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Hello! I am Seon Myeong Pak in Ok Hap group Thanks for God who always gives me the great love and grace and chance to share my testimony. I go to church when I was young, because my mother grew up in good christian family and grandmother also went to church. in child, I thought it was natural thing for me to go to church. even if I was sick, I went to church. I held my sister hands to go to church at dawn during bible school. But when I grew up more , because of my sleeping and cartoon, or excuse for busy day, I didn't go to church. But in my heart I wanted to know the truth and God, after korean national SAT, I read the bible due to my emptiness in my heart . But it`s difficult to read the bible regularly by myself. I met the Navigator`s sister at Freshman`s medical checkup. I was so happy about the gospel which sisters shared and I was so glad to meet warm-hearted and bright sisters who I seem to be very familiar. I want to share the grace in fellowship.   Firstly, I was saved and knew the grace of the salvation. I wasn't unknown that how sinful I was. rather I thought I was very kind person .각But after I listened the gospel and fellowship with the bible and prayer. I knew I was filty and dirt sinner, the more I become old, I should be kind and pure., but I sinned more with hesitation, and become hard-hearted and less sense of sin. Even I saw the cruel scene in the movies. I had no feeling and I don't have any time to have consideration and compassion for other because I only think for myself and my own benefit in my selfish mind. After I learned the bible and I got the bus and saw the woman who fell down on the street through the window . I said that she must be sick. my brother heard of my saying and surprised that I was saying like that. I was heartless. I was irritated in my heart. and I have the inferiority and superiority complex and with campared with other. In my heart. I didn't have joy and was troublesome because of sin, But I don't know why I was in trouble and not happy. I was crying and kept sinning and digging the broken cistern. Jesus found me who was troublesome without Jesus.   When he saw the crowds, he had compassion on them, because they were harassed and helpless, like sheep without a shepherd. ( Matthew 9:36 )   Jesus said to me thatI took up your sin and I was crucified for your sin. Jesus was betreyed by disciples who were with Jesus for three and half years and loved and lived together and brought up. He was bore the cross by Himself. He was whipped in the cold weather. Even in cold weather.. small hit is really hurtful, His whole body was torn out with cruel whipping. So Jesus couldn't even walk. I went to Golgoda with carrying tough and heavy wooden cross on torn body. Jesus took my heavy and burdening sin and nailed it on the cross. He endured the hardship which I got for all my life and led me to several pain in hell with fire. And He found and came to me He said that He loved me like that and He wanted me to know this love and throw aways my sins and become happy. I was like bruised reed and smoldering wick before I met Jesus. But He loved me so much and had compassion on me and found me and saved me I really thank God for grace love given every day of my life.    Secondly, I came to live by the truth learning the words of the truth in the team with God's grace.   When I was in the highschool, I went to 'local church' through my mother's friend. It had a presentation time after reading small books and my mother want me and my brother to improve presentation skills, so she sent us there. We went there until I graduated from the high school. After entering the university, I hung around with students in the church going MT or having a gathering.   One day, my leader told me that it was heresy. I knew it but since I had little Christian background, I didn't know what the heresy really was and how dangerous it was. I had some interest in the words and I thought keep going there because people in there seemed good. However, Mr.s Lee and my leader prayed for me not going there and learning the true words and I finally didn't went there any more. At that time, I didn't know how dangerous it was, but now I knew that if they didn't help me to the end, I would not be saved and my life would be taken. I thank God to lead me to meet the navigator when I was ignorant of even heresy. I also thank God who saved me and my family from heresy.   Before I met God, I thought I should survive in this competition to eat and live well and I thought it natural to sacrifice my life not enjoying for it. However, brothers and sisters who live by faith seemed peaceful and they lived fruitful lives thany any other enjoying all Gave them. God lead me to live a life of priority following the most important thing. God, my father, gave me promises too and took my burden of life. Instead, he gave me peace and hope.   In addition, my leaders and sisters taught me my lacks and helped me to train myself by words and truth. I felt uncomfortable talking with people face to face. So in the time of bible study and fellowship with my leader. I often stared down. I also fell into my own thinking and I didn't learn words well. My leader taught me that and helped me stare up and learn words well.   I also learned thinking others, making a bright face, admitting my lacks not excusing and so on and I was helped to grow soundly before God. People in the world don't like person if they find his lack and show him indifference. However, navigator fellowship accepted me as who I am and taught me usefulness with love. It is because God of love do that.   I always wanted to be happy and lived by my thinking that I thought it would make me happy. But the result was always anxiety and heavy burden. The life without truth wasn't clear unlike my name.   They say the university is the place of seeking truth, but it seems that there aren't many who really seek the truth. A lot of students came to the university and spent time having a lot of work and homework. They wander because they don't know God's words making them really happy. I also was one of them living by my thinking and feeling distressed. However, God took pity on me and lead me to meet the navigator and make me happy living by God's words. I really thank God.   Third, I enjoyed God's grace with receiving answered prayer.   In the past, I had an assignment to survey of area's times and seasons custom. So I prayed and decided to go to Black Stone Market to survey these area's times and seasons custom. but whenever I entered the shops, they rejected my asking. I prayed again to God sincerely, I'd met a middle aged woman. I told her my situation, she told me, "Follow me!". So I followed her in mill. There are three middle aged women. They told me their country's custom competitively, so I surveyed many kinds of custom not only black stone area but others. After the assignment, I was really happy so I thanked God. Who can help me? People who are very busy their own way, even they have lack of ability to help me. But God listened my trivial prayer and answered it and gave me happy. I also prayed for my family. My mom works in insurance. She works quite well, so she used to travel in Gangwon-do, Je-ju island, China, and Japan. Recently she received Sam-sung PC as answered prayer. She used to ask prayer to her contract. My father also made money well and he gave me pocket money a lot. My mom has menopausal symptoms, asthma, lumbar disc, and arrhythmia, but after my prayer, the symptoms would clear up. Now she stays healthy and energetic life.   I had low TOEIC grade, but after my sincere prayer, I got 135 point raised grade.     I didn't know what is prayer and how to pray for God, but now I can do it. So I thank God. If I had not met Navigators, I would have still hard time with my problems of life and burdens. I thank God to know what is prayer which is conversation with God, I write my prayer list down, be a person who pray everyday.     I really like my praying time with God who loves me so much and understand me everything. In this time, God solve my problems and takes my all burdens. God also remind me his promises and he hold me on. God let me look up to him. sometimes he would be an oasis of my mind.       I also thank to our Missionary Mr. Lee and Mrs. Lee who serves us which they made a mood fellowship with God in Vision hall first, second floor.   In the beginning this semester, I prayed to God sincerely let me get a Word what I need, and I took this Word. John 16:24   Until now you have not asked for anything in my name. Ask and you will receive, and your joy will be complete.   God ordered to me to receive full of joy. This order is merciful order. I would like to meet God frequently and having experience God more   Forth, God gave me the grace allowing me to live as a hero of this generation, and as a channel of blessing.   As many people did, I wanted to become a hero, an essential person. But I wondered how much I could be a essential one for others. I might live a hard life which is struggling just by looking after myself. It remained just as a dream to live as a key person to others. But learning the Bible, God lets me know how to be an essential person and a hero in this world. I will make you into a great nation and I will bless you; I will make your name great, and you will be a blessing. (Genesis 12:2, NIV)   Those who are wise will shine like the brightness of the heavens, and those who lead many to righteousness, like the stars for ever and ever. (Daniel 12:3, NIV) God made me a person who can pass the gospel and eternal life to others. He called me as the fortune wherever I go. And he also allowed me to live in the blessing which is to return many people to God. Now I live as a hero not only in the heaven but also in this world.   Hero certainly is not a job for everyone even in movie and drama. Whether he or she is a adequate person for the character and their appearance are regarded first and then we choose the right person. And hero receive a special treatment. God called me who is not right person for his kingdom and made me live as a hero of his kingdom. Thank you God for your calling.   But I would doubt the promise God gave me and worried about whether he give a son of the promise or not. Forgetting my identity, I sometimes fall into my surroundings and a lack of ability. Through a quiet time with God and a fellowship with brothers, he grasps me firmly and makes me realize who I am and grasp me firmly. He tells me that he called me and many would be rescued and be happy by me. Also he expects me now.   God also changed my family by me.   He saved my brother who suffered without knowing God. Now he is learning the Bible with me. He experienced much of God's grace though it. My mother was so busy for her work that she didn't go to church. But after my brother and I learned the bible, my mother also began to go to church which is devoted to mission, listened to the pastor's sermon hard and did even a church work.   They replied, "Believe in the Lord Jesus, and you will be saved--you and your household." (Acts 16:31, NIV)   Even though I have many faults, he uses me as a channel of blessing and achieves his promise. Thank you God. Now long ago, I met a first year student while spreading the gospel. He was under much stress due to his life. But he didn't know why he suffered. He told that he felt a Monday morning feeling and suffered due to coming Monday. I was sorry for his suffering. And I wanted him to know God and live happily. So I prayed for this. It was wonder that I was an egoist and now I became the person who can pray for others.   God wants me to be happy by giving my life to God; not filling my stomach but feeding many people with five loaves of bread and two fish. I want to give thanks to God who works sincerely for this. .Please pray for me that I love God more, fix on the God's promises, live in faith and get a loyal person for God.