At first, you were not opposed to the idea of being brought on the upward spiral. But on acknowledging that you lack the ability to lead the community, you couldn't help but to step back off the way. And what a coincidence? Your friends who made a timely visit to you have also expressed the same sentiment. That way you kicked up and you exerted a lot of momentum to hope for the second best. Pretty soon it amazed you how quickly you could let go of your extreme egotism. If it were the other way around, you could've been consumed by leadership responsibilities that can barely go with your personal passion. If it was all about staying on the track, you might as well change your attitude toward being more humble. And it sounded really different, and you could make do without getting any greater value added then. And its impact lingers to this day, and it is safe to say that you're truly dedicated to work. If it were the other way around, it would be almost like adding fuel to the fire. And it could've ended up with the suicide bombing with self-propelled guided munition system. Even if they're willing to indulge in your personal passions to take the lead, you'd much rather decline their offer.