Perhaps your own reiterated cries deafen you to the voice you hoped to hear

[soso]

Today's Reading

Lewis, grieving the death of his wife, Joy:

Why has no one told me these things? How easily I might have misjudged another man /in the same situation?

I might have said, ‘He’s got over it. He’s forgotten his wife,’ when the truth was, ‘He remembers her better /because he has partly got over it.’

* get over; overcome, recover from (an ailment or an upsetting or startling experience).

Such was the fact.

And I believe () I can make sense out of it. You can’t see anything properly /while your eyes are blurred with tears.

You can’t, in most things, get what you want if you want it too desperately: anyway, you can’t get the best out of it.

[‘Now! Let’s have a real good talk’] reduces everyone to silence.

[‘I must get a good sleep tonight’] ushers in hours of wakefulness.

직접화법의 문장 전체를 주어로 쓴 구조임

* 타동사구 ushers in; to cause important changes to start happening

* usher; An usher is a person who shows people where to sit, especially at a theatre or when attending a wedding.

Delicious drinks are wasted on a really ravenous thirst.

Is it similarly the very intensity of the longing //that draws the iron curtain,

that makes us feel () we are staring into a vacuum /when we think about our dead?

‘Them as asks’ (at any rate ‘as asks too importunately’) don’t get. Perhaps can’t.

* ravenous; (of hunger or need) very great; voracious.

And so, perhaps, with God.

I have gradually been coming /to feel that the door is no longer shut and bolted.

Was it my own frantic need [that slammed it in my face]? (강조법)

[The time //when there is nothing at all in your soul except a cry for help] may be just the time //when God can’t give it:

you are like the drowning man //who can’t be helped /because he clutches and grabs.

Perhaps your own reiterated cries deafen you to the voice () you hoped to hear.

From A Grief Observed
Compiled in A Year with C.S. Lewis

A Grief Observed. Copyright © 1961 by N. W. Clerk, restored 1996 C. S. Lewis Pte. Ltd. Preface by Douglas H. Gresham copyright © 1994 by Douglas H. Gresham. All rights reserved. Used with permission of HarperCollins Publishers. A Year With C.S. Lewis: Daily Readings from His Classic Works. Copyright © 2003 by C. S. Lewis Pte. Ltd. All rights reserved. Used with permission of HarperCollins Publishers.