルよりもカインを先に愛さ なければならないという、蕩減復帰の道を行かなければならなかったからである。そして、金元弼と 朴正華を連れ、南下の途に就いて、ようやく新しい出発をされたのである。

８ 考えただけでも身震いをするほどの平壌でしたが、興南の監獄から出てきて、平壌を訪ねていき ました。そこに食口たちがいたからです。世の中の人であれば、当然、自分の故郷を訪ねていくでし ょう。私が監獄に入ったとき、私のことを考えてくれた何人かの食口が残っていることを知り、また、 私がこのような生活をするようになったのは、天が動機となっていたからです。

そうして、以前、平壌にいたときに関係のあった食口たちをすべて捜してみました。反対していた 人や離れていった人まで捜してみたのです。その人たちは、私が監獄に入ったから離れてしまったの であって、私がいる時に離れたのではありません。監獄に入る前に、私のことを信じると誓った人た ちです。私に「離れる」と報告もせず、通告もしていないので、私には師としての責任があるという のです。彼らは裏切るとしても、天のみ前に「信じる」と誓い、約束した基準があります。その人た ちに自ら会って、彼らが冷遇する時は、天もまた諦めるのですが、天がいまだに私に関心をもってい る以上、それまでは師として誓った責任を取らなければなりません。

ですから、散らばっているすべての食口たちを捜したのです。私が自ら行くことができなければ、 金元弼を遣わして会わせたりしていたので、故郷に行くことができませんでした。一週間、捜し回っ たのに見つけられない人もいました。 ９ お父様が興南の監獄から出てくる時に付いてきた人は四人です。イエス様は一人で逝きました。 しかし、お父様が監獄から出てくる時は、四人が一緒に出てきたのです。咸鏡南道から平安（ピョン アン）南道まで、最も険しい山岳地帯を歩いてきました。東海岸を中心として、金剛山（クムガンサ ン）、雪嶽山（ソラクサン）の太白（テベク）山脈、江原道（カンウォンド）、咸鏡道、平安道の三角 地帯を越えてきたのです。

その時、北朝鮮の人民軍が太白山脈を通って逃げていきました。軍隊があちらこちらにいる巣窟を 経由してきたのです。人民軍は逃げていくのに、私たちは南の方に行こうとしていたので問題になり ました。迂回しようとすれば、四日、五日を無駄にしてしまうからです。（軍隊は、）連れていった囚 人たちを銃殺して逃げていく状況でした。そのような危険地帯を経てくる時にも、「監獄から出てきた 人にとっては、すべてが危険地帯だ。行けない所がどこにあるか」と言いながら、わざわざそのよう な所をたどってきたのです。そのようにして平壌に着きました。

避難民生活をしながら、平壌で伝道した時に集まっていた人たちを捜しました。「私が監獄に行く時 に涙を流したその人たちを忘れずに捜すのだ」と思って捜したのです。中共軍が平壌に入城するとい う報道を耳にしましたが、会えずにいた一人のおばあさんを捜しに行きました。そのおばあさんが亡 くなったことを知ってから、避難してきたのです。 10 北朝鮮で共産党があらゆる宗教団体を迫害してなくそうとしましたが、最後まで残った団体が私 たちでした。当時は統一教会という名前はありませんでした。お父様が教える一つの集団だったので す。監獄から出てきてやるべきことは、教会の活動を続けることでした。ですから、まず平壌にいる 昔の食口たちに会ってみました。お父様が三年近く監獄にいて、共産党が迫害をするので、あからさ まに宗教生活ができる環境ではありませんでした。そのため、だんだんと地下に入っていったので、 監獄から出てきてからも、そのようなことが全くできませんでした。

その時、以南に下る前に、昔、関係を結んでいたすべての食口たちに会ったのです。監獄に入ると き、彼らが涙を流して悲しんだことが鮮明に思い出されます。私が手錠をかけられ、五年の刑を宣告されて、「五年の間、元気に暮らしてまた会おう」と言った時、涙を流したそのことを思うと、今でも （その場面が）鮮明に浮かびます。監獄から出てきて、み旨の中で結ばれた食口たちを再び糾合する ために、年老いた人から若い人に至るまで、思いつくすべての人たちを捜しました。

11 私が興南の監獄から平壌に出てきたのちに、三度も人を送って訪ねた人がいます。最初に行った 時も門前で断られ、二回目に行った時も、三回目に行った時も門前で断られました。私としては、「背 を向けよ」という神様の指示があるまで、最高の精誠を尽くさなければなりません。見捨てることは できないのです。ほかの人たちはみな以南に避難していくのに、十二月二日の夕方まで人を送って連 絡させました。

そこで私が果たすべき責任は、すべて果たしました。天下のどこに行っても恥ずかしくないという のです。心情の理念をもって歩み始め、心情に受けた傷、私の胸中に植えつけられたすべての傷を抜 き取り、新たな心情を神様のみ前に連結させ得るという自信を得てから、初めてそこを離れました。 ですから、夜、平壌を出発したのです。

指導者はこのように、慎重に責任を負わなければなりません。死ぬような立場においても、神様が 任せてくれた責任分野を終結させていかなければ、その人の行く道が塞がってしまいます。ですから、 そのときに関係を結んだ人に対して、結論を出さなければならないのです。そうして、私が天地を前 にして、現世や来世で、彼らの先祖が同情し、子孫が同情し得る場に立たなければなりません。その ようなことを考えたため、その人々を訪ねていったのです。

12 私は、八人の兄弟をすべて捨てた人です。北朝鮮で監獄生活をする時、これからの情勢がどうなる かを予想していた人です。平壌に行って、四十日間滞在していましたが、そこから二十八里だけ行け ば私の故郷です。二日あれば故郷に行ってくることもできましたが、故郷にいる親兄弟たちには会い に行かず、み旨と向き合っていた人たちを一人残らず訪ねていきました。天のみ前に誓った人たちに 会うために歩き回ったのです。故郷にいる父母や親戚を顧みず、食口一人のために命を懸けて捜し回 りました。

13 私が平壌に行っている時、二日だけ歩けば、兄を連れてこられました。しかし、兄以上に国を愛 したという条件を立てておかなければ、連れてくることができないのです。父母以上に国を愛すると いう条件を立てておかなければ、父母を連れてくることはできません。これが完全な蕩減復帰です。

アベルになるためには、カインを愛さなければなりません。その次に、真の父母を迎えるためには、 まずサタン世界の父母に侍らなければなりません。ですから、私はそのような役事をしたのです。そ れで、おばあさんたちを連れて出てきました。原則がそのようになっています。おばあさんたちを三 位基台として結び、母子協助をすることができるサタン世界の三人の息子、娘を立ててきたのです。 皆さんもこの原則どおり、そのようにしなければなりません。

Chambumo Gyeong - 351. 40 days in Pyongyang

True Father arrived in Pyongyang ten days after he was liberated from Heungnam Prison. Even when many people were leaving and hurrying to the South, he searched for 40 days to try to find all of his scattered disciples. Even though his hometown of Jeongju was not far away, he did not go there to meet his parents and siblings. This was because he felt he absolutely had to go the path of restoration through indemnity, which required him to love Cain first, and love him more than Abel. And so it was that, accompanied by Kim Won-pil and Pak Jeong-hwa, Father finally departed on the road to South Korea.
 
8 Just thinking of Pyongyang made me shudder, but when I left Heungnam Prison I went back and visited the city. I did this because my church family members were there. If I were just an ordinary person, I would have ignored Pyongyang and gone directly to visit my hometown. However, I knew that in that city were my church family members whose heart had gone out to me when I entered prison. I acted as I did on heaven s motivation. Accordingly, I went back to Pyongyang and searched for each of the family members who had been with me when I was doing ministry there.

I also looked for those who had left and had even come to oppose me. Of course, they did not leave me while I was in Pyongyang; the only reason they left me and opposed me was that I had been sent to prison. They were people who had pledged to believe in me before I was imprisoned. Since they had not notified me that they wanted to sever their ties, as their teacher I still felt responsible for them. Even though some of them betrayed me, they had once pledged in front of God that they would believe in me, and I felt that vow still stood. If they were to oppose me directly after I had located them, then heaven would let them go. But since heaven had the same regard for me as before, until they personally denied me, I was determined to take responsibility for them as their teacher.

This was why I scoured the city for all those scattered members. When I could not go directly to meet some of them, I sent Kim Won-pil. Because of all this, I was unable to go to my hometown. Still there was one person I could not find, even though I went around searching for her for a week. (158-054, 1967/02/14)
 
9 When I left Heungnam Prison, there were four people who came along with me as my followers. Jesus died alone, but when I emerged from prison, four people joined me. We walked from South Hamgyeong Province to North Pyeongan Province, through the most difficult mountainous terrain in Korea. From the coast of the East Sea, we walked over Geumgang Mountain and Seorak Mountain in the Taebaek Range in Gangwon Province and then through the mountainous area of North Pyeongan Province.

At that time, the North Korean People s Army was retreating in disarray through the Taebaek Mountains. We went through a territory crawling with soldiers. Our problem was that we were traveling south while the soldiers were escaping north. Why did we take such a path? If we had gone around the soldiers, we would have lost four or five days. On the other hand, it was a situation in which they were retreating and shooting the prisoners they had with them. So as we passed through this dangerous zone, I said to my followers, "What could be dangerous for people who have just left prison? We should be able to go anywhere." So, we deliberately chose that route and finally arrived in Pyongyang.

While living the life of a refugee, I searched for the original group that had gathered around me when I ministered in Pyongyang. I could not forget those who had shed tears for me when I was sent to prison, and because I had promised that I would find them, I kept on searching. At that time, I heard that the Communist Chinese army would soon enter the city, but I still went in search of an elderly lady I had so far been unable to meet. After I learned that the lady had died, we evacuated. (520-186, 2006/03/13)
 
10 In North Korea, the Communist Party persecuted all of the churches and tried to get rid of them, but we remained to the end. In those days, I did not call our group the Unification Church. It was just a group I was teaching. But even after I left the prison, I had to continue my ministry. Therefore, when I arrived in Pyongyang, I first tried to meet all the family members who had been with me there.

I was in prison almost three years, and because of the communist persecution during that time, church members could not openly practice their religious life. Indeed, they had gradually gone underground. So even though I was freed from prison, I could not continue my ministry as I used to. Still, before traveling to South Korea, I managed to meet almost all the family members who had been with me in the past.

I can vividly recall the moment when those members shed sorrowful tears as I was led away to prison in shackles. I had been sentenced to five years, and when I said to them, "Take care and let's meet together again five years from now," they wept. Even now the memory is vivid. After I came out of prison, I searched for everyone I could think of—the old and the young—for the sake of gathering again the family members with whom I had made a relationship based on the Will. (170-015, 1987/11/01)
 
11 After I left Heungnam Prison and went to Pyongyang, I sent a messenger on three separate occasions to a man who had been a member of my group. The first time, the man turned away my messenger at the door. He visited a second and third time, but the man snubbed him each time. The principle I adhere to is that I must invest myself with highest devotion until God instructs me to stop. Until then, I just cannot give up. While everyone else was escaping to the South, I continued to try to contact this man, sending for him until the evening of December 2. Therefore, I completely fulfilled my responsibility toward him.

Wherever I go under the sun, I have nothing to be ashamed of. I have been upholding the teachings based on heart. In Pyongyang my heart was pierced and wounded many times. So I did not want to leave until I had removed all those wounds. After doing that I had the conviction that I was ready to connect new people in the South with God. That is why I left Pyongyang that very night. Leaders must carry out their responsibilities diligently like this.

Even in a life-or-death situation, unless a leader completes the portion of responsibility that God entrusted him with, his path will be blocked. You have to bring a clear resolution and tie up every relationship you make with people. You see, whether I am in this world or the next, I must stand in the position where the ancestors of that person are able to sympathize with me and, at the same time, the descendants of that person will be able to sympathize with me. Because I thought like this, I searched for that particular former member. (157-336, 1967/10/16)
 
12 I left behind all eight of my siblings. Even when I was in prison in North Korea, I could foresee the future political situation. Accordingly, after I came out of prison I went to Pyongyang and stayed there for 40 days. My hometown was only about 110 kilometers from there, so two days would have been enough time for me to travel home. But during those 40 days, instead of visiting my parents and siblings, I searched out every person I had previously worked with for the Will. I went here and there, seeking out those people who had once pledged their lives to me before heaven. I gave no priority to caring for my parents and relatives in my hometown, but instead looked for each family member at the risk of my life. (038-325, 1971/01/08)
 
13 When I was in Pyongyang, I could have taken the two-day journey to meet my older brother and brought him with me. However, I knew that if I did not make the condition of loving my country more than I loved my older brother, I could not have a clear heart to bring him with me. I knew that if I did not make the condition to love my country more than I loved my parents, I would not have a clear heart to bring my parents with me.

This is the requirement of perfect restoration through indemnity. In order to become Abel, one must love Cain. Then, in order to attend True Parents, one must first attend the parents of Satan's world. That is why 1 did these things. That is why when I came out of prison I attended elderly women. The fundamental Principle of Restoration is like that. I left the prison and gathered together grandmothers to form a trinity. I set up three children from Satan's world who were able to carry out mother-son cooperation. You also need to act in this way according to this principle. (029-226, 1970/02/)