2nd Time Requesting Deliverance Name: April Age: 22 Marital Status: Single Gender: Female Generations Christian: 1st Church: Sunrise church Preferred Deliverance Date: Thursday, July 18th, 2013
Reason for Requesting Deliverance: To make sure all my sins are clensed away and train myself more better to not sin the same sins. I want to be able to control myself more better and Love & acknowledge God more to obey God's will and Jesus' teachings.
(Spiritual Difficulties) I want to have wisdom to discern well in everything what is God's way and what is Satan's way. So that I can be a good warrior of God to help lead God's people and do God's will.
I don't ever want to forget even for a minuet, that Holy Spirit is in my heart. I don't want to mess up at the very end and be unsaved like Lot's wife or like Ananias&Sapphira or like Judas. I'm scared when it's close to the end, I might ignore and do something without even knowing it myself that I'm having wickedness. Many people in the past were so close to being saved but in the end, they are thrown in hell because of a sin which they did not even think it was a sin and did not even know whatever they did was a bad thing.. I'm scared what if I'm the one who will be a false hypocrite prophet or something like that... I want to be forever in God and not fall to hell.
(Physical ailments) Control eating, not to eat during my sleep nor eat too much. If I beinge eat, it will effect my whole day to be sleepy or I sleep like I'm dead. Im sometimes so unfocused, I dont follow schedual, which cause bad time management, delays and procrastination, need responsibility, need to avoid lust, need to stop blanking out in my mind, need to control/force my body to do works/tasks.
Especially whenever I get closer to God, my mom bruises my heart or I keep getting my car crushed or etc. But this time, I won't let them bring me down. satan knows that my car being crushed is one of my weakpoints(other than my mom). when my car is crushed, I'm feeling soooo down, I feel like a little kid with a broken toy and just want to cry. Plus I get scowled by my crazily mad mom. And that causes another car accident, and that causes another scowling, on and on and on.... like a cycle. I'm so luncky too, when other cars crash into a car, it happens to be my car.. When I fix my car right away to prevent depression, the car gets crushed again right after. I just fixed my car like new again last month because of the accident before that.(and before that, I fixed my car from the accident before that) but last week, I crushed my car again. This is the 5th accident... sigh.-____- I almost got crashed into accident yesterday too, some car crossed in front of me when I was just driving straight. I pressed on the break and switched lanes in one second. That car was like 2ft away from crashing my car. My mom gets crazy mad for each accident. And I feel so bad I always trash money like this. I have a disease that I literally trash money also in different ways. Something always unexpected, unbelievable, or pathetic things happen to me that costs money.(this same thing happens 100times even more to my dad) but its amazing that God dont let us get killed.
Also, I Dont want to be so closed towards ppl anymore when I'm outside or at school. Im sick of it! When I'm in a community, I want to be outgoing instead of quiet and unfriendly. I think I'm still afraid of humans or too shy. And I want to explain intelligently and talk without nervousness to people. I'm sad that all these stuff as well as lack of responsibility or time management i have is the reason why all the school teachers I get hates me so much and treats me unfair or mean compared to my other classmates... they always make all people in the class give me the center of attention or embarressment and it makes me even more likely to get really bad grades. I want to be outgoing and fun with people just as I am when im with my friends.
I feel like there's a lot of demons in me. Do you think its possible to be perfectly without sin if I'm filled with the Holy Spirit every second?
첫댓글 come to church at 7 pm 7/18/2013.