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Hi. My name is Jean Kim. God did many things for me in these 3 weeks. I wanna to tell you from now on.
from the end of the first semester to the season of camping conference, I was tired.
The one of the reasons of my tiredness is commuting in long distance from my home to school and other is the lack of deep, personal fellowship with Lord Jesus.
Before going to work, I had have short Quiet Time with God. After leaving my office, I had have a fellowship with sisters. While I am in the subway to go back home, I had read the Bible and memorized. But I need more time to meet my God more deeper, so, naturally I became far away from God's grace.
Because my soul didn't got well, my health condition was not good.
For me, my spiritual leader helped me be motivated to meet with God, and I makes me refresh.
After that fellowship, I woke up early for having a deep fellowship with Jesus in Vision Hall, but I couldn't keep doing by myself.
After that, through camping conference, God gave me a new heart to God.
During workshop in the conference, God taught me by God's word and sisters' sharing.
God made me decide to restore my loose spirit.
I made up my mind for recovering personal fellowship with God and starting the training of obedience.
I applied to training which is held in the training house.
Before entering the training house, I wanted to be a house which is a kind of inn for a student.
And then, Eun-an Myung sister helped me enter the training house without staying at the other place.
After the day of the entering the training house, the quality of my fellowship with Jesus have changed.
My soul have been refreshed because of Vision Prayer in the early morning everyday.
I have heared God's voice through the Bible, and I have confessed my devotion to God.
My heart was in the drought, but now, God's grace is overflowing in my heart.
Through these experience, God gave me much grace.
First, Jesus have shown me the Love of His Cross again and made me realize that.
I had forgotten his love and grace.
I had expressed thanks to God, but the real heart of appreciation was insufficient.
I had forgotten numerous things that God did for me and complained my circumstances.
I have severe forgetfulness.
I search for my cell phone which is in my heart.
I stand up for drinking water, and then I cannot remember why I am standing.
MeanWhile, I had had a spiritual forgetfulness of Love of Jesus.
During meditation of the Love of Jesus, I had cried and appriciated to Jesus.
And then, turning back, I had forgotten his love.
God taught me my condition and reinstate my heart to God by love for me.
Matthew 16:1-4
The Pharisees and Sadducees came to Jesus and tested him by asking him to show them a sign from heaven.
He replied, "When evening comes, you say, 'It will be fair weather, for the sky is red,'
and in the morning, 'Today it will be stormy, for the sky is red and overcast.' You know how to interpret the appearance of the sky, but you cannot interpret the signs of the times.
A wicked and adulterous generation looks for a miraculous sign, but none will be given it except the sign of Jonah." Jesus then left them and went away.
The Pharisses and Sadducees asked Jesus of signs because they didn't believe Jesus.
Jesus told that they are wicked and adulterous because they love the other things more than Jesus.
But Jesus showed them the most valuable sign-the sign of Jonah : The Cross of Jesus.
Isaiah 53:1-2
Who has believed our message and to whom has the arm of the LORD been revealed?
He grew up before him like a tender shoot, and like a root out of dry ground. He had no beauty or majesty to attract us to him, nothing in his appearance that we should desire him.
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The Creator, LORD Almighty and the most beautiful God came to earth as a normal human being.
If he come here with his original feature, people may greet him and be polite to him very much. But he came here as a creatures to die for their sin and my sin.
But he was pierced for our transgressions, he was crushed for our iniquities; the punishment that brought us peace was upon him, and by his wounds we are healed.
Yet it was the LORD's will to crush him and cause him to suffer, and though the LORD makes his life a guilt offering, he will see his offspring and prolong his days, and the will of the LORD will prosper in his hand.
God let his only son Jesus Christ be whipped and pierced instead of me.
God gave his son for me as a sacrifice.
Jesus showed me that he loves me more than his life on the rugged cross.
The cross means the grace of Jesus that gives me an eternal life by only faith.
The cross means the power of God that overcome the death and arise.
The cross means the perfect wisdom of God to save me, the sinner and the compassion of God of me who is the slave of sin and death.
The cross means the faithfulness of God that keep the promise of sending the Savior and complete the savation.
Jesus told me that he could show only the sign of the prophet Jonah.
He showed and gave his everything on the cross.
The cross is the beginning and the end of my life, my reason to live and the driving force to make me run until the last day of my race.
I have recovered the first love which I have lost to Jesus.
I have realized that only the cross of Jesus is enough for me. I have decided to commit to Jesus everyday.
I have had fellowship with God and trained myself with refreshed heart.
The things that made me hard became nothing to me.
I cannot be changed right now, but I can do whatever because of the grace of Jesus.
How can I repay his grace and make him please?
This makes me please and happy.
Although I am very evil and insufficient, God will make me better and jump myself by his love and help.
Second, I have got much love and service in the training house.
I am sensitive, negative and hasty, so I make my family and friends tired.
besides, I cannot cook.
But I became to live with sisters by service of Eun-ae Myung sister and other sisters.
The dishes I made often leave in the refrigerator. Nobody eats again.
It looks good.
but low quality and large quantity of the dishes makes the sisters burdensome.
One day, I made Sujebi (which is the soup has flakes made of flour). I spreaded the flour flakes and put them into the soup. And then, in the soup, the flakes shrink and became small flour cake like Injealme.
I was very embarassed, but the sisters ate the Sujebi.
I left my Sujebi all to sisters, and went to the work.
After I came home in the evening, the sisters explained that the reason of shrinking of the flour flakes and the recipe for keep from shrinking.
I thank the service of the sisters eagerly.
I have deficiencies now, but I depend on my LORD and train cooking eagerly.
In theses days, the sisters told me my bad habit that is complaining like a baby.
When the situation is getting uncomfortable, I start to complain and affect bad emotion to others.
For example, "Sis~~ I'm very tired and sleepy."
"Today is very hot. Oh~~ I'm exhausted." It makes me other people annoyed.
The sisters taught me saying thanksgiving instead of complaining.
My sisters helped me train instead of annoyance.
While I am training, I realize that I am complaining alone many times.
I am saying
"God will help me"
"God will work for us"
"i can do everything in Jesus"
"Thank God for protecting me on today"
"God will change her. She will grow"
with my mouth and my heart'
When I say these sentences, I become to thank God and can have peace in my heart.
Third, God have called me again in the Great Commission and He never give me up.
I have started to work in the office of College of Liberal Education of Chung-Ang University as a staff since second semester of 2009.
In the working time, I could meet many students, professors and school officials.
In this situation, I was busy to work and not concentrate on leading the people to the Lord God.
Eventually, I could not bear any fruit until the contract was expired.
God have given me evrything to prosper spiritually.
Missionnary Lee and Eun-ae Myung Sister those who are helping me like a parents with a heart of Jesus.
the sisters those who loves God.
the working place which have many people.
the colleagues those who are christians and spiritual.
I have become realize the reason why lately while I have deep fellowship with God through the Quiet time and reading the Bible.
I did not fix my eys on the Great Commission and the Love of Jesus Christ.
Because of doing minor work, I delaid my major work, preching the Gospel.
Although I affected somebody, I was passive, so I couldn't help her.
At that time, I couldn't realize my condition.
Eun-ae Myung sister and my leader figured out my heart and kept telling me about that, but I couldn't realize.
Finally, at the time of expiration of contract, I realized a little what they told me, but then, there is no opportunity.
Through a fellowship with some sister recently, I realize that I don't love people.
I have insisted myself, so I have not close to other people.
Aa I look at myself, I think it's impossible to me become the laborer of God.
I was frustarate, reget it and very sorry to my LORD.
I confessed this sincerely in front of God.
I confessed my passiveness, insistant, self-defedence, self-conceit and doing nothing for the LORD and the soul.
I prayed that God send me the office again for letting them know Jesus.
After 3 days, God made me realize that I could do nothing although I decided to do something and went back to the office.
When he give me second chance, if I don't train myself, I will repeat my fault absolutely.
He help me know that I am Nothing.
So I prayed to the LORD again.
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Yes, LORD. That's right. I am nothing.
I can do nothing, and even though I do something, It makes no changes.
I will train eagerly in the situation that God gives me.
Please LORD, help me train and change.
Forgive me that, , I thought I can do for a while ago and help me."
God has started to change me from the desiring heart for the training.
God makes me never do anything because you cannot do, but re-start to the Great Commission.
My contract expired on August 31 . From September 1, I went out campus with the sisters to meet Faithful men.
I could got strength and new heart for my LORD and the Great Commission.
And then, on September 5, Monday, I got a call from the former office.
The call is for asking of me returning to there.
I visited office and met the chief manager to recommend another person who can do God's work much better than me.
But the chief manager demanded coming back again to the office of me. He guaranteed that He will remove any obstacles.
At last, I started to work again.
Thanks God to giving me the second chance.
In these days, whenever I go to the offiece, I pray for the Faithful men those who will be a Laborer of God.
Expecting the work of God, I am training to give other people real interests and to affect actively.
When I have lunch with my new co-workers, I realize their needs.
God give me the heart for them. It makes me like, serve and help them.
When I tell them the answer of God, and then, I ask me a prayer to God for themselves.
And When I meet many students, God give me joyful and expecting heart of God's Work.
So I can become familiar with them more easier than before.
I still have many things to develop to be a laborer of God.
But I believe that God will accomplish his promise and give you and I the crowd of the faithful.
Now, I am facing my wickedness and weakness through the traing.
I will surrender to the LORD and obey to him, and then, God will chage me.
Please pray for me.
1. Developing my commitment to the LORD, the Great Commission ,the Souls and bearing fruits.
2. Meeting Faithful men by God's Grace.
첫댓글 Thank you for sharing the your testimony. It's very stimulating and also challenging to me.
Thank you for your amazing testimony. I will pray for you.
let's praise to the god!
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Thanks a lot for the graceful testimony.
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은혜로운 간증 감사 드립니다
정말 국제적인 네비게이토 입니다 ㅎ
I'll pray for you. ^^