바로 지금, 생각하지 않는데 무엇이 문제인가요?

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What's Wrong with Right Now Unless You Think about It?

바로 지금, 생각하지 않는데 무엇이 문제인가요?

'Sailor'Bob Adamson

당신 존재의 본질은 스스로 빛나며, 순수 지성입니다.

빛을 발한다는 개념은 하나의 움직임을 의미합니다.

움직임은 에너지지요.

따라서 나는 그것을 ‘순수 지성의 에너지’라 부릅니다.

그것은 당신의 눈을 통해 빛나고 있습니다.

당신은 그것이 무엇인지 말할 수 없고,

또한 부인할 수도 없습니다. 그것은 '대상이 아니(no thing) ’지요.

그것은 객관화된 대상일 수 없습니다.

그것은 늘 살아있고,

활기차게 진동하는 현존의 느낌(sense of presence)이며,

마음을 통해 ‘내가 있다(I am)'는 생각으로 옮겨집니다.

‘내가 있다‘는 첫 생각은 실체(reality)가 아닙니다.

내가 있다는 첫 생각은

실재(reality)에 가장 가까이 근접한 마음 혹은 생각입니다.

물론 실체(reality)는 마음이나 생각으로 알 수 없는 것이지요(inconceivable).

그것은 대상이 아닙니다,

'내가 있다’는 생각이 없을 때, 침묵(stillness)이 있을까요?

고요함(silence)일까요?

혹은 실재하는 진동(vibrancy), 살아있음(livingness),

스스로 빛나는 있음(self-shining-ness)이

거기에 있는 것일까요?

이러한 모든 표현들은 정신적인 개념(mental concepts)

또는 그것을 가리키는 것(pointers)입니다만,

그 핵심은 당신 자신이 당신이 있다는 것을 알고 있다는 것입니다.

당신은 당신이 있다는

앎을 부인할 수 없습니다.

당신의 존재는 죽어있거나, 공허하거나, 고요한 정적이 아닙니다.

당신이 있다는 것을 안다는 것은 마음을 고요하게 유지하는 것이 아닙니다.

그저 마음이 움직이기 이전에(prior to the mind) 매우 생생히

살아있는 그 자체인 무엇을 보는 것입니다.

그것은 매우 미묘해서 알기 힘들지요.

당신 자신이 당신이 있다는 것을 볼 때,

지극히 미묘한 그것이 스스로를 표현합니다.

그것은 이유없는 기쁨입니다. 니사르가다타 마하라지(Nisargadatta Maharaj)는 그것을 아름답게 말하셨지요.

‘거기에는 더 이상 그릇된 것이 없다

(There is nothing wrong any more)'.

우리는 우리가 어떤 곳에 도달해야 하고

거기에 머물러야 한다고 생각합니다.

당신이 어떤 시간의 경과에 따라 그것으로부터 떠난 것이

결코 아니라는 것을 아세요.

그것을 아는 것에는 노력이 필요하지 않습니다(effortless).

당신은 시도하거나 애쓰거나 잡으려하거나

쥐고 있으려 할 필요가 없습니다.

당신이 그것입니다(You are that).

Bob Adamson 밥 애덤슨

Q: Bob, what is the bottom line?

Bob:

Right here, right now

You are present and

You are aware of being present.

Realize that you are that

One-without-a-second,

Pure presence-awareness

And be what you are.

What you are right now is awareness or the sense of beingness. It is totally free, completely at peace and utterly and finally attained, even at this moment. Not being clear on this that we are, the mind has imagined separation and built a set of beliefs and identities upon this unexamined concept. When you get exposed to this type of teaching, several things begin to happen.

First you get a glimpse of what your true nature is. It is pointed out, perhaps repeatedly, until you see it and know it for certain. This the most important insight to start with. Your actual being, is radiantly present and alive as that which is knowing your thoughts right now, is the truth that is being pointed out. There is no other understanding or realization beyond this. In fact, you know this now. You exist and you know that you exist. All a teacher does is assure you with the greatest conviction that this is it.

Most of us have had a lot of baggage in the form of beliefs about what this understanding is, how it is supposed to happen and so on. This type of teaching helps to expose those erroneous beliefs, not to mention the beliefs we have about ourselves. It is only these unexamined beliefs that generate suffering and our sense of being apart from the peace we are seeking.

Everything happens as it happens. It is only from the limited view of mind and it's beliefs that we judge "right" and "wrong". All eval‎uations are in the mind. From the point of view of what we are, everything is just a manifestation of the deep harmony of what is, just an arising and ceasing in the light of awareness, which is ever at peace and free. This is true for you right now, once you clear up the confusion about your real nature. This does not take time; there is no path to this; and no practice required. It is just seeing that truth of things.

Everything arises and sets in the light of your being. Nothing is separate from that. Forms appear and disappear, but nothing is ever lost or gained. Everything that appears arises from that, exists upon that, and subsides into that. In spite of the appearance and disappearance of people and things, there is a luminous, ever-present background that sheds a fragrance of perfection that permeates everything. That is your birth-place, your true home.

Know yourself clearly and all this begins to make sense. It becomes your direct experience. If you are resonating with this type of teaching, then this understanding is already opening up for you. Just follow your heart and let the understanding unfold. Your own deeper being will lead you where you need to be and will reveal to you what needs to be known. Then you will realize that life is perfect here and now and that you have never left the peace and truth that you are seeking.

Stay with the pointers. Savour them like fine wine. Let the pointing unfold within your own heart. Most of all, see your own true nature as it is. All the pointers are only to reveal this.

~"What wrong with right now, unless you think about it" Sailor Bob Adamson

~Quoted on p. 36,37,38 of John Wheeler's book, "Awakening to the natural state"

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