My topic is complex.
I think everyone has their own complex, even though nobody notices that. But sometimes others point out some parts of ours, then we can know about the bad point and then we make it a complex gradually. It's my case.
I also have many complexes. Today, I'll tell you one thing among them.
can you guess what my complex is?
It is about my voice.
what do you think of my voice?
Is it good to hear, and beautiful? I think, absolutely not. Although I can't recognize this fact, but I know. Because everyone recalls it to me whenever I speak.
As you hear me now, I have very big and rough voice.
So, I have many episodes of this.
3 years ago, I entered this club. that time, I didn't know anyone. So, I was very silent during club activities. But in open discussion, I should have talked. Then, after the class, one of my friends came to me, and then told me " You cought a cold ?" with a worried look. Of couse, he didn't know about me at the time. So, I just answered "yes", I was very healthy though.
And the second episode is about my loud voice.
Some people might think it can be controled by my concern. But it is not that easy. Because, I tell something with my normal voice, but others feel it's very big. So, if I want to speak like others, I always practice to whisper.
One day, my father called me then, we talked over the phone for a while. But, suddenly, he said to me "Why are you shouting? I feel a pain in my ear. please Turn down the volume." But, I never shouted. It's very usual for me. I was shocked.
Further more, my mother hearing our conversation with him told me "Do you get angry with him? Why are you shouting with very stiff tone." She caused one more shock to me. She reminded me that my voice is very uncomfortable to hear. It's very sad story.
Do you agree with my parents opinion?
Except those, I experienced more than your thought.
So, actually often I've been hurt from that.
But now, I don't think this is my big complex and I don't want to change my voice. Because I changed my thought.
I like to make a speech or presentation in front of many people. And I want to be a teacher in the future. So, whenever I stand to say something in front of the people, I should deliver my opinion clearly and definitely. This time, I don't need to worry. I can speak loudly without any concern. At the time, I can give a better content, and then show my confidence. I think it's essential and very good point for me.
And in this age, we have to have our own uniqueness. So, we should give our image for a short time. In this point of view, I have a strength.
When I join a meeting or party, I meet many people. and they also meet many people including me. So, we can't remember all members' appearance. In my case, I have a common face, it is somewhat difficult for others to remember my face. But my voice is different from the face.
After meeting some people, when I meet them again at the other place, they can't remind well who I am. But when I start to talk to them, they say " Oh! I remember you, I remember your voice. "
It sounds good for me everytime.
Like this, if we change our thinking, everything can be changed in our mind. Even though it is a complex of you until yesterday, if you find a way to use that properly time, it will be your strength from today. And then you can improve.
Let's find our complex and change it to our strength.