긴 휴일이 끝나고,,, 인도네시아에서 철학?

[터보 박]

인도네시아에선 아마도 가장 긴 휴일이라네요.
해마다 약1주일씩 빨라진다는 라마단이 올해는 4월이었답니다.
그리고, 라마단의 마지막주를 휴일로 지정한 모양입니다.

인도네사아 사람들은 제가 보기론 종교에 상당히 신실한것 같아요.
여자들의 스스로 히잡을 많이 쓰는것도 있지만, 하루에 몇번씩이나 기도를 하고 화장실에 비치된 발닦는 곳에서 발씻는 사람도 많지요.

그리고, 나의 운전사도 기도시간을 지키고, 라마단 금식기간에는 그 룰을 참 잘지키지요. 그들 주위에 있는 다른 종교의 동료들도 그들을 응원하기위해서 해떨어지면 먹을수있는 식사를 함께하는 습관이 있답니다. 본사가 있는 자카르타 사무실도, 카라왕에 있는 공장에서도,,,

이 분들은 큰소리를 내는것이 없어요. 그리고 그들은 화도 내지 않아요.  
그들은 감정이 격하지 않아서 기본적으로 조용한 국민이네요. 또한, 그들은 화려하지도 않고요.

난 이번 긴 휴가에 가능한한 작게 목표를 세웠답니다. 작게 계획을 세워야 실현하기 쉬울것 같아서요.
물론, 최우선으로 영어와 인도네시아어를 정하고, 나머지는 골프 연습과 몇권의 독서와 좋은 글 읽고쓰기와 악기연습등이 있었지요.

아마도 목표의 50%정도 달성했을까요?

인도네시아어 접하기 50% /(결과) 책 2-3번 반복과 채팅
영어 접하기 50% /(결과) 업무영어와 책1-2번 반복
필드골프와 골프연습 /(결과) 100% 2번의 필드와 5번의 연습
독서 2-3권 읽기 0% /(결과) 겉표지만 봤다.
좋은글 읽고 쓰기 30% /(결과) FaceBook과 주위에서 보내주는 좋은글
악기연습 10% /(결과) 휴일처음에는 기타, 피아노, 드럼까지 건드렸는데,,,

이렇게 보내고 나니, 또 3연휴가 있었습니다. 보충수업같은 것이지요.
4/29(토), 4/30(일), 5/1(월:노동절)이었답니다. 라마단 휴가 기간동안 달성못했던 목표을 달성할수 있는 찬스였지요. 
그런데 실망스럽게도 이 날들까지 합쳐서 이 정도밖에 못했답니다. 확실히 내가 좋아하는 순서보다는 하기와 같은 심리적 내용이 나를 이렇게 만들어 버렸네요. 그리고, 이 재료들은 나를 심리적으로 파악할수있는 재료가 되네요.

<책임감과 의무감 : 인기를 얻고 싶은 욕심>
어학력, 골프

<업무를 잘하고 싶은 의지 : 똑똑하고 현명함을 보이고 싶은 욕심>
영어와 인도네시아어

<마음의 양식 : 잘난척 하고싶은 욕심>
독서와 악기(추가로 예술, 그림등,,,) , 좋은글은 좋은 말을 유도해내니까,,, 

이런 것들이 결국은 부질없는 것일까? 나 스스로에게 묻고는 난 답이 없다. 그렇기때문에 악착같이 열심히 하지않는 것이다. 우리들이 인정하는 천재들은 이러한 목표들을 끝까지 해낸다. 악착같이,,,
이런것들이 나와 천재라는 사람들과의 차이점이다...

난 그래서 스스로의 마음을 편하게 가져가기위해서 항상 "초2류"를 주장해왔었다. 나는 천재들처럼 그렇게 못한다고 스스로 인정한셈이니까... 
누가 더 행복할까 의심스럽게 질문을 남발하면서 말이야. 비겁하다...

내 나이 60을 벌써 벌써 넘기고 머리에 흰색 면류관을 썻는대도 아직도 수준이 이 정도이니,,, 99세에 생을 마감하신 친구의 아버님도 89세에 마감하신 나의 아버지도 얼마나 인생이 무엇인지 아셨을까? 이 인생을 말이야,,,

말씀에서는 "사람은 즐거워하며 기뻐하는게 인생"이라 하셨는데,,,
"깨달음"이 아니었는가? 예전에 어느 멘토께서 이런 말씀하셨지.
"내 나이 27세까지만 지식이 쌓였고 그 이후의 나의 인생에는 경험이 쌓이더라." 하였는데 그 당시 맞는 말씀이라고 여겼고 지금도 그런게 아닌가 싶다. 의심스럽기도 하지만,,,  

몸이야 노화되어 가지만 지혜와 경험(Good Sence)은 계속 쌓여가는게 맞는것 같다.
또 노화의 한 현상으로 쌓여진 Good sence중에 사용하지 않은 지식과 지혜는 점점 사라지는 것이 노화라고 생각한다. 내 나름대로 판단한 것이지만, 노망(치매)이라는 것은 새로이 뇌에서 기억되는 지식과 지혜가 뇌 속에서 오래되서 사라지는 지식과 지혜보다 적으면, 삶에 직접적으로 관여된 것조차도 함께 연계되어 사라져 가족조차 몰라보는 경우가 아닌가 생각했다. 과거도 현재조차도 뇌속에서 사라지는다 

50이 넘은 사람들에게 점점 나타나는 가물가물한 기억과 혼동들.
60이 넘어서는 그 정도가 많아지고 헷깔리고 하겠지.
아마도 70이후엔 현실인가 상상의 세계인가 혼동도 되겠지.
우리들이 80이 되면 이런 생각조차 하고 싶지않고 드디어 죽음을 기다리기 시작하겠지.
90이 되면 체념이나 달관조차도 의미없음을 스스로 인식없이 살겠지.
100세 이후엔 그래도 머리가 가동하고 있다면 살고있다는 뭔가 표현을 할수있는걸 보이려고 하겠지... 그리곤 가나? 거기로,,,

<영어 번역>

It is probably the longest holiday in Indonesia.
Ramadan, which is about a week earlier every year, was in April this year.
And it seems that the last week of Ramadan has been designated as a holiday.

The people of Indonesia, I think, are quite religious.
Women use hijabs a lot on their own, but there are many people who pray several times a day and wash their feet in the bathroom.

Also, my driver keeps the prayer time and keeps the rules very well during Ramadan fasting. Colleagues from other religions around them also have a habit of eating together at sunset to cheer them up. The Jakarta office where the head office is located, and the factory in Karawang,,,

These people don't make loud noises. And they don't even get angry.
They're basically quiet people because they don't have strong emotions. Also, they are not fancy.

I set a goal as small as possible for this long vacation. I think it'll be easy to realize if I make a small plan.
Of course, I chose English and Indonesian first, and then I practiced golf, read a few books, read and write good books, and practice musical instruments.

Maybe 50% of the target has been achieved?

Indonesian 50% / (result) Repeat book 2-3 times and chat
English Access 50% / (Result) Repeat work English and books 1-2 times
Field golf and golf practice / (result) 100% 2 field and 5 practice
Reading 2-3 books 0% / (result) I only saw the cover.
30% of good reading and writing / (result) Good writing sent by FaceBook and others
Musical instrument practice 10% / (result) I touched guitar, piano, and drums at first,,,

After spending it like this, there was another three holidays. It's kind of like a supplementary class.
It was 4/29 (Sat), 4/30 (Sun), 5/1 (Monday: Labor Day). It was an opportunity to achieve a goal that I couldn't achieve during the Ramadan vacation.
But I'm disappointed that I've only done this much, including these days. Definitely, the following psychological content rather than the order I like made me like this. And these materials are the materials that can identify me psychologically.

<Responsibility and Duty: Greed to gain popularity>
language skills, golf

<Willingness to do well at work: Greed to show smartness>
English and Indonesian

<Form of mind: Greed to show off>
Reading and musical instruments (additional art, painting, etc.) and good writing induce good words,,,

Are these things useless after all? I ask myself and I have no answer. That's why I don't work hard. The geniuses we acknowledge accomplish these goals to the end. Like hell,,,
These are the differences between me and the people who are geniuses...

So I've always insisted on "super-second-rate" to take my mind at ease. I admit to myself that I'm not as good as geniuses are...
By questioning who would be happier. That's cowardly...

I'm already over 60 and wearing a white crown on my head is still at this level, so did my friend's father who died at 99 and my father who died at 89 know what life is like? This life,,,

The saying goes, "Life is when people are happy and happy."
Wasn't it "realization"? A mentor once said this.
I said, "I only gained knowledge until I was 27 years old, and I gained experience in my life after that," but I thought it was right at that time and I think it is still the case. I doubt it, but,,,

The body is aging, but it seems right to continue to accumulate wisdom and experience.
In addition, I think aging is the gradual disappearance of unused knowledge and wisdom among goodness accumulated as a phenomenon of aging. I judged it in my own way, but I thought that if the knowledge and wisdom newly remembered in the brain are less than the knowledge and wisdom that disappears in the brain, even the things directly involved in life disappear together, so even the family doesn't know. The past and the present disappear from the brain

The hazy memories and confusion that increasingly appear in people over 50.
It will be more than 60 and more and more complicated.
Maybe after 70 it's confusing whether it's real or imaginary.
When we're 80 years old, we don't even want to think about this, and we'll finally start waiting for death.
By 90, even resignation or dalgwan will live without recognizing themselves that it is meaningless.
After the age of 100, if your brain is still working, you're going to show something you can express that you're alive... And then you go? There,,,

[터보 박]

김형석교수가 100세를 훨 넘지 않았는가. 아직도 많은 말씀을 하신다. 아마도 천재신가? 아니면 맘이 편한 초2류신가? 모르지만 천재에 가까운 초2류셨다는 느낌이다. 뭔가 삶의 발자취를 남기시는데 정치적으로 물들은 몇몇 90대이하의 젊은이를 포함해서 20-30대의 젊은이들이 답글을 단것을 본적이 있다."노망든 할배 그만 씨부리고 그냥 가라!",,, 그 답글단 젊은이의 인생을 보고싶다. 어떤 삶을 살고 있을까,,, 참 희안하고 동정조차 하기 힘든 삶을 살고있지는 않을까? 60이 넘은 인생들은 그 각각의 인생중에 그런 젊은이같은 인생이 어떻게 되어가는가를 계속 봐왔으니,,, 그리고, 나이들어도 70이 되어도 이런 인생을 사는 사람은 어떨까? 어떤 삶을 살고 있을까 보고싶다. 요즘 내 주위에 그런 인생이 있는가 찾는데 참 보기 힘들다. 뉴스에서나 TV에서나 간간이 그런 사람이려니 하고있을뿐이다...