장병학, 청주 흥덕사의 꽃사름

청주 흥덕사의 꽃사슴 장병학  멀리 떠가는 구름창백한 낮달허공을 가르는무언의 손짓들!그리움만 몰고 오갑니다. 푸른빛 햇살 돋은내 마음의 바다 하얀 포말들우주가 왈칵 토해낸 한숨 소리내 맘도 그곳으로 달려갑니다. 먼 태고의 비췻빛 하늘 아래푸른 숨결이 흐르지 못하는 망망대해한 촉의 조각배도 띄울 수 없고갈매기만 슬피 울어대는 망망대해. 머언 창공으로 훠얼헐두견새처럼 정든 고향 잃고나의 뿌리 고국 떠나보낸너의 들숨 날숨 맥박 소리희망의 날갯짓이 되고 싶습니다. 슬픔과 고독의 피 울음소리바닥의 마음까지 가보지 않고서야어찌 너의 아린 가슴 속을 헤아리겠는가.길 잃은 고독한 나그네이지만 오늘도고국땅 밟을 그날만을 손꼽아 기다립니다. 프랑스 국립도서관 동양문헌실한 맺힌 망부석 앞에서슬픔과 외로운 삶의 직지향수에 젖은 그리운 눈망울로내 고향 대한민국 청주의 하늘만 헤아리며그리움만 물든 수채화에 세계 기록유산 직지당신은 청주 흥덕사의 위대한 꽃사슴입니다.   장병학  등단 : ‘아동문학연구’ 동시(2002), ‘시와 의식’ 수필(1986) 역임 : 청주문인협회장, 충북수필문학회장, 국제PEN한국본부 충북위원장 수상 : 한국아동문학창작상, 충북아동문학상, 충북예술상, 충북문학상, 충북수필문학상, 문예한국작가상, 충북의 별, 단재교육상(학술상), 황조근정훈장 수상저서 : 꿈을 주는 동시(동시집), 직지 역해집(上·下), 늘 처음처럼(수필집) 외 다수 활동 : 한국아동청소년문학협회 부이사장, 세계직지문화협회 이사, 진천문화재단 이사, 국제PEN 한국본부 자문위원, 한국문협 전통문학 연구위원 고문 : 진천문인협회, 충북아동문학회, 충북글짓기지도회, 충북펜문학회 외                          A Fawn of Cheongju Heungdeok TempleBy Byung-hak Jang Drifting clouds high in the sky,a pale moon in the daylight,silent gestures slicing through the air—all awaken only my deepest longings. White foam on the sea of my heart,tinged with the blue light of the sun,the sighs the universe has suddenly birthed—my soul, too, surges toward them. Beneath the ancient, jade-colored sky,a vast sea where no breath stirs,and no boat dares to set sail—only lonely gulls cry out. Fluttering high in the sky,like a cuckoo who has lost its home,your breath and pulse have left your homeland—my root.And now, I long to spread my hopeful wings for you. Those desperate cries of sorrow and solitude—how could I ever know your aching heartwithout touching its deepest depths?Though I am a lost and lonely traveler,still, I wait for the day you return to your homeland. Here, in the East Asian wingof the National Library of France,the Jikji,* enduring a life of sorrow and solitude like Mangbuseok,**still gazes—through tear-soaked eyes of longing—toward the sky over Cheongju, my homeland in Korea.This watercolor, steeped in longing, bears the memory of Jikji, A Memory of the World Register.You are a fawn of Heungdeok Temple—noble, and never to be forgotten.(Translator's Note)*Jikji is the oldest extant book (Anthology of Great Buddhist Priests' Zen Teachings) printed with movable metal type.**Mangbuseok is a legendary stone that symbolized the grief and eternal waiting of a woman who turned to stone while waiting for her husband to return.  Byung-hak Jang Literary Debut:Children's poetry in Children's Literature Research (2002)Essay in Poetry and Consciousness (1986)Former Positions:President, Cheongju Literary AssociationPresident, Chungbuk Essay Literature SocietyChairman, Chungbuk Chapter of PEN International Korea CenterAwards:Korean Children's Literature Creative Writing AwardChungbuk Children's Literature AwardChungbuk Arts AwardChungbuk Literature AwardChungbuk Essay Literature AwardLiterary Korea Writers AwardStar of Chungbuk AwardDanjae Educational Award (Academic Category)Hwangjo Order of Merit for ServicePublications:Poems That Give Dreams (collection of children's poetry)Annotated Translation of Jikji (Volumes I & II)Always Like the First Time (collection of essays)Affiliations:Vice Chairman, Korean Association of Children's and Youth LiteratureDirector, World Jikji Culture AssociationDirector, Jincheon Cultural FoundationAdvisory Member, PEN International Korea CenterResearch Member, Traditional Literature Division, Korean Writers’ AssociationAdvisor To:Jincheon Writers’ AssociationChungbuk Children's Literature AssociationChungbuk Writing Guidance AssociationChungbuk PEN Literature Society