Counting the number of days since your arrival, you found yourself doing your best to give each day its preciousness and meaning. Simply, they made you feel like you've got the gift of life you've been gunning fo. And there seemed to be no need for any further worries. Actually, you're self-sufficient in the mind at the least, and you're confident about spending the whole year without any support from outside. That's just because you have a sense that your resilience skyrocketed as much as twofold in spite of the great variety of karmas you've accumulated. It's time to get back to your feet, not to make a name for yourself, but to reflect on what you've been missing out on. And then all you need is the courage to accept what you've done and get out of self-righteousness. You may keep finding their private behavior, the way they conduct themselves behind the scenes, to be deeply disturbing or unsettling. This is what you might've imagined had you been a metaphysician rather than a poet. And then with a more virtuous state of mind, you'd rather merge the first two parts of your life struggles and the third one of appreciating what they mean to your life. Along the way, you must expand and update the latest version of you.