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Hi, My name is Kang Seung-hee in Ban-seok (the rock). Thank you for giving me a chance to share the grace God gave me.   A few days ago, I traveled to Yang-pyung with sisters. It was joyful to talk with sisters in the train and listen to young juniors' chatter. And sizzling porks and mature Kimchi was so delicious. One of the juniors ate three bowls of rice. Then we had a good time on sharing the grace God gave us and the stories of what we experienced. A warm sunlight, a gentle wind, a beautiful sound of birds and water, and wild flowers... Though this we could think of God's delicate ability and his warm love to us. Thank you Mr.Lee and Mrs.Myong. Due to your concern, we could stay Hanhwa Resort which we as students cannot afford to stay in. Having a good time, I realized that God achieved the promise he gave to me.   The LORD will surely comfort Zion and will look with compassion on all her ruins; he will make her deserts like Eden, her wastelands like the garden of the LORD. Joy and gladness will be found in her, thanksgiving and the sound of singing. (Isaiah 51:3, NIV)   It is the word that I read when I join the Navigators not longer after. At that time I thought that the desert is like me. It is a land which even a single plant cannot live in because of no water. Anyone who visits here wants to leave it quickly. Loneliness and suffering... I didn't live to be a desert. And I lived life to the full. But I was living the life like a desert. God told me that he will stat to plow a land, make my life the Garden of Eden, and change it into the Garden of Jehovah. And today he achieved this word sincerely. Now, I want to share how this miraculous recreation was made in my life. Firstly, the river began to flow. Before, Ms. Lee said to me 'Human has intellect, emotion and will. When I see you, I think your intellect and will are no different from the average person.....in terms of emotion, you are just like a dry valley where there has no one drop of water. Even I could also feel that my heart was like a desert sandstorm blowing. Why am I like this way?" If someone visit me, that person must have collapsed because of severe thirst. It was me.   Once, one of my friend who hand around together since freshman said to me "You seem to be an individualist." and I thought "So what?" I knew later that one sister felt difficult even when our eyes met. However, sisters loved me, told me about Jesus and taught me the bible. Furthermore, since they did not think it worthwhile to retain the knowledge of God, he gave them over to a depraved mind, to do what ought not to be done. They have become filled with every kind of wickedness, evil, greed and depravity. They are full of envy, murder, strife, deceit and malice. They are gossips, slanderers, God-haters, insolent, arrogant and boastful; they invent ways of doing evil; they disobey their parents; they are senseless, faithless, heartless, ruthless. Although they know God's righteous decree that those who do such things deserve death, they not only continue to do these very things but also approve of those who practice them. (Romans 1:28-32)   These words are really surprising to me. Being heartless and ruthless is sin.... Jesus said that to envy and to swear at people who I think are superior to me and hope their unfortune are definite sins. I reflected on myself in front of the words like mirror and I felt shame. Jesus answered, "Everyone who drinks this water will be thirsty again, but whoever drinks the water I give him will never thirst. Indeed, the water I give him will become in him a spring of water welling up to eternal life. (John 4:13~14)   Jesus asked me what left when I lived only for myself for the purpose of satisfying selfish desires. He said it just make me sin and make me thirsty forever. I was the miser scrooge in the book I thought nothing to do with me. There were ugly arrogance, greed and sins piled up inside me like a high wall and I was caged in it by myself and was alone although nobody imprisoned me. To me Jesus's soft voice was heard.   'I love you. I have knocked on your door of heart for more than 20 years. I wanted to be with you, so I had come on the world and washed your all dirty sins by my blood.'   "For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life" (John 3:16)   The love God showed me was the one to crucify his one and only son on the cross instead of me. Josephus, a famous historian in 1st century, saw the scene of the cross death with his own eys and said "The death on the cross is the most horrible death in the world." Before a prisoner is punished on the cross, he is to be hit with the lash with the sharp bone chips and iron segments. It is not hitting just on the surface but even cutting out piece of flesh sometimes cutting artery or backbone.   People is hammered by 15-18 Cm nails to wrists and ankles through the central nerves until die. The pain is hard to patient. If Jesus wanted to breath, he could get terrible pain until die. If somebody ask to me die on the cross, I will not do that. I think nobody can't do that. How much love me.. God told me that is my love to you. From his blood, under the cross, it overflowed to my mind as well.     Second, God changed my life through our Missionary Mr. Lee & Mrs. Lee & sisters with their hands of love.     As I told you I'm not a lovely person, even these words well match with me like "Wang-dda", "Eun-dda", "Hate" etc. For hide my fear of people who don't like me, I tried to be proud. But missionary Mr. Lee & Mrs. Lee & sisters loved me even though they knew me. They became a bridge of God's love to me, who didn't see and listen like Helen Keler, they tried to let me know what is love.     I sometimes was shocking with Mrs. Lee's mind and talks like that, "I want to pat your hips.", "You are so precious person.", "Our sisters looks like if I seize you, you would burst, and if I blow you, you would fly."     Actually I didn't say these words ever. But Mr. Lee & Mrs. Lee showed real actions like that taught me with the truth Bible, sincere prayer for me, warm fellowship, eyesight, words and strict scold, serve me without say a word even long waiting and tears. Seeing their life,I'm getting changed like them.   I Corinthians 13:7 It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.  I always saw this Bible through our Mr. Lee & Mrs. Lee & sisters.   The world is getting hard-hearted.     2 Timothy 3:1 But mark this: There will be terrible times in the last days.  Now a days, we see our life is more convenience but people have terrible times like depression and suicide. In this world, our fellowship is overflowing love and God's blessing and grace as like "Goshen land". As a result, many people, who are in Korea and other countries, believes Jesus Christ and be happy, grow their faith, know God more even help others. I really thank God who called me in this fullest life.   Currently I got the news about my friend through another friend. We were good friend each other but later we didn’t keep in touch because of the different life cycle. One had a hope for screenwriter, another had stewardess and the other for teacher. We ran for each dream and hope. So we didn`t have many chances to meet. I met friend who become screenwriter, she got married with a mental doctor but her husband took the medicine for himself. And she said if I met someone, I seem to love him, Friend ,Screenwriter couldn’t have baby, she tried it a lot but failed. Friend who want to be a teacher, she divorced and be coming-back single. The one point on the triangle started at the same spot but the gap between two points become larger. Likewise, difference of my life and friend`s lives become farther and father, the time goes by. If I didn’t meet Jesus, Missionary Lee, Mrs Lee and sisters, I would have divorced or had several depression in my life. Jesus answered her,” If you knew the gift of God and who it is that asks you for a drink, you would have asked him and he would have given you living water” John4:10 In John4, there is scene that Samaritan woman meet Jesus. She didn’t know who Jesus is and started talking with him. And She called him “You” but later when she knew Jesus is the Savior. She threw away her jar. Now she had the more important purpose of her life. That is sharing the news of salvation to people. Not only Jesus saved her but also He tore down her high wall built with sin by herself. He gave her the gospel which enable to save the souls forever as the gift She ran to the people who she used to avoid for sharing Jesus.. She become happy woman. With thanking for God who saved me and fill my life with love of God and gift of Grace, I will run for sharing Lord. My prayer request is that Love the Lord with all my heart, my will, strength and life Repay for the grace of God, team, and bear the precious fruits.