36. [We Vainly Wrestle…]
We vainly wrestle with the blind belief
That aught we cherish
Can ever quite pass out of utter grief
And wholly perish.
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헛되이 맞붙어 싸우는 것은
우리가 헛되이 맞붙어 싸우는 것은
우리가 소중히 여기는 무언가가
언젠가는 절대적 슬픔에서 벗어나
완전히 사라질 수 있다는 맹목적 확신이다.
-신재실 옮김-
단상(斷想): “호랑이는 죽어서 가죽을 남기고 사람은 죽어서 이름을 남긴다,”지만, 후세에 이름을 남기는 사람이 과연 얼마나 될까? 우리는 모두 허황한 자만심으로 헛된 꿈을 꾸는지도 모른다. 사람이 죽으면 그가 소중히 여기는 것 또한 함께 사라질 것이다. 공수래공수거(空手來空手去)라 하지 않는가? 사람이 세상에 태어날 때 빈손으로 온 것처럼 죽을 때 또한 빈손으로 간다. 일생 동안 내 것인 줄 알고 애지중지한 모든 것을 놔두고 그저 빈손으로 가는 것이다. 그러나 우리는 죽음과 함께 모든 것이 종말을 고한다는 “맹목적 확신”을 극구 물리치고 싶다. 내가 누군가의 기억 속에 남아있고, 내가 성취한 것이 어느 형태로건 살아남기를 소망하는 것은 과연 헛된 인생일까? “내일 지구가 망해도 오늘 종로에 사과나무를 심자!”
-신재실 씀-
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“[We Vainly Wrestle . . .]” (1962)
The skillful quatrain “We vainly wrestle” appears
untitled near the end of In the Clearing. It was
excerpted from an unpublished poem titled “New
Grief ” and reads, “We vainly wrestle with the blind
belief / That aught we cherish / Can ever quite pass
out of utter grief / And wholly perish.” The choice
of the word “vainly” in the first line and “aught” in
the second line are significant, as they suggest two
diverse meanings.
The first interpretation of aught is “anything,”
the second “nothing.” Here it appears to mean
both. Anything and nothing “we cherish” will ever
“quite pass out of utter grief.” If aught is read as
“nothing,” then we wrestle with the belief that
things can live forever with us; we want to believe
nothing is completely exterminated. Things might
die, but we believe “blindly” that our memory will
keep things alive or that they will perhaps survive
in some other form. In this way nothing ever per
ishes “wholly.” The first meaning of aught lends
itself to a different reading. If the aught is “any
thing,” then the opposite attitude is conveyed.
Anything we cherish can pass out of utter grief and
be obliterated.
The vain wrestling is between the two attitudes,
whether we think that nothing will ever perish
completely for us or we think that anything can com
pletely perish for us and that nothing is safe in this
way. That is why our wrestling is vain and is in
vain. We only see whether something perishes in
relation to ourselves. Ultimately we have no con
trol over ourselves or it. The poem has the para
doxical function of being a message of both
optimism and pessimism and an explanation of how
each of these attitudes inevitably connects to our
vanity. This connection of value to humanity is
common in Frost and often contrasts with nature’s
amorality.
FURTHER READING
Kau, Joseph. “Two Notes on Robert Frost Poems:
Frost’s ‘Version’ of Zeno’s Arrow and Blind Opti
mism in Frost’s ‘We Vainly Wrestle,’ ” Notes on
Modern American Literature 1 (1977): 33.