Late evening on Friday I had a secret affair. It was purely a domestic matter. This seems to be why this Saturday is overflowing with vibrant atmosphere and I'm very relaxing when I get to have some talk over lunch with peers. This is the very spirit that I have been trying to seek and maintain. Though I can't revert to the carefree and happy days, it feels like I will have nothing to worry about. I won't resolutely lose any sleep over anything until it turns out to be such a big deal. In every life we have some trouble. When I worry, I just make it double. Yeah, I just need to cocern about what I can do for them. A deeper set of ties between peers would create a therapeutic community of sorts that would be more interconnected, vibrant and powerful than any formal treatment groups. On second thought, I also enjoyed the most vibrant year in my history in 2014, raking in some money and finding myself stable in many ways. This great opportunity transformed the heady mix of overwhelming frustration and resent ment into a catalyst for life-affiriming gratitude. It's true that I'm singing my way in gratitude from dawn until dusk. Now I don't remember the words which badly hurt me, but I remember the smiles on the faces of peers who supported me even in my worst moments. On being awakened from my dream, there was no such a bad man. I just regret I was so foolish. I notice billions of diverse people in the world and each individual is wonderful based on their own unique different styles. This realization really had a huge impact on exapnding my focus and concentration. I would be able to expand my capabilities to communicate in my newly chosen language. I hope that I will have a literary allure that can captivate anyone as they get close to me. The struggle will be on to bring myself under control in the first place and then, not to look back 20 years from now, with deep remorse that I should have been more kind to others when I had the chance. This is a very momentous event. I'm being able to thinking affirmatively about things and people. Likewise, I am obtaining pleasure in the sounds that ring around my office. No one can stop me from growing. I'm on my way.