To MJ, Sanha, Jinjin & Eun Woo,
It maybe late or early for my greetings but I never forgot. I just wanted to do one post for all of you. Because like everyone else, you've given me so much happiness since I met you guys. May the year bless you with good health and much joy. Let's raise a glass to your good health and happiness. May you keep strong, stay safe, and take care of yourself.
Belated and advance happy birthdays guys!
-- Che
No selcas this month because what's more special is that I got to attend #DIFFUSIONinMNL
Which is more spectacular, more memorable even if I didn't get all the fan benefits.
Just seeing the boys perform live and seeing how much fun they had is enough for me. I truly wish they had more time to relax and enjoy since they are in a different country, maybe next time ;) I am truly happy for them though.
The past few weeks, I really had a confusing time, sleepless nights and I was dead tired, emotional with so much anxiety even my skin got worse than it already was. The feeling and experience was very new to me because I had no idea what was going on and what triggered me to have such feelings.
Unlike last year, when I knew what the cause of my difficulties were. This was totally different. I really had my guard up because I didn't want to feel vulnerable. I really had difficulty dealing with what was going on and the feeling of why me? Why is this happening to me?
Then I thought since I was going to the fancon, why not do another ME Time just in case it could help. It did help a bit. What really gave me somewhat of a relief was on the day I was traveling back home, a day after the fancon.
I was in the bus, sleepy, and the truth is I quietly got teary and emotional for a moment then I stopped myself, composed myself then I sort of had a feeling of release, a feeling of moving forward and letting things flow from then on.
Not controlling what I wanted to happen but just trusting that whatever is meant to be, will be.
If the universe wants it for you or if it is meant for you, the universe will give it to you at the right time - whatever it is.
Trust the timing because maybe some circumstances are not ready or not released or not for you at the moment. But if I ever get to the right place and time of realization and taking action on what is truly meant for me and my soul, I will grab them by the balls (😅) and make it mine hahaha.
Okay, I am ending it here.
Let's all have better sleep at night, the best health and let things be.
If you need me, trust that I will be here to support you all the way.
Love you to the moon and back, always.
See you when I see you.
From your "Don't be afraid, I don't bite" Nuna
Che