Third Deliverance Background and Update

[Anemone]

This past Saturday, I went to deliverance. I was a bit reluctant to ask for this deliverance because I felt embarrassed about making so many requests. This would be my third official deliverance over the course of three years.

After my second deliverance, I thought I would never need another one because I had been cleansed and my spiritual eyes were opened. I was reading the Bible, praying daily, and talking and conversing with Jesus. Then, I can’t pinpoint the specific time this year, but I felt distraction creeping in through social media and entertainment.

No, I wasn’t watching anything rated R, pornographic, or violent. They seemed like harmless clips—healthy recipe videos, animal documentaries, and sermons. Don’t they all seem like they have nothing to do with the evil one? But there was an intention from the evil spirit of distraction. These clips made me numb to the world I was facing—work, kids, and home life. Stressful relationships seemed to fade away for a moment when I watched them. One short clip led to two, two led to five, and before I knew it, I was watching these videos in the middle of the night at 2 AM. Again, nothing seemingly harmful, but harm they did, indeed.

I knew about phone addiction and how social media can destroy our focus on Jesus. However, I wasn’t posting anything, I didn’t have an Instagram account, and I hadn’t used Facebook in a long time. The only window of opportunity for distraction to enter was through YouTube. I had a YouTube account mainly for school purposes, where I upload lecture videos for my students. I also used it to look up healthy recipes for my family.

Nevertheless, distraction entered—and along with it, caffeine. Sermon after sermon from different pastors at 2 AM… you would think I’d be blessed, right? No—it only led me to confusion. There were contradictions about politics, life, and relationships, and when I added marriage counseling advice into the mix, I became even more confused and couldn’t distinguish right from wrong.

Distraction, confusion, and lack of sleep all combined to lead me far away from Christ.

On top of that, nightmares began to appear in my bedroom. They came only in the master bedroom, not in the kids’ room. So I started sleeping in the kids’ room—squeezed into a small bed with them. I didn’t sleep well, but I felt more comfort there than in my own room.

Family life wasn’t getting any better, and my temporary relief came from short video clips and strong doses of coffee in the morning.

I still made an effort to go to Hodah, to church, and to pray, but I knew I had lost my intimate connection with Jesus. Somewhere down the road, my constant conversations with Him—even at work, even in my sleep—faded away.

Yet, I thought I was still better than “other” Christian moms. I judged and criticized them—not out loud, but loud enough in my heart for it to show. I thought, “I have Jesus; that’s why I can endure so much. But you (other moms) can’t because you don’t have a strong foundation. You should do this... you should do that...” I had solutions lined up for the “weaker” moms while I was the one drowning.

A week before deliverance, a whirlwind of emotions and disruptions came over me through mishaps at home. I thought I was strong. I thought I knew clearly that I am a daughter of God and could stand firm. But I came crashing down. My weaknesses were exposed, and I felt shame and embarrassment because I didn’t know I would become like the “other moms.”

Even if it was out of desperation, I began turning back to the Bible. I cut off the video clips and focused on one story—Peter and Jesus walking on water. I imagined all the storms around me just like Peter experienced before he stepped out of the boat. Peter walked toward Jesus despite the storm and the wind. I imagined myself walking toward Jesus despite my own storms of relationships and family life. Peter kept his eyes on Jesus, and I saw deliverance as that same moment of reaching for Him.

Finally, the deliverance came. God used the minister to help me see where the disruption began. It was this past summer, right after I wrote my last testimony in July. Over the course of just three months, I had changed so quickly. It’s no wonder that miracles stopped happening before me and that I accepted the motions of life as “just life,” when in truth, it was a spiritual battle.

It’s only been two days, and I am happy to announce that I haven’t had any nightmares in my bedroom. This morning, ask I was packing lunch for kids and spouse, I found myself blessing each fruits and veggies – an act I haven’t done in a long time.  But naturally, blessings come out of my mouth.

Thank you, Jesus, and thank you, Hodah, for delivering me.

I can’t wait to see the results of this deliverance and my renewed walk with Jesus. I can proudly say that I am back and hopeful to write many more testimonies.

With so much more to learn,
Anemone

[Isaiah61]

ㅎㅎ
My angel~ 🧡
참 잘했어용~ ❤️
별표 일곱개당~ 💜

⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️



더러운
귀신들 쫓아내고
코~ 😴 잠도 잘자고~


암~
🥕🥕🥕 말밥이징~
요로케 이쁜 아빠 딸을 누가 괴롭혀??

[Isaiah61]

ㅎㅎ
축사를 받고
나도 예전엔 이랬었지~


In the past,
I would take three steps forward,
but if something happened,
I would take 삼천리~ (1200 km) backwards~ㅎㅎ




그래도
떠나지 않고
자빠지고 넘어져도
늘~ 손 잡아 일으켜주는
신랑 주님 있어서 얼마나 좋아??


내싸랑~
아네모네~
참 이뿌다 이뻐~


내 안에~
이런 귀신들~~
같이 못 살겠어요~~~
예수님 도와주세요~~~~


뭘??
못해주겠어??
뭘 아낄까 하나님 아빠가??

[Isaiah61]

천고마비~

요거~
쫌~ 어렵지만
한마디로 말하면 요거야


잘~ 먹고
코오~ 잘 자고
튼튼씩씩~ 새나라의 어린이~ ㅎㅎ

[Isaiah61]

Many loves~
My angel Ellen~
See you~ 🍇🍎🥦🍅🥭🥑

[주님의 얼굴을 뵌 자]

Thank you, God! Thank you, Jesus, for revealing Sister Anemone’s weakness!
You pick the weak and make them strong — so may Your name be glorified!
Thank you, God. Thank you, Jesus, that may Your name be lifted high through Sister Anemone!
Have Your way in her heart and her path — so may Your name shine through every step of Sister Anemone’s life!
Don’t ever turn back! Don’t ever look back! Don’t ever think back!
Just run to Jesus together — so may we all see each other in Heaven, where there is no sorrow, no tears, and no pain!

[주님의 얼굴을 뵌 자]

Let’s run to our true husband and true friend, Jesus, our Lord and Savior — so may we enjoy the fruits of Heaven, which surpass all our circumstances!
WE ARE THE WARRIORS OF HEAVEN! WE ARE THE DAUGHTERS OF GOD!
Hey, sis! Let’s fight the good fight until we enter our true, eternal home!