Ministry Request - Paul Yi

[Paul Yi]

Ministry Request Form

Personal Information
Age: (   26   ), Marriage Status: Married(     ) Single(   X   ),
Gender: Male (    X    ) Female(         )
Position in the Church
Atheist (         ), Church Member(   X   ), Deacon(           ), Elder(           ),
 Catechist(         ), Pastor's wife(         ), Pastor(           )
Belief History:
None(            ), Born as Christian(  1st generation (first in family to be born in US)  ), First Generation (         years)
Attending Church:
(   Berendo Street Baptist Church  (LA 한인 침례교회), EM   ) 

Reason for requesting deliverance:

Short version:

Last year, while juice fasting for 14 days (10 consecutive), God has visually revealed demons to me. I know how real

demons are, my God-given eyes have seen them very clearly. I believe that I have demons living inside my flesh and 

my emotions, resulting in both physical and emotional pain. The physical pain is in my shoulders and neck, it never 

goes away. It constantly strains me at work and in stressful situations. It has been this way for as long as I can 

remember. The root of most all of my emotional pains lie within the deepest, darkest memories of my past life 

endeavors. These memories place compelling downward pressure not only in my relationship with my significant 

other (여자 친구), but also with my intimacy with our Heavenly Father. 

Long version (Might want to grab some coffee and a doughnut or something, seriously):

I suppose the following is more of a testimony. For a list of my spiritual struggles/prayer requests, please scroll
to bottom. I apologize in advance if my thoughts are somewhat disorganized, it's 3am! Okay, here it goes!

I received my salvation through Jesus Christ in 8th grade, during a year in which I was living with 5 other children, along
with my aunt and uncle in San Diego, CA. My uncle was in seminary at Fuller at the time, he had given up his career 

as a nuclear scientist to accept the calling of becoming a pastor. I attended a very powerful church--San Diego Calvary
Korean Church. Although I have attended church on-and-off most years of my life, this church was the first time I
experienced the true power of the Holy Spirit in full motion. It wasn't until the end of my 8th grade year when I accepted
Christ, just before I (willingly) left for Chicago to live with my biological father for the first time in my life. God made certain
that I received my salvation in a way that was so unbelievably vivid and real, that He made it unthinkable for me to ever
deny my faith. Receiving Christ without proper discipleship has resulted in me falling so far away from God as
to forget his very existence. So for the next 12 years of my life, I became, "the worst of all sinners." Interestingly enough,
though none of my friends were Christians, whenever the topic of "FAITH" came up, as God had intended, I really was
never able to deny my faith. 

My father drinks very often and my mother is a full-fledged alcoholic, who still today cannot fall asleep without drunkenness. 

She's what you call a "functional alcoholic." Although she drinks herself to sleep each night, she gets up bright and early

and runs a successful business. Having lived only three years of my life with my biological mother, I always had plans 

to move to California after graduating from college to be closer to my mother. For the purpose of clarity, here is an

outline of whom I was living with for each year of my life:  Birth - 2nd grade: mother and father (divorced at age ~2);  

3rd - 5th grade: grandma and grandpa on father's side (grandma was hospital chaplain, grandpa was Reverend);  

6 - 7th grade: mother in Chicago;  8th grade: uncle and aunt in San Diego;  9th - 10 1/2 grade:  father in Chicago; 

10 1/2 - 11 1/2 grade: mother in Los Angeles;  11 1/2 - 12th grade: father and step mother in Chicago;  college+: solo. 

Ever since my transition from Chicago to Los Angeles after finishing my studies, my life has completely turned around. In 

these past two years, I have given up all of the most damaging past addictions including: drinking, smoking, and sexual sins. 

As Apostle Paul declares in 1 Timothy 1:15, I once was also, "the worst of them all." The gravity of my sinful life has lead
me to clinical depression. Though depressed on-and-off the majority of my life, my depression hit a climax during the fall of 
2009. I was hospitalized and admitted into a psych ward for reasons of constant suicidal thoughts. I was a patient for 6 

days, 4 hours and precisely 30 minutes. I have been prescribed various medications including lamictal, gabapentin, lithium,
and Wellbutrin (Bupropion) among others. Even with the strongest of doses, none have shown any signs of improvement.

I passionately disliked the cold, snowy, miserable Chicago winters. Therefore, I was lead to believe that the source of my 

depression was environmental. I thought once I moved to the most beautiful California, the "Sunshine State," that all 

traces of my life-long struggle of depression would finally come to an end--and I have never been so wrong about anything 

before in my entire life. Everything instantly became worse. Why? Because there was no longer any hope. My hope was 

in California, which turned out to be a complete failure. Unsurprisingly, my drinking problem only worsened. 

But it didn't make any sense to me. I graduated from a great school, secured a full-time job offer from a reputable company 
who happened to offer a position in California, and had recently moved into a nice place of my own in Hollywood. I had what
seemed to be everything in which the world defined as "happiness" or "success." But why was I feeling so exceedingly 
miserable? I went from drinking every other night in Chicago to drinking every night in Los Angeles. Before allowing my 
depression to grow again, I clearly remember telling myself that there has to be more to life than this. This couldn't be it.
By mere process of elimination (and likely the hand of God), I realized I was missing something. That something was Jesus.

I was saved in California, and God brought me right back to it. 

I have given my life completely to God almost exactly two years ago. I have not consumed alcohol since September 7th,
2012. I have seen how it has destroyed my parent's marriage first-hand and was likely one of the contributing factors to 
my father's infidelity, which ultimately ended in a divorce. I made the conscious decision that I will NOT allow myself and 

my future family to become victim to the brokenness and sins involved with drunkenness. We live in a society where
the demons involved with alcoholism have people by their throats without realizing the truth. 

So what happened to my depression? God saw my heart and shielded me with his grace (2 Corinthians 12:9). He 
became the intervening variable in my life and took everything into his hands. I have truly tried (and have had) everything
this broken world offers, and can now say with utter confidence that it will all lead to destruction beyond your wildest
imagination. God revealed his colossal heart and immeasurable love for me by willingly inheriting all of my burdens to
become his (Matthew 11:28-30). It brings me to my knees in tears and in complete brokenness, pleading for God to
help me understand how he can be so ridiculously good (Romans 2:4). It's a kind of love in which I will never deserve, 
and simply cannot fathom (1 John 4:8). 

The moment I made the decision to irreversibly allow God to have full control of my life, I was set free (Matthew 16:24).
I was found in Christ, and Christ alone (Matthew 10:39). I don't even remember what depression feels like. Each
and every day feels like dancing. God has already taken care of most all of my struggles--there are just a few 

more areas in my life that require finishing touches so that I can experience the next level of freedom. 
These areas are the reason God has lead me to HODAH. 

In case you're wondering the purpose of sharing my testimony, I believe it's important to be as detailed as possible 

so that others know exactly what they're dealing with and know exactly how to help the person in need.

"Is anyone of you sick? Let him call for the elders of the church, and let them pray over him, anointing him with oil in
the name of the Lord. And the prayer of faith will save the one who is sick, and the Lord will raise him up. And if he has
committed sins, he will be forgiven. Therefore, confess your sins to one another and pray for one another, that you
may be healed. The prayer of a righteous person has great power as it is working."
James 5:14-16

 
 
Spiritual Difficulties : 

Traumatic life experiences and suppressed painful memories has developed a deep struggle with what appears from

the outside to resemble anger. However, I don't know if it's anger. I believe it's my life-long developed defense mechanism 

which triggers whenever something is said or done which was mistakenly perceived to inflict me with pain. The 

struggle seems to be more rooted in bitterness and confusion as opposed to anger and resentment.

This is my greatest struggle. It's destroying my relationship with those around me and I cannot bear to see any more 

damage. I also struggle with lust, mainly due to flashbacks of twisted memories. I desperately desire to give these 

memories to God so that Satan will be powerless to use it against me. 

I have scissor lock (demonic oppression) fairly often, and get woken up in the middle of the night due to demonic 
harassment. I usually reach for my bible and hold it close to my heart and it stops (Ephesians 6, the Word of God is 
the Sword of the Spirit). However, sometimes I forget to grab my bible. Other times, I'm just so tired that I don't have
enough energy to reach even a couple feet to my desk. This is when demons take advantage of me and harass me
constantly just enough to wake me, but not enough for me to get up or even pray. 

 
Any other reason : 

For my parents to experience intimacy with Christ. To prepare me to become the father and husband that will lead my

future family spiritually. For my career. To continue pursuing my relationship with God in full speed without ever, ever
losing what drives me--PASSION. To be more sensitive to my sins. To have a God-like forgiving heart. To love Jesus
more than my mother, father, brother, sister, son, daughter, and even my own future wife. 

 
 
Requesting Date and Day
 Requesting date :  Thursday, June 26th, 2014
 
For Southern California HODAH, we will held deliverance ministry on every Thursday.  For special occasion we can arrange other day.
 
* After requesting deliverance ministry,
please check your deliverance date.
 
 
Things to prepare before the deliverance ministry:
1) If possible, do three days of Fasting.
2) Do repenting prayer and forgiving people who did wrongs you.
3) Read "Bondage Breaker" by Neil Anderson
4) Until 2 days before deliverance, leave feedback, send a instant message or contact HODAH personnel.
5) Ask at least 2 people to pray for you

[희락의 기름부은자]

Hi, brother Paul..
We welcome you.
First, you will have to come to the Monday meeting
and then reschedule your Ministry Request.

[Paul Yi]

Hi, I came to the Monday meeting with my girlfriend a couple weeks ago. Will I still need to reschedule?

[희락의 기름부은자]

Okay, brother Paul..
You will have ministry tomorrow.
come at 7:00pm

[Paul Yi]

Okay, thank you. Also, I have one additional spiritual difficulty that needs healing. I struggle with deeply rooted emotional insecurities. I believe that it has much to do with both my unstable family life and also from being too exposed to the brokenness that comes with living a secular lifestyle.

[Paul Yi]

Hi, after speaking with my pastor, I was asked to hold off on receiving deliverance until further notice. Thank you for your prayers.