sadness of pork hock

[ollipo]

I was waiting for another VIP and his delegation with protocole team at the entrance of main building. As soon as a general manager who had accompanied them arrived, he told me “ You have to give well a presentation today, I met a girl in charge of English presentation who employed a month ago in other plant. Even if it was the first presentation, she did well. She lived for a few years in U.S.A. Her English was like native speaker. Visitors were very satisfied with her presentation. So, you did better than her “

It seemed to me that he was moved to admiration by her presentation. Although I tried to take his saying positively and to betray my emotion, I was really embarrassed and distressed with his simple saying.

Our protocole team’s boss and members blamed him for thoughtless saying and encouraged me ; I can’t be compared by that girl. I’m better than her. I can speak French also.

Yes, I have never studied in U.S.A. My major is not English. But I have never regretted my major or my present place. I have been doing my best, doing well my job, and I was well appreciated by my company. I have thanked for this estimation.

I’m not a person in full charge of protocole. My executive director found out my ability in foreign language by chance and gave a chance in giving a presentation to foreign VIPs on behalf of my company.

Of course, even if other chiefs from foreign buisiness team gave also presentations, my presentation skill and level were highly judged. I took pride in this work.

Actually, directors or general managers who are working for foreign business or R & D center don’t speak fluently English. Even doctors who took a doctorate from foreign countries didn’t speak English perfectly. But I think that it’s not a problem, because they can well express what they think and want to say.

Even if I didn’t like this protocole activity and I got much stress from different directors, I thought that it is new experience to me. And personally, my dream in high school days was to be an announcer.

When I speak at a microphone, I have an amazing illusion that I’m an announcer.

Now I’m working as scheduler. I had been a coordinator before. Beyond my present work( Of course, it was an order from my director), I helped this procole team.

That is to say, I was selected among normal employees of our company. I was not a person specially employed who specialize in only English presentation.

I have my normal work. Presentation is only my side job that happens rarely.

On the other hand, if there are high-ranking visitors, directors scramble for explaining in English. Although I accompany visitors to guide, I have no chance to explain, because there are too many persons who want to explain. It’s like a political quarrel flattering to President. I’m mere engineer in front of high directors.

This time also, I followed this group saying nearly nothing. I felt my personality ignored.

I was really distressed with this simple service toward visitors.

Although I had worked with many foreigners, in spite of their position, they respected me. Of course, there are other colleagues including director who clean, arrange building whenever visitors come.

I had to stay outdoors for about 4 hours shivering with chilly wind because of thin clothes.  I was very hungry. I was really exhausted. I suddenly felt the emptiness of life. I wanted to fill something warm with this emptiness. My father bought smoked pork hock from famous restaurant for me. Having it with my family, I felt relaxed. How could I live without my family ? My younger sister comforted me saying that it’s too normal that she speak well English because she lived for a few years in U.S.A.

I’m not sure that she did well so admirable ?

As soon as I filled my stomach, I could forget what it had happened for half day with satiation.

[Jim Lee]

Due to time constraints, I am going to have to politely ask you to shorten your diaries....I always have liked reading your diaries in the past..however, with many things I have to do to maintain this cafe...I sincerely apologize for asking you to make your diary a bit shorter.

[Jim Lee]

I hope you do understand me and not have any ill feelings. Thanks. :-)

[ollipo]

I have never imagined that you thought like that. Okay. this cafe exists for everybody. I can understand your responsability on this cafe. I'll shorten my diary.