Chapter 9 Worry Is a Sin Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God; and the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus. --Philippians 4:6-7
AFTER TEN DAYS of rest, with good, sound sleep every night, I knew I was ready to meet the Lord again and to go with Him to heaven. The Ides of March--March 15, 1996--had arrived, but they were not something to beware; indeed, they provided me with the moment I had been eagerly awaiting since the Lord’s departure nearly two weeks before. From 6:40 A.M. to 8:40 A.M., I enjoyed the Lord’s visit and another journey to heaven. As usual, before His arrival my body shook, and I groaned for thirty minutes. Then the Lord appeared before me and said: “My daughter, I see you are rested now. We have a lot of work to do yet.” The Lord of heaven and earth was concerned about me, His daughter and handmaiden. He made sure I had caught up on my rest before He returned to take me with Him. He understands the limitations of my body and soul, and He truly cares about me. He knows everything that is good for His children, and He will withhold no good thing from those who love Him. After the last two times I had gone to heaven my body had felt as if it were out of control. I was very tired from the shaking, and I found myself feeling dizzy much of the time. I had slept only three hours a night for a period of two weeks. It was impossible for me to sleep during the day because the anointing of the Holy Spirit was so strong upon me. Little by little, I was learning how to manage the situation by going to bed earlier in the evening to ensure I would have sufficient sleep before the Lord arrived. On this morning, the Lord took my transformed body to the beach where we walked by the seaside for a while before He took me to heaven. My heart was filled with great joy and anticipation as we flew away. We arrived at the usual location and entered the white building. By now, I was getting used to the setting and the procedures we normally followed. We changed into our heavenly clothing, and then the Lord took my hand as He led me down a wide road that coursed its way up an exceedingly high mountain. It was very much like the Cascade Mountains that I’d visited in the northwestern part of the United States, and I remarked that heaven looked, in many ways, like earth--but it was far more beautiful than anything I’d ever seen on this planet. There were many leafy trees and bushes on the mountainside. From the summit I could see a beach. It was a rocky coastline, much like the pictures I’d seen of Bar Harbor, Maine. Everything glowed with a whiteness that was stunningly brilliant and pure. We descended the mountain and walked on the sand between the rocks. It was the whitest, cleanest sand I’d ever seen, and the beach was absolutely the most beautiful I’d ever seen. Some of the rocks nearby were so huge that I could not see their tops. As we walked around one of them, I noticed a large group of people wearing white robes. Each person was distinctly different from the other in appearance, and many children could be seen playing in the sand. Some children were holding the hands of grown-ups, and everyone was walking around in a playful, happy manner. It was wonderful to see a place of such brightness and joy. The Lord and I sat on one of the big rocks for quite a while, simply enjoying the vibrant beauty all around us. He turned to me and said: “I have made so many of the things here similar to the things on earth so that My children can enjoy them when they come to My kingdom, but there are many things that are not the same as things on earth. I have so many exciting surprises for My children.” He sounded so happy--like a parent who has provided as many gifts as possible for his children to open on Christmas Day. The Lord seemed to want His children to be happy--like the ones who were playing so joyfully in the sand. This is why He created heaven to be such a wonderful place. It will be the home for His children forever and ever. “Do you like what I am showing you, Choo Nam?” “Yes, Lord. I’ve seen many beaches on earth, but none of them can compare with this beach.” I could sense that my response greatly pleased my Master. Soon thereafter we left the beach and returned to the white building. We changed into regal robes and crowns, and the Lord took me to the pond where we usually end each visit to heaven. The Lord sat on His favorite rock while I joyfully sang and danced with my transformed body. Meanwhile, the hands of my earthly body were moving in rhythm to the heavenly music. “I still have many things to show you, My daughter,” the Lord said as I moved closer to Him. “You must be patient.” This was good news to me because I knew He meant that I would get to go to heaven with Him many more times. My heart soared with delight and rejoicing as I danced in this wonderful place of joy near the peaceful pond. I was in the presence of the Lord, in the place He had prepared for me, and I knew I had to be the happiest person who had ever lived.
“STOP WORRYING!”
TEARS OF UTTER joy flowed freely down my face as I said, “Thank You, Lord, for bringing me to heaven with You again.” “My daughter, I notice that you worry about everything I ask you to do. I have told you many times not to worry, daughter, and you are not obeying Me in this.” “Lord, I’m sorry. It’s just that I can’t seem to stop worrying. All I want to do is the work You’ve called me to do for You. I want to do it the way You tell me to, and all this causes me to worry.” “I don’t want you to be concerned about anything from now on,” He directed. “I am going to take care of everything for you. Watch out for some people, because they will give you wrong advice. That is why, while you are writing the book, I do not want you to leave town, and I don’t want anyone else to come to your house, except your family.” The Lord was more explicit with His instructions than He’d ever been before. I listened intently as He went on. “Did you notice that no one has come to visit you since I took you to heaven?” “Well, yes. It seems that every time I invited someone to come or made arrangements for company, something always happened to change their plans.” “Now you know why, My daughter. I want you to concentrate on the book, with no interruptions. This book is very important to Me, and it will be a special blessing for My children. Whatever you do, I want you to talk to Me first. Everything about this book has to be My will.” The Lord’s clear message rang in my heart as we left the pond, returned to the white building and changed into our regular clothing. Then we returned to the beach on earth, and the Lord said, “Daughter, you see this beach is so much different from the beach you saw in My kingdom.” “Lord, everything You showed me in Your kingdom was so beautiful, except for the sad things You showed me.” “This is why I chose you to do this work. I do not want any of My children to have to go to the pit. It is all up to them either to believe or not to believe. I’ll talk to you more about this later, My child.” He then reached over and embraced me. When He departed, the shaking of my body stopped. The power He was unleashing in my body was beginning to heal the weak places in my character that remained from my childhood. I was learning how to be more confident, how to reach out and truly trust the Lord, but I still struggled with certain worries and fears. On March 19 the Lord spent two hours with me, from 7 A.M. to 9 A.M. I shook for half an hour and then groaned in the Spirit for an additional fifteen minutes that morning. Then I heard the pleasant, compelling sound of the Lord’s voice speaking to me. He took me by the hand and we went back to the beach. My body underwent its supernatural transformation, and I found myself wearing a white robe like the one Jesus had on. We then ascended the mighty mountain along the narrow road. I noticed a large rock where we sat for a rest. The length of time my earthly body had had to endure the manifestations preceding the Lord’s visits was inordinately long, so I knew this visit would be a very special one. My mind raced with thoughts of anticipation and joy. What will the Lord show me today? Where will He take me? Jesus broke my reverie by saying: “I know you are still worried about the things I told you and showed you. I told you to stop worrying.” The tone of His voice sounded angry and severe. “You do not trust My words.” I knew immediately what He meant. I was still worrying about the book, even after what He had shared with me the last time. He had told me that every detail would be carefully handled by Him, but I still felt intimidated by such an important project. I was truly overwhelmed by the magnitude of the assignment. I began to cry tears of shame and repentance at the Lord’s rebuke. I put my hands together, bowed my head and began to plead, “Please forgive me, Lord. No matter how hard I try not to worry, Lord, I still end up worrying about all this.” “From now on, Choo Nam, I want you to stop worrying. I do not want you to worry about anything. Some people will not believe you, but you don’t need to worry about that. My daughter, I am simply using you for this book. It is My book and I will take care of it. “As I told you at the beginning, it will take a while to prepare you for this work, so do not worry. Leave everything to Me. If you worry, you are not making Me happy.” “Lord, I’m so sorry. Please forgive me.” “I know you do not know many things, but I see that you are pure-hearted. I know that you believe everything about Me. I’ve seen your obedience, and I know you fear My words. “I want you to concentrate only on My work and nothing else. I am pleased about everything about you, My daughter. After you finish this book, I will bless you more than you ever wanted.” “Lord, the only blessing I want is for my whole family to please You more than anything in their lives.” “Because you are what you are, I chose you for this work. This is My book and My responsibility. I will take care of everything. Don’t ever worry again. I always want you to be happy because you are My special daughter.” “Lord, I need Roger to help me with so much of Your work.” “Your husband is going to serve Me through you. I have many plans for both of you, so prepare your hearts to serve Me. It will all begin to happen very soon. Now I must take you back.” We walked back down from the mountain. While we walked on the sand I felt incredibly happy. It was as if a great burden had been lifted from my shoulders. Truly the Lord had shown me many new and important things--things that brought healing and freedom to my timid soul. After the Lord left me this morning, I felt like a new person.
PUT GOD FIRST
I BEGAN TO delve into the Scriptures to see what I could learn about the sin of worry. My eyes were drawn to the words of Jesus that were recorded by Matthew: “But seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all these things shall be added to you. Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about its own things” (Matthew 6:33-34). The context of this passage is the Sermon on the Mount, in which Jesus shares the secrets of spiritual victory with His disciples. Like me, the disciples were fretting over so many things. They worried if they would have food to eat and clothing to wear. Jesus reminded them:
So why do you worry about clothing? Consider the lilies of the field, how they grow: they neither toil or spin; and yet I say to you that even Solomon in all his glory was not arrayed like one of these. Now if God so clothes the grass of the field, which today is, and tomorrow is thrown into the oven, will he not much more clothe you, O you of little faith? --MATTHEW 6:28-30
That’s the key--faith! The Holy Spirit then led me to another verse of Scripture that helped clarify this for me: “Whatever is not from faith is sin” (Romans 14:23). That’s why worry is a sin--it is not of faith. God wants us to walk by faith, and yet in His great mercy He had already shown me so much. I had seen the reality of heaven and I had walked with the Lord! Why should I ever worry again? The season of spring began with another visit to the earthly beach. From 6:30 A.M. to 8:15 A.M. on March 22, the Lord visited with me. He took me to the beach again, and this time He seemed much quieter than He had been three days earlier. Finally, as He sat on the rock on the mountainside where we frequently sat, Jesus said: “Don’t concern yourself with testifying in church, Choo Nam; concentrate on My work.” He knew that I was literally bursting to tell my story to everyone I saw. Even though I am a shy person, I felt I had to tell everyone what I had seen, heard and experienced. My last visit with the Lord and my subsequent study of the Word had imparted a confidence and boldness to me that I had never known before. I felt as if I could share my story with an audience of millions! I took every opportunity I could find to testify for my Lord and Master, and I thought He would be greatly pleased by this. In fact, I had such a strong desire to speak on His behalf that I had rehearsed my testimony over and over again with the help of a tape recorder. The anointing of the Holy Spirit seemed to propel me into this kind of public ministry. Even when I went shopping I told people about heaven. Some people reacted with surprise. Others reacted with joy and wanted to hear more. I told them to read the book when it comes out. Some people, as I could tell by their facial reactions, didn’t want to hear about my journeys to heaven, but I had learned that their doubtful responses were not important. I knew I had a story to tell, and no human reaction could keep me from sharing the excitement I had experienced. I soon found that most Christians wanted to hear more. Many were asking, “When will the book be finished?” Most of the people I know are believers, including the members of my extended family who all have given their support to me by saying they believe my story. As I shared my story with one nephew, he was drawn to the Lord. Now he goes to a Bible class and attends church regularly and is hungry for the Lord. The Lord was not displeased with me, but He emphatically reiterated, “I want you to concentrate on the book; then you will be able to satisfy many churches and reach the unsaved.” The sound of His voice, His words, His message was a wave of joy to my spirit. I began singing in the Spirit, and I noticed that the Lord was looking at my face and smiling, and I could see the face of my transformed body smiling at the Lord the whole time I was singing. “My daughter, I enjoy the time we spend together,” the Lord stated as He placed my right hand under His arm. He didn’t talk much for a long time, but finally spoke. “I want you to write about how you live your Christian life. It is important for others to know how you have lived your life with Me, to see how open your heart has been to Me. Your honest and obedient life is so important to Me, and I know you always put Me first in your life. When you pray, you always say you will put Me first--that I’m more important to you than anyone else or anything in the world. “I want you to know that I’ve heard all your prayers even though it may seem that I have not answered each one. I know the hearts of all My children. I cannot bless anyone who does not have a sincere heart, but I do want all of My children to be blessed.” After He left me this time I reflected on His words. He had seemed so genuinely pleased with me, and I was thrilled to hear Him say that He had heard all my prayers. He led me to an important passage in the Bible: “Now this is the confidence that we have in Him, that if we ask anything according to His will, He hears us. And if we know that He hears us, whatever we ask, we know that we have the petitions that we have asked of Him” (1 John 5:14-15). God hears and answers the sincere prayers of His children. He showed me so many rich and precious prayer promises, and I knew He wanted me to claim each one:
He shall call upon me, and I will answer him: I will be with him in trouble; I will deliver him, and honor him. With long life will I satisfy him, and shew him my salvation. --Psalms 91:15-16,
Call unto me, and I will answer thee, and shew thee great and mighty things, which thou knowest not. --JEREMIAH 33:3
Your Father knoweth what things ye have need of, before ye ask him. --MATTHEW 6:8
Ask, and it shall be given you; seek, and ye shall find; knock, and it shall be opened unto you: For every one that asketh receiveth; and he that seeketh findeth; and to him that knocketh it shall be opened. --MATTHEW 7:7-8
And all things, whatsoever ye shall ask in prayer, believing, ye shall receive. --MATTHEW 21:22
These were just a few of the mighty prayer promises from God’s Word that the Holy Spirit revealed to me. On March 23 I was praying intensely under a great anointing from the Holy Spirit. My body was shaking very hard, and groanings from deep within my spirit were coming forth with a violence I had never experienced before. The Lord came into my room and sat by the window. Then I saw my transformed body sitting next to the Lord, and I was greatly surprised. It was as if I was having a total out-of-the-body experience--I was pure spirit. Jesus’ tender voice spoke to me: “You are living your life completely for Me. Your heart has willingly given up all worldly things for Me. I now know that nothing brings satisfaction to you more than being in My presence. Therefore, I never want you to say that you are not good enough for Me. Your faithfulness is very important to Me.” An unusual, unearthly voice emanated from my spirit. This phenomenon usually accompanies the visions the Lord gives to me. Then the Lord showed me His feet and hands. I could see the scars from the nails in His feet and hands. At first He sat with His legs crossed, but then He straightened His legs. I noticed that the tops of both of his feet had deep round scars on them. Then I looked at His hands--there were round, white scars very close to His wrists. My heart ached for my Lord and Master. I touched His hands and His feet. Then I put my face on His hands and feet and began to cry in heaving sobs. I was crying like a baby as I realized all the Lord had gone through. I wondered if the whole household could hear me crying. I could see my transformed body with its face on the Lord’s hands and feet, rubbing so gently--and I could tell I was crying in my transformed body. The Lord began to speak. “When I was on this earth I lived for My Father’s words, and I knew what I would have to face, but I lived for My Father’s words. That’s why all of heaven and earth are Mine now. “So many of My children know what I want them to do, but they still love the things of this world more than My words. The children who live with My Word, according to My Word, are the ones who are pure of heart. They are the only ones who will enter the mansions I’ve prepared for them, like the one you saw with your name on the door. No one can have both this kingdom and My kingdom. If anyone enjoys the world more than Me, he or she cannot enter My kingdom.” This was the strongest message the Lord had given to me so far. I knew I had to record it carefully and faithfully so the world would know that He wants to be first in all of our lives. He created us and died for us so we would not have to perish in hell. He continued. “When I was in this world, I suffered until the end. I gave My life for My children. I want them to live with My Word so that they can have eternal life with Me. This worldly life can never compare with My kingdom.” When He said these words, He sounded sad and hurt. I’ll never forget those words--and I know they are so true. This life has nothing to compare with the kingdom of God. I’ve seen it, and I know His kingdom is prepared for us.
Chapter 10 Jerusalem Is Ready Behold, I am coming quickly! Hold fast what you have, that no one may take your crown. He who overcomes, I will make him a pillar in the temple of My God, and he shall go out no more. I will write on him the name of My God and the name of the city of My God, the New Jerusalem, which comes down out of heaven from My God. And I will write on him My new name. --Revelation 3:11-12
IT WAS SPRINGTIME--the season of marvelous flowers, warm breezes and blossoming trees. In Washington state, where I live, it is a spectacular time of year. In heaven, it seems like it is perpetually springtime--warmth, beauty, peace and joy are everywhere. In my heart I had been celebrating springtime throughout the now-ending winter because of my visits with the Lord and my intriguing trips to heaven. On March 24, Roger and I attended church services. Our pastor preached about Jesus’ suffering before the crucifixion. It was Lent--the time of year when Christians prepare for the crucifixion and resurrection of Jesus Christ. As the pastor described the Lord’s suffering and read Scriptures related to His passion, I began to cry. It was not uncommon for me to shake during our times of worship, but this time my body was shaking so severely that it almost knocked me out of my seat. The anointing of the Holy Spirit was strong upon me.
SCARRED HANDS AND FEET
I SAW JESUS in front of me and He said, “My daughter, I want you to look at My hands again,” and He pointed to the scars on His hands and feet. The unusual voice that I used for vocalizing when spiritual visions came to me did not come forth this time. I sat in the Lord’s presence in total silence as He continued to speak to me. “I want you to keep on writing everything I show you,” He directed. I nodded my agreement. It was incomparably wonderful to be able to visit privately with the Lord during our public worship service. I wanted to stand up and tell everyone I had just seen the Lord and that He had shown me His scars, but something deep in my spirit cautioned me not to do this, so I sat patiently until the service was over. I believe it was the “still, small voice” of God’s Holy Spirit that told me not to speak. Since that time I have learned that there is, as Solomon wrote, a time to speak and a time to remain silent (see Ecclesiastes 3:7). Jesus was training me to become sensitive to the Spirit’s leading in my life, and I knew that until He directed me otherwise I was to be receiving instead of giving. Throughout the service I cried under the precious anointing of the Holy Spirit. The shaking subsided when the Lord left, but the tears did not. I heard the pastor’s words, but my mind and spirit were focused on something else--the scars the Lord had now shown me twice. I began to meditate on some of the Scriptures I had remembered from my study and other church services: “But He was wounded for our transgressions, He was bruised for our iniquities; the chastisement for our peace was upon Him, and by His stripes we are healed” (Isaiah 53:5); “And when they had come to a place called Golgotha, that is to say, Place of a Skull, they gave Him sour wine mingled with gall to drink. But when He had tasted it, He would not drink. Then they crucified Him, and divided His garments, casting lots” (Matthew 27:33-35). I could see my precious Lord and Master hanging on the cross of Calvary, atop Golgotha’s hill. The sharp spikes ripped at the flesh of His palms and ankles as He hung there so weak and limp. The Roman soldier’s spear opened a gaping wound in His side, and streams of blood coursed down His face from the crown of thorns they had pushed onto His head. There was a puddle of blood at the foot of the cross, and the people stepped into His blood as they clambered, trying to get His seamless robe. The sky overhead was lead gray, and lightning flashed in the distance. The people mocked Him, spit at Him and cursed Him. They were having a fiendish party at my Master’s expense. Then, in my mind’s eye, I saw His mother--Mary--bowing near the cross, her body trembling and tears forming rivers on her face. Oh, how I understood how she must have felt on that first Good Friday--she had to watch her naked son, the one she loved so much, being tortured and killed in front of her--and there was nothing she could do to stop it. Jesus could have called 10,000 angels to come to His assistance, but instead He chose to accept the cruel, shameful death of crucifixion so that we could find the path of life. I thank God for the vision He imparted to me, for now I truly understand all that Jesus went through for the people He loves so much. He was suspended on the cruel cross, between heaven and hell, so that we would have eternal life. He never sinned, and yet He willingly took all of our sin upon Him. What a wonderful Savior He is! The scars on His hands and feet are real. I’ve seen them. They are the marks of horrendous suffering--anguish He experienced for you and me.
FISH IN HEAVEN?
ON MARCH 25 Jesus visited with me from 6:35 A.M. to 8:50 A.M. We walked and talked together in the usual way--at the beach, over the golden bridge, along the winding road. After walking on the usual road for a while, the Lord escorted me to a different path, along a road that was wide and white. It looked like a highway in America, and it was lined with trees on both sides. These trees were unusually tall and their leaves were the most beautiful I’d ever seen. As we walked, I noticed that the trees began to change their colors. It was like walking along a rainbow--the array of colors was spectacular! This road led to a hill that was much smaller than the mountain we usually climbed. From the rising crest I noticed a silver river shining in the sunlight of heaven. Mountain ranges filled the panorama with a beauty that only heaven could produce. The mountains seemed to be forested with evergreen trees. We descended the hillside and walked to the water where we saw all kinds of fish swimming in the river over a rocky bottom. It amused me to see fish in heaven, and I began to laugh. I was enjoying the moment so much that I stepped out and began wading in the water. I reached down and grabbed a red, striped fish and lifted it out of the water. I was laughing uncontrollably, so the fish jumped out of my hands and swam to safety. Watching my former captive swim away, in total freedom, cavorting with the other fish, caused me to giggle hysterically. I grabbed another fish--this one a different color--and it jumped out of my hands as well. It was a wonderful time of joy and fun, and the Lord began to laugh with me. He began to participate in the action with me by reaching down and grabbing a large fish colored like “a coat of many colors.” He looked at the fish admiringly and then threw it back into the river, still laughing. It was so good to see the Lord enjoying the moment with me. I just kept on laughing--deep, belly laughs--and it felt so good. The more I heard the Lord’s laughter, the more I laughed. Finally, I was doubled over with laughter, but it felt so good. Jesus said, “Daughter, you must be enjoying this. Do you like fishing?” “I’m just enjoying being here, Lord.” “I have more fish to show you later. Do you want to catch more fish?” “I am laughing too hard to catch any fish, Lord,” I acknowledged amid waves of laughter. “We’d better go back now, my daughter. I have to take you to another place.” We left the river, and I felt so cleansed by the preceding moments of joy and laughter. The fish were fun, and I remembered, “A merry heart does good, like medicine” (Proverbs 17:22). I felt like I had had a dose of joy that would last me a lifetime! It was so wonderful to see my Lord taking such obvious delight in my pleasure and happiness. This experience helped me understand the verse: “You will show me the path of life; in Your presence is fullness of joy; at Your right hand are pleasures forevermore” (Psalms 16:11). I had walked along the path of life in heaven, and I had drunk from the river of His pleasures as the psalmist depicted: “How precious is Your lovingkindness, O God! Therefore the children of men put their trust under the shadow of Your wings. They are abundantly satisfied with the fullness of Your house, and You give them drink from the river of Your pleasures. For with You is the fountain of life; in Your light we see light” (Psalms 36:7-9). My joy was brimming up like a fountain and overflowing like a waterfall.
FLYING THROUGH HEAVEN
WE RETURNED ON the same road we had taken to get to the hillside. Then the Lord took me to a high mountain on a very narrow road that was bordered by huge trees and bushes. We walked along this road for quite a while. This caused me to wonder where we were going. I also wondered why the road was so narrow. Finally we reached the end of the road where I looked over the hill and saw a white fence surrounding many white buildings. They glistened with the purest white--a whiteness more brilliant than freshly fallen snow. I wished that I could get closer to the scene in front of me, but as was so often the case, Jesus showed this setting to me from a distance. I did not understand why. He spoke to me, “My daughter, I want you to see it clearly, so we must go down there.” He reached over, took my hand, and we began flying. It was a breathtaking experience, and a loud groan emerged from my real body. When we landed in the fertile valley, Jesus took me to this pure white street. Then I noticed that it had beautiful white houses on both sides. The street was white and shiny like glass. Everything seemed so white there. The fence seemed to be much higher than the houses that I saw from the top of the hill. It is not possible, at this time, for me to explain, or even to suggest, why the Lord has shown me some of the things He has. Many times He has shown me the same things on two separate occasions. We usually haven’t spent much time at each site, and He has offered few explanations of their meanings, but that’s all right with me because I know the time will come when I will know even as I am known (see 1 Corinthians 13:12). The Lord told me that He must show me this, and we approached one of the houses. It had double doors with golden trim. The door was outlined with colored glass. I took particular notice of the door knob made of pure gold! As we entered the house, I noticed that all the windows were made of stained glass. The carpeting was colorful--a mixture of subdued hues--and it gave the interior of the house a very classic look. The jewels that adorned the walls sparkled and shone. I felt as if I were stepping into a picture rather than a house. I walked up the golden stairway that had an intricate design etched into its surface. At the top of the stairs, I walked into a bedroom where a bed stood that was grander and larger than any king-sized bed on earth. I walked around it and into the powder room. It was laden with gold and precious gems on every wall except one. That wall had a full-length mirror to reflect the amazing beauty of the immediate environment. I noticed that all the rooms in this house were immense, including the powder room. In fact, every house the Lord showed me had huge rooms that were beautiful beyond all expectations. I began to sing with joy as I walked along the corridors, entering each room and enjoying such a blessed dwelling. After my excursion through the upstairs was over, I went downstairs, where the Lord was walking around in a room that was much like a parlor. He heard me, turned, looked at me, and said, “Do you like this place?” “Yes, my Lord. It’s beautiful. Who will live in these houses You are showing to me?” “All of my children will live in these houses I’ve prepared for them. They will be living here sooner than they think.”
THE HOLY CITY
THE LORD TOOK my hand and we left the lovely valley. Next, we walked on a divided street that was the same color as the yellow brick road in The Wizard of Oz. There were white houses on both sides of the street. The island in the middle of the road was adorned with fruit trees that had been evenly placed along a clear, blue stream that was indescribably long. There were many beautiful rocks on both sides of the stream. Then the Lord took my hand and said, “We are going up, My daughter.” We lifted from the ground straight up, like a helicopter does, and then we began to fly. He took me to the same mountain where we had started this particular journey. As we took flight, my earthly body, lying on the bed, was screaming in panic. In my transformed body, however, I was getting somewhat accustomed to the extraordinary things I experienced in heaven. We walked back onto the narrow road and went to the white building where we always change our garments. Next, we proceeded to the quiet pond. The minute we arrived at the pond I began to sing and dance. My heart was still flying with joy. The Lord said, “Come, Choo Nam, sit by Me.” I obeyed by taking a seat on the rock next to Him and holding His arm. “My daughter, I showed you the river and New Jerusalem. Those houses are in Jerusalem--the Holy City. We will all live in Jerusalem when I bring My children home. I want all of my children to know that Jerusalem is ready for them. “You saw there was no road to get into Jerusalem. Therefore, we had to fly to get there. We all will fly there soon--that is why your work is so important.” “I don’t want you to miss anything I’ve shown you or told you,” the Lord continued. “I know some people will not believe many of the things I’ve shown you--the doubtful and ones who don’t know My Word--but I know how hard you are trying to please Me. “After you finish this work, your life will be pure joy--far greater than what you’ve just experienced. You will be blessed. Whoever believes you and helps you will be blessed as well. “You will be a surprise to all the churches, a joy to those ready and waiting for Me and sad news to those who love the world more than Me. This book will help to deliver many people who are in spiritual darkness. “Daughter, you must not be concerned with what people think or say; just write down what I show you and tell you. I trust your obedience completely. You have always feared and believed My Word since you knew me. I notice that you have not been deliberately disobedient since you gave your heart to Me, and you always put Me first in your life. That is why I chose you as My special daughter and friend.” His words were both humbling and reassuring. They made me feel good. One thing I knew for sure--since I had become a Christian I had always endeavored to please My Lord, to put Him first in every situation and decision. He was blessing My obedience. “It took a long time to prepare you for this work,” He said. “Now you know how special you are to Me. You said that you had given your life to Me, and I know your heart. Don’t ever deviate from this commitment, Choo Nam. “Whatever you have to give up, or lose, in your earthly life will be restored to you in heaven. In heaven, you will be with Me forever.” To me, those were the most important words of all. It was this promise that kept me going, because I know how immeasurably wonderful it is to be with Him. The thrill of knowing that I would be in His presence forever was the most blessed thought of all. “Lord, I am not that good,” I cried. “It’s just that I love You more than my own life. I am not happy with anyone or anything unless You are included. I feel Your control in every part of my life, and it makes me so very happy.” “Whoever permits Me to control their life will be blessed. These are My obedient children. You are My special child.” When the visit was over I pondered the many things Jesus had told me. The New Jerusalem is coming from heaven. It is ready now. The Lord wants His children to enjoy eternal glory with Him. He has selected me to share all this with anyone who will listen. Throughout the day I studied what the Scriptures have to say about the New Jerusalem. When I read the twenty-first chapter of Revelation, I realized that the apostle John had had the same experience with the Lord that I had just enjoyed.
And he carried me away in the Spirit to a great and high mountain, and showed me the great city, the holy Jerusalem, descending out of heaven from God, having the glory of God. And her light was like a most precious stone, like a jasper stone, clear as crystal. --REVELATION 21:10-11
I was enthralled by his description of the heavenly city, because I had seen so many of the things he wrote about. But I saw no temple in it, for the Lord God Almighty and the Lamb are its temple. And the city had no need of the sun or of the moon to shine in it, for the glory of God illuminated it, and the Lamb is its light. --REVELATION 21:22-23
I had walked in the brightness of that city. I felt I was surrounded by snow because everything was white and bright. Like John, I had noticed that there were no churches or temples in the New Jerusalem, only beautiful homes that the Lord had prepared for His children. Its gates shall not be shut at all by day (there shall be no night there). And they shall bring the glory and the honor of the nations into it. But there shall by no means enter it anything that defiles, or causes an abomination or a lie, but only those who are written in the Lamb’s Book of Life. --REVELATION 21:25-27
This is what Jesus had been telling me--heaven is reserved for those who will obey. Only the pure in heart will be able to enter and live there. I continued my reading, into chapter 22, and I was truly taken aback by this confirmation of the reality of heaven that I had experienced. And he showed me a pure river of water of life, clear as crystal, proceeding from the throne of God and of the Lamb. In the middle of its street, and on either side of the river, was the tree of life, which bore twelve fruits, each tree yielding its fruit every month. And the leaves of the tree were for the healing of the nations. --REVELATION 22:1-2
I had tasted the water of that river, and I had walked down the streets. I had seen the trees and had even tasted the fruit of some. The message that Jesus gave to John was the same as the one He gave to me. This is the message that the Lord wants me to share with everyone who will listen: “Behold, I am coming quickly! Blessed is he who keeps the words of the prophecy of this book” --Revelations 22:7
The Lord is just, and He wants everyone to know: “Behold, I am coming quickly, and My reward is with Me, to give to every one according to his work. I am the Alpha and the Omega, the Beginning and the End, the First and the Last” --Revelations 22:12-13
Chapter 11 Heavenly Food, Heavenly Pleasures Blessed are those who are called to the marriage supper of the Lamb. --Revelation 19:9 (emphasis added)
THIRTY MINUTES OF deep trembling throughout my body occurred before the Lord’s arrival on March 27. I was able to be with Him from 6:30 A.M. to 8:45 A.M. After the half hour of shaking, the Lord came to me and took my hand. In my transformed body, I walked with the Lord on the beach, and then He escorted me to heaven. We walked through the pearly gates and went to the white building to change our clothing. After changing, we walked across the golden bridge. It all was becoming so natural to me. Each believer, I’m sure, will go through the same procedures when he or she goes to heaven. I began to think of the individuals in the Bible with whom I shared the privilege of visiting heaven before death. The apostle Paul wrote about one of these fortunate souls in the twelfth chapter of 2 Corinthians.
I know a man in Christ who fourteen years ago--whether in the body I do not know, or whether out of the body I do not know, God knows--such a one was caught up to the third heaven. And I know such a man--whether in the body or out of the body I do not know, God knows--how he was caught up into Paradise and heard inexpressible words, which it is not lawful for a man to utter. --2 CORINTHIANS 12:2-4
I know exactly what the man experienced, for there are many things I saw and heard in heaven that I am not permitted to share with others.
BIBLICAL VISITS TO HEAVEN
THE APOSTLE JOHN, as has been recorded in the book of Revelation, also went to heaven. His visit there was preceded by a personal visit from the Lord Jesus Christ, who said: “I am the Alpha and the Omega, the Beginning and the End...who is and who was and who is to come, the Almighty” (Revelations 1:8). Like John’s, my visits to heaven always began with a visit from the Lord. The prophet Elijah went to heaven, as well. Part of what was recorded about his heavenly encounter states: “Then it happened, as they continued on and talked, that suddenly a chariot of fire appeared with horses of fire, and separated the two of them; and Elijah went up by a whirlwind into heaven” (2 Kings 2:11). Elijah flew to heaven by way of a whirlwind, and I believe my flights to heaven could be described in a similar way. God had been gracious to many others before me--people whom He has taken to heaven before death. In each case, there was a prevailing purpose for the visits to heaven. Always, God has been concerned about letting His people know that He wants them to live with Him forever. How privileged I am to be among the select few He has honored in this way. The more I think about it, it’s not because I’m particularly special but simply because I want only to obey and serve my Lord throughout all eternity. It thrills me to let others know about my trips to heaven.
FOOD FOR THE KINGDOM
THE LORD AND I walked along the road for a long time, then we turned to the right, walking down the hillside to some steps made from rock. I saw a body of water that looked like a very long, narrow river. “What I am going to show you, My daughter, will be very special for My children.” There were magnificent fruit trees on both sides of the river. On one side, the trees bore purple fruit; on the other side, the trees were laden with beautiful, red fruit. These fruits were so attractive, and I longed to taste them. The red fruit was shaped like large teardrops. The Lord must have known my desire to try these fruits, so He reached up, picked one and gave it to me to eat. It was unlike any fruit I had eaten. It was so delicious that my physical body’s mouth drooled down the side of my face. “Why aren’t You eating, Lord?” “I’m not hungry, but I’m glad to see that you are enjoying it.” We walked for a long time, and then I saw a picturesque bridge built from red wood. As we walked over it, I looked down and saw that the stream was filled with many different kinds of fish. “What are all the fish for?” I asked. “This is food for the kingdom,” the Lord replied. It made me happy to know that we will be eating fruit and fish in heaven. The fact that these are the primary foods of the kingdom suggests that we should be eating more of them on earth. I’ve always thought that fish and fruit are particularly healthful foods, and this visit to heaven confirmed that for me. Seeing fish swimming so freely in the water always makes me laugh. I began to chuckle and then I asked, “Lord, where can we cook them?” Before He answered I noticed the voice that accompanies my supernatural visions came forth. Therefore I knew the Lord wanted to show me something. I could see the right side of the water, and I noticed that a large, high rock wall stretched out so far I couldn’t see the end. It was so high I couldn’t see the top of it. I could see the pure white sand stretching from the road all the way to the rock wall. There were no trees in the particular vicinity I saw, but the sand looked so white and clean. The scene imparted to me through this supernatural vision was immensely beautiful. In a few moments the Lord answered my question by wading into the water and grabbing a large, flat, white fish. It was about the size of my two hands together. I enjoyed watching the Lord do this for me, and I found the scene to be very amusing. I began to giggle as I continued to watch Him. Next, I walked with Him beyond the rocks, where I noticed many large cooking areas that had silver-colored ovens built into the rocks. Atop the ovens were cooking grilles with oval-shaped plates and silver forks. The Lord simply pushed a button on the side of one oven and a fire began. He then assumed the role of a cook, right in front of me. He grilled the fish until both sides of it were brown. He seemed to be so happy doing this for me. For some reason, I wanted to eat the tail end of the fish, so I pointed to it and the Lord gave me that half of the fish. He ate the other half while I devoured the portion He gave me. It was delicious. Truly, I’d never tasted such tender, luscious fish before. The Lord watched as I enjoyed my heavenly meal. When we finished eating, He took my plate and fork and put them into a silver container. Then He said, “My daughter, as you can see, I have prepared everything for My children.” I smiled with pure joy. Then we returned to the road and went back to the white building where we always change. An angel escorted me to the powder room, and after I had changed into a beautiful robe and crown, the Lord was waiting for me. He took my hand, and we went out to the pond. There, I began to sing and dance, as was my usual custom. This day I felt special, so humble about what the Lord was doing for me; more so than any other day since He had started taking me to heaven. It wasn’t because I ate the fish; it was because my Lord and Savior cooked the fish and we ate it together. He showed me His loving kindness as He did to His disciples before He went to heaven. All these thoughts came to my mind while I was dancing. Then the Lord called me over to sit next to Him. I put my hand under His arm, and my face on His shoulder, then I began to cry. “Please let me stay here with You, Lord. I don’t ever want to leave You. This is the happiest moment of my life.” “Daughter, you must do this work for Me. I do not want you to miss anything I have shown you or told you. I know you do not have time for yourself, but after everything is completed, you will be blessed.” “Lord, only Roger can help me with the writing, and he is already doing so much for me.” “Tell him that I love him. I will bless him more than he expects. Also tell him to spend more time with Me. Anyone who loves Me must spend much time with Me.” It was a wonderful time of sweet communion with the Lord. When our conversation was over, we returned to the white building and changed into our white robes. Then we returned to earth and walked along the beach. We sat on the shore, and I put my arm under His and said, “I love You, Lord.” “I love you, My precious daughter,” He responded in a voice that was filled with happiness. “Tell everyone that there are so many things to eat in My kingdom. Everything here will taste so much better than any earthly food. Did you like the fish?” I nodded my appreciation. As we stood, the Lord embraced me and then departed. The Lord is more friendly and loving each time I see Him. I remember at first, He didn’t hug me or call me His daughter or use any other sweet words. Now He calls me many sweet names. I feel He is very comfortable with me.
A PLACE OF PLEASURE
THE BIBLE SAYS: “You will show me the path of life; in Your presence is fullness of joy; at Your right hand are pleasures forevermore” (Psalms 16:11). My visits to heaven have shown me the truth of this verse. Heaven is a place of eternal pleasure. The Lord delights in pleasing His children. He wants us to be happy. On March 29 I was with the Lord from 6:40 A.M. to 8:45 A.M. My body shook for twenty-five minutes that morning, then I heard the Lord’s voice and saw His presence. He took my hand, and I saw my transformed body walking along the beach with Him. We walked along the shore for a few minutes and then we went up to heaven. We changed our garments in the white building as usual. Then we walked over the golden bridge, along a wide road that we had not been on before. It led to a very barren area where there were no grasses, trees or mountains. The whole scene was white, as if we had entered an Arctic wasteland. We continued walking until we reached the end of the road. A huge river appeared in front of us, and I noticed mountains on both sides of the water. The one on the right was extremely high. We walked very close to the river, where the soil was like gravel. Tiny pebbles clicked under our feet as we walked. The river was filled with small boats. I had seen similar scenes on earth--bodies of water where people went to fish, swim, water-ski and simply to enjoy boating. “Would you like to ride in one of the boats?” the Lord asked. “Yes,” I eagerly responded, “I’d love to.” We climbed into one of the small boats, and the Lord paddled with His hand. He took us a good way out. When I looked over the edge of the boat, I saw a multitude of different-colored fish frolicking in the water. My gaze was fixed on the uncommonly clear water. I could see into its depths so vividly. It was like the clearest crystal I’d ever seen. The fish, as usual, caused me to begin laughing. They were amazingly bright and beautiful fish. They looked like the large decorative fish that people on earth use in their backyard ponds. “These, My daughter, are for pleasure. Like you, I love to watch the fish swim around in the water.” It was so peaceful and serene on the quiet water. As I looked around, I felt as if we were sitting atop a giant looking-glass. We left the boat and walked along the same road we had taken to get to the lake; then we turned onto a narrow, mountain trail. The magnificent vista at the end of the path revealed a lush, low valley that was filled with tall grass. A narrow stream wound its way through the wide-open pastureland. I saw something moving through the wheatlike fields. Then I saw other movement all over the wheat field. The valley was filled with cattle that looked very much like the cows on earth. “Write this down, Choo Nam. I want all My children to know what awaits them in heaven. I know many of My children have questions about heaven. Some of them wonder if there will be food to eat in heaven.” I knew the answer to that question, and a sense of great pleasure filled me as I looked out upon the spectacular vista in front of me. I could scarcely take it all in. We weren’t able to stay there long, however. Soon the Lord took me back to the white building where we changed our clothing and then went to the pond. I began to sing for joy. Then I sat next to the Lord. “Did you enjoy the boat ride, My daughter?” He asked. “Oh, yes, Lord.” “When I bring My children here, I want them to have pleasure. They can do many of the same things they do on earth. I want them to be happy. You must remember all the things I showed you and talked about. “I do not want you to be confused about anything. That is why I tell you so many important things over and over again and show you the same thing more than once.” We returned to the white building, changed and went back to the beach on earth. The Lord seemed to be in a hurry, so we didn’t sit and talk this time. He simply hugged me and left. As always, my body stopped shaking as soon as He departed.
WATER FOR THE EARTH
AS THE LOVELY month of April began, the Lord appeared in my bedroom on the morning of April 1, at 6:20 A.M. I was with Him until 8:35 A.M. My body shook for thirty minutes, and then He came and talked to me. He stretched out His hand, and I saw my heavenly body at the beach, and then He took me to heaven. After changing our clothing, we walked across the golden bridge. Our journey took us along a wide road with enormous rocks on both sides. It was a longer walk than usual, and it led us to the end of the road where a high rock mountain stood. It was so high that I could not see its summit, but I noticed that it had huge black rocks jutting out from its base. Between the rocks, big waves flowed up and down in an almost stormy fashion. The water looked to be very deep. There was no road down to the water, so we simply looked at it from the side of the mountain. The body of water appeared to be filling a big hole. The Lord explained, “This water is for the earth.” As is so often the case, the Lord does not fully explain the meaning of His words. Often, He will simply tell me what certain things are, and what they may be used for. When I ask Him direct questions, however, He will usually provide me with an answer. Most of the time, though, I don’t feel led to ask Him about what He shows me, because I know that one day it will all be clear to me. My job now is simply to be a scribe who writes down what He shows me and tells me, and I know He will offer a full explanation whenever He deems it necessary. We turned away from this scene and walked again on the long road. When we reached an intersection, we took a side road that meandered very close to the golden bridge that led to a beach. As we traveled along this road, I noticed many houses situated around the water. In back of the houses there were fruit trees of all sorts. It was a very orderly orchard. The first rows consisted of pale green trees that were filled with purple fruits. The next grouping was of larger trees with red leaves. The colors were multitudinous and blended together in a most delightful way. The array of colors was so spectacular that it took my breath away. There were not any mountains in this particular region of heaven--only water, sand, houses and trees. It was such a vast area that I could not see where it ended. The Lord took me into one of the houses. This one was greatly different from the mansions and castles we had visited before. Its interior was quite simple, and its colors were somewhat subdued. “These are beach houses for My children,” the Lord explained. It was amazing! We’ll have vacation homes in heaven! Truly, the Lord does want His children to be happy and to enjoy His pleasures forevermore. After this joyful visit, the Lord and I changed our robes and returned to the placid pond where I sang and danced before Him. I knew the Lord was smiling with great delight even though I could not see His face clearly. He called me to sit by Him, and once more I began to cry, because I knew the end of our visit was drawing close. Whenever I am with Him, I do not want to leave. His presence is fullness of joy. I sat next to Him, and He said: “I have prepared many things in My kingdom that My children enjoy on earth. There are many activities. I made sure that no one would be bored. Everyone will have different assignments. “Why do you think I chose prophets to work for Me on earth? Like you, I’ve sent them in order to do My work. Without prophets, I would not have any way of communicating my desires to My children. “Therefore, My daughter, do not miss writing about anything I show you or tell you. Tell it all. It is because you are such an obedient daughter that I am able to use you. “We must go back now.” He took my hand, and we changed and returned to the beach on earth. Again, we did not sit and talk. The Lord simply hugged me and departed. Again my physical body stopped shaking as soon as He left.
Chapter 12 Enjoy the Kingdom That the genuineness of your faith, being much more precious than gold that perishes, though it is tested by fire, may be found to praise, honor, and glory at the revelation of Jesus Christ, whom having not seen you love. Though now you do not see Him, yet believing, you rejoice with joy inexpressible and full of glory, receiving the end of your faith--the salvation of your souls. --1 Peter 1:7-9
FOR MANY CENTURIES, the beautiful dove has symbolized two things: peace and the Holy Spirit. When John the Baptist immersed Jesus in the Jordan River, the Spirit of God descended “in bodily form like a dove upon Him, and a voice came from heaven which said, ‘You are My beloved Son; in You I am well pleased’” (Luke 3:22). It was the dove that announced to Noah that the waters of the Great Deluge had dried up. It’s not surprising, therefore, that I encountered doves on my next visit to heaven. It was the morning of April 3, and the Lord was with me from 6:00 A.M. to 8:30 A.M. After thirty minutes of shaking and groaning, I heard the Lord’s voice and He took my hand. Soon thereafter, I saw my transformed body walking on the beach with the Lord. We went to heaven together where we changed into different robes. We crossed over the golden bridge and walked on the right side of a road. It was a very wide road that had a canopy of leaves overhead from the mighty trees that grew on either side of the road. This was a different road from any we had walked on before. We walked for a long while and then took a road to the right. We walked for quite a while on this road as well. It encircled the base of a large, rocky mountain. To our left, there was a wide valley filled with green trees. The middle of the valley seemed to be filled with white gravel.
HEAVENLY DOVES
AS I LOOKED over the serene valley, I noticed movement in the region of the white gravel. The area was filled with birds. “Lord, what kind of birds are they?” I asked. “They are doves.” “Why are there so many doves here?” “They are very important to Me.” It was a magnificent place--so large and so beautiful. We climbed atop a solid rock wall upon which we could stand and watch the doves of heaven. We remained there for a long time, and I was profoundly moved by what I was seeing.
AN ENDLESS OCEAN
WE STEPPED DOWN from the wall and resumed our walk along the road. A short time later we reached a narrow road on the left onto which we turned and proceeded. Around a little curve in the road I noticed a massive ocean that was so vast that it appeared to have no end. As we neared the waterfront, I noticed a high rock wall that had steps leading down to the shoreline. We went up the wall and walked down the steps. The edge of the sea was filled with boats, large and small. It was a marina in heaven, and each boat was chained to a thick bar. All of their hulls were white. As I got closer, I noticed every boat had a beautifully furnished cabin and windows of stained glass. They resembled little churches on the water. “Would you like to ride in one of the boats, My daughter?” the Lord asked. “Oh, yes!” I exclaimed. He led me to one of the boats, and we climbed in. The interior of the cabin was immaculate, but the boat was large enough for only two people. There were two seats in the front and two steering wheels. I began to remember how our Lord had related to the sea, nature and fishing during His earthly ministry. Peter, James and John--three of His disciples--had been fishermen. He frequently preached on the shores of the Sea of Galilee, and He often used fish as object lessons. The story of Jesus calming the raging waves came to mind.
And suddenly a great tempest arose on the sea, so that the boat was covered with the waves. But He was asleep. Then His disciples came to Him and awoke Him, saying, “Lord, save us! We are perishing!” But He said to them, “Why are you fearful, O you of little faith?” Then He arose and rebuked the winds and the sea. And there was a great calm. And the men marveled, saying, “Who can this be, that even the winds and the sea obey Him?” --MATTHEW 8:24-27
Jesus loves the sea! He loves the world of nature He created. And He wants us to enjoy it as well. In fact, when the creation took place, human beings were to live in a paradise more wonderful than any we can possibly imagine--the Garden of Eden--a place of purity, innocence, perpetual springtime, fruitfulness, peace and joy. But because human beings sinned, we were banned from that earthly paradise. God, in His great love, however, made a way for us to regain paradise in heaven. He sent His Son to die for us: “For God so loved the world that He gave His only begotten Son, that whoever believes in Him should not perish but have everlasting life” (John 3:16). Paradise lost was regained through the death and resurrection of His Son. The more I study the book of Genesis, the more I realize that the Garden of Eden was a replica of heaven on earth. It is the kind of existence God wants His children to enjoy. There was no death, pain, suffering, darkness or disease in Eden, and there will certainly be none in our heavenly home! What a wonderland it must have been, and heaven’s beauty even surpasses this description of Eden:
The LORD God planted a garden eastward in Eden, and there He put the man whom He had formed. And out of the ground the LORD God made every tree grow that is pleasant to the sight and good for food. The tree of life was also in the midst of the garden, and the tree of the knowledge of good and evil. Now a river went out of Eden to water the garden.” --GENESIS 2:8-10
I began to realize it is not surprising that our heavenly home will be like the most fantastic places of earth--the oceans, forests, fields, trees, flowers, birds, animals, fruits and rivers are there for us to enjoy just as God had created them for us in Eden. Because of sin, we lost our right to enjoy such an earthly paradise, but through faith in Jesus Christ paradise will one day be restored to each of us! Won’t it be wonderful there? My mind then turned to the passage about Jesus when He walked on the water: Now when evening came, the boat was in the middle of the sea; and He was alone on the land. Then He saw them straining at rowing, for the wind was against them. And about the fourth watch of the night He came to them, walking on the sea, and would have passed them by.
But when they saw Him walking on the sea, they supposed it was a ghost, and cried out; for they all saw Him and were troubled. And immediately He talked with them and said to them, “Be of good cheer! It is I; do not be afraid.” Then He went up into the boat to them, and the wind ceased. And they were greatly amazed in themselves beyond measure, and marveled. --MARK 6:47-51
Yes, Jesus loved the sea, and He loved all of nature that He created. That’s why I’m sure heaven is the prototype of everything that is beautiful on earth. Our Lord and Master wants us to enjoy the kingdom! It was clear that Jesus wanted me to enjoy the experience of a heavenly boat ride. He pushed a button and the small craft began to move, slowly at first, and then we picked up speed. I loved the breeze against my face and the cooling mist that seemed so clean and refreshing. I began to laugh as we sped over the sea’s calm surface, and then I began to sing. I was so joyful. It was far different from any boat ride I’d ever taken on earth, during which I usually had gotten seasick or very nauseated. Not this time. I was enjoying every moment of our thrilling ride. On the way back the Lord let me steer. I did so with a special kind of excitement that caused me to laugh and sing. I could hear Jesus laughing with me. I knew He was watching me like a parent watches a child. Somehow, even though at times I was doubled over with laughter, I managed to steer us back to the docking area. We got out of the boat and the Lord tied it back to the bar. He then said, “Choo Nam, you see the kingdom has many of the things that you know on earth. When all My children come to My kingdom, I want them to enjoy the things I’ve prepared for them.” I smiled, because I understood a little bit of what He meant. “My children will be pleased,” the Lord continued, “and that is why I’ve told them to give up the worldly things in order to please Me. They can have anything they need while they are on earth if they are obedient to Me. I want their hearts to put Me first, and I want them to live pure lives because I love all of them and want to bring them here.”
A DIFFERENT WAY OF THINKING
GOD TELLS US in Isaiah, “‘My thoughts are not your thoughts, nor are your ways My ways,’ says the LORD. ‘For as the heavens are higher than the earth, so are My ways higher than your ways, and My thoughts than your thoughts’” (Isaiah 55:8-9). It’s so true, and the Lord gave me an inkling that April morning about what this passage means. After the visit to the heavenly sea, we changed our garments and went to the secluded pond where we often sit and talk. The Lord took His usual seat on the rock, and I began to sing and dance. Then, as He often does, He called me over to sit by Him. He began to share some important things with me. “Daughter, you are special to Me. When Larry Randolph prophesied over you and told you how special you are to Me, you did not believe him.” “I did not believe him, Lord, because I wondered how someone like myself could be so special to You. I marveled at the thought that You had taken notice of me. I believed You answered so many of my prayers, but I never thought You would remember me.” I began to cry as I went on. “When Pastor Larry prophesied and told me I was Your friend, I was shocked, and it was hard for me to believe, but now I listen to his tape every day. Each time I listen and hear him talking about me, my body begins to shake. The anointing comes, and then I am able to believe that You are going to use me in special ways. I always wait for You to talk to me each night.” The Lord listened intently, then responded: “I choose My children who are pure and obedient--those who put Me first in their lives. You are trying so very hard to please Me, but you must remember, I look only at the hearts of My children. You think like a human being. My thinking is different than yours. “I know it’s tiring for you right now, but you must be patient. “My daughter, I don’t want you to ever worry about anything. Just leave everything to Me. As I have told you, this is My book, and it will be done according to My will.” I loved these times of sweet communion with the Lord. I felt very much like Mary who willingly sat at the Lord’s footstool to learn His ways. Martha, on the other hand, was always trying hard to please Him, and she was filled with anxiety, jealousy and turmoil. I decided that I wanted to be like Mary from that moment on. Martha, so worried and fretful, had remarked: “Lord, do You not care that my sister has left me to serve alone? Therefore tell her to help me” (Luke 10:40). The Lord answered: “Martha, Martha, you are worried and troubled about many things. But one thing is needed, and Mary has chosen that good part, which will not be taken away from her” (Luke 10:41-42). Yes, I determined I would be like Mary instead of Martha. I have chosen the “good part” that will never be taken away from me, which is a personal relationship with Jesus Christ. Nothing in all the world is more important than that! I wanted to have my mind renewed so that I could see things from a heavenly instead of an earthly perspective. The Lord was helping me achieve this goal. I remembered what the apostle Paul had said in the book of Romans:
For those who live according to the things of the flesh set their minds on the things of the flesh, but those who live according to the Spirit, the things of the Spirit. For to be carnally minded is death, but to be spiritually minded is life and peace. Because the carnal mind is enmity against God; for it is not subject to the law of God, nor indeed can be. So then, those who are in the flesh cannot please God. --ROMANS 8:5-8
To be spiritually minded truly is life and peace, and every time I went to heaven with the Lord I knew what this meant. I determined to take the heavenly perspective back to earth with me, to continue building on my relationship with the Lord and to let Him renew my mind. Back on earth this morning, we sat on the beach for a while, and the Lord said, “You saw many things in heaven.” “Yes, Lord, and these visits are so enjoyable that they’re all I can think about. My mind stays in heaven, not on earth.” “I know, My daughter.” “I don’t really have my own life anymore, Lord. Since the first moment I spent in Your presence, I’ve changed. I’m sure if my husband were not a Christian, he would have left me long ago. “I lived for You before I saw Your presence and before I went to heaven, but now--even when I sleep--each time I wake up I sense Your presence with me. The only thing I can think of now is the book You want me to write. I am honored to do this for You, Lord. Thank You for entrusting me with such an important responsibility. I always want to do my best to make You happy.” “I know, My daughter. Be patient, and remember that I love you.” He stood up to leave, gave me a hug and vanished. The supernatural shaking in my body ceased.
HEAVEN, A PLACE OF WORSHIP
TWO MORNINGS LATER I had another life-changing visit from the Lord. It took place from 5:50 A.M. to 8 A.M. on April 5. After nearly 30 minutes of shaking, I heard the Lord’s voice. He came close to me and took me by the hand. I saw my transformed body walking with Him along the beach. We went to heaven, changed our clothing and walked over the golden bridge. Then we found our way to a white, shiny road that was adorned with beautiful flowers on both sides. I couldn’t comprehend the grand beauty of these gorgeous flowers. How can any flowers be this beautiful? I wondered. “Would you like a flower, My daughter?” the Lord inquired. “Yes, I have always loved flowers.” He picked an exquisitely shaped yellow one and placed it in my hand. I held onto it all the way through this visit to heaven. After an incredibly long journey, we arrived at a huge and beautiful mansion. The palatial structure was situated at the end of the road, in a region where the ground was white and shiny, and multitudes of flowers could be seen everywhere. We went to the back of the mansion, and I noticed flowers everywhere, as far as my eyes could see. It was indescribably wonderful. Then the Lord escorted me back to the front of the building. We walked through the doorway, into a spacious corridor. All of a sudden, the interior of the home became dark. The Lord disappeared. I felt very much alone and somewhat frightened. I began to cry. Just as quickly as it had darkened, the room was filled with the most radiant of lights I had ever seen. The room was so attractively furnished, arranged and decorated, and I was stunned by its brightness and beauty. Then I noticed steps leading to a platform where the Lord was sitting. He was dressed in pure gold. His golden crown glistened in the light, and His golden robe sparkled and shone. His face was very bright, and I couldn’t tell what He looked like. Then the room filled with people who wore white gowns and silver crowns. They bowed in the Lord’s presence, and I did the same. It seemed as if the room began to expand in order to accommodate the rising number of people of all colors and types. It was a moment of sacred worship and adoration before the Lord. Then they all disappeared as if they were in a video, and the Lord came toward me, wearing His regular white gown. “Daughter, look around,” He said. I did so, taking in everything I could see. It was the biggest room I’d ever been in--like a majestic ballroom that could contain countless thousands of people. The walls sparkled with jewels and gems, and the floor was made of immaculate white marble. “They worship Me. They worship Me continually,” the Lord said, explaining why the people were there. I immediately thought of a particular passage of Scripture that relates to worship:
All nations whom You have made shall come and worship before You, O Lord, and shall glorify your name. For You are great, and do wondrous things; you alone are God. --Psalms 86:9-10
“May I worship You with them when I come back to heaven to be with Your forever?” I asked. The Lord chuckled and said, “Of course, My daughter.” That’s all He said. I must admit I had felt rather intimidated by His appearance as He sat on the throne in all His radiant glory. And as we walked together, I felt a bit uncomfortable with Him because the vision of Him sitting on His throne left me with a scary feeling. When He is with me, He looks entirely different. When He’s with me He is like a normal man, except I can’t see His face with my eyes, but my mind can tell what He looks like. He is loving and sweet, gentle and so understanding. The uncomfortable feeling alternated with moments of joy as we changed and went to the pond. I began to sing and dance, as usual, and the Lord took His customary seat on the rock. Flashbacks of the Lord’s austere presence on the throne would steal my joy from me from time to time, but I endeavored to keep on dancing joyfully. “Come here, My daughter,” He called. I began to cry because I knew the visit would soon be over. “I don’t want to leave You, Lord.” “The place I showed you, Choo Nam, is where all My people will gather to worship Me. I will never let anyone on earth hurt you. If you were not such a special daughter, I could not bring you to heaven to show you all the things you have seen.” It was the reassuring message I needed to hear. The Lord’s love for me was dispelling all my fears. The discomfort I had felt earlier was gone, but I responded to the Lord’s uplifting message in my usual way. “I’m nothing, Lord.” He rebuked me. “Don’t ever say that again. You are very special to Me. You must believe this. I had to choose the right daughter for this important work, and you are the one I’ve chosen. I want you to have the best possible life on earth until the last day arrives. I will never leave you and I will always look after you. My daughter, I love you.” His tender words of love and comfort broke my heart. I wept profusely. It was a moment of cleansing, healing and catharsis, and I felt fully renewed. Heaven, I now know, is a place of great joy. It is designed to be enjoyed by us. That is its purpose. As the Westminster Catechism states, the chief end of man is “to glorify God and to enjoy him forever.” The closer I get to Jesus on this earth, the more I am able to enjoy my life. His love casts out all fear. Yes, heaven is so real.
Chapter 13 Angels in Heaven and Earth “I will be to Him a Father, and He shall be to Me a Son...Let all the angels of God worship Him.” And of the angels He says: “Who makes His angels spirits and His ministers a flame of fire.” --Hebrews 1:5-7
MY SUPERNAL EXPERIENCES with Jesus and the heavenly home that all true believers will one day enjoy opened my eyes to several spiritual truths. I began to realize that in the same way God had created us in His own image, He had created earth in the image of heaven. This was thrilling to me--to know that the most beautiful things we enjoy on earth will be a part of our eternal existence. God said, “Let Us make man in Our image, according to Our likeness; let them have dominion over the fish of the sea, over the birds of the air, and over the cattle, over all the earth and over every creeping thing that creeps on the earth” (Genesis 1:26). God gave us a beautiful earth, filled with fish, birds and cattle, and He wanted us to take dominion over it. In heaven, as I’ve already mentioned, there are fish, birds and cattle as well. His creation was marvelous in every respect--a place for us to enjoy forever. But Satan came, and, in his pride and envy, he tempted the first people to disobey God. He had lost his right to eternal glory in heaven because of his sin. In a similar vein, Adam and Eve were banned from their earthly paradise forever, and those who do not obey God in this life will be banned from the heavenly paradise. The Lord has emphasized this to me over and over again. I often wondered whom the Us refers to in Genesis 1:26, and now I understand it to mean the Holy Trinity. Many people, like me, are having intriguing experiences with angels in these last days. Angels are visiting us in the same way they did in ancient times. They are assuring people of the love of God, and they are warning them of things that are soon to come. As Jesus has told me so often, we truly are in the last days. Angels are His messengers. I have met one of them, and they are wonderful beings who radiate the love and glory of God. They enjoy worshiping the Father in heaven, and they obey Him by sharing His message with us on earth. I love the holy angels of God, and I believe they are with me even as I write. The Lord told me that I have personal angels surrounding me. We must never forget God’s angelic promise: “For He shall give His angels charge over you, to keep you in all your ways. They shall bear you up in their hands, lest you dash your foot against a stone” (Psalms 91:11).
ON TOP OF THE CLOUDS
THE MORNING OF April 8 brought forth another sweet encounter with the Lord. He visited with me from 6 A.M. to 9 A.M. My body shook for forty minutes before I heard His strong voice calling to me. He took my hand, and in my transformed body we went to the beach where we walked for a longer time than usual. Then we flew away to heaven. After changing, we walked across the golden bridge and onto the road we normally took. Eventually we turned to the left and began walking along a wide, white road that was lined with huge, leafy trees. The leaves were brightly colored orange. We walked for quite a distance and then turned onto a rocky road that twisted and turned through high rocks. It led to a high bridge that stretched between two mountains. After crossing this bridge, we climbed a mountain and looked at the scene before us. We were above the clouds. In fact, everywhere I looked there were clouds. The Lord said, “We are on top of the clouds.” Clouds have symbolic importance to the Lord. The Scripture tells us when He returns that “the dead in Christ will rise first. Then we who are alive and remain shall be caught up together with them in the clouds to meet the Lord in the air. And thus we shall always be with the Lord. Therefore comfort one another with these words” (1 Thessalonians 4:17-18). The Book of the Revelation also mentions clouds: “Behold, He is coming with clouds, and every eye will see Him, and they also who pierced Him” (Revelations 1:7; 14:14). It was another awe-inspiring moment in heaven. I was glad to know that there will be clouds in heaven because I’ve always found them to be so peaceful and lovely. I remember, as a little girl, wondering what it would be like to rise above the clouds, and now I knew. It was a spectacular vista that the Lord and I were enjoying. I wondered if we were going to take flight above the soft, billowing clouds that seemed to be so far from where we were standing. I don’t really know why He showed me the clouds. So many people ask me, “Why does the Lord show you?” I don’t usually know the answer to their questions. All I know is that He seems to take great pleasure in showing the heavenly kingdom to me. I suspect He wants us to know that heaven is a lot like earth, only so very much better. One thing is for sure--He is Almighty God, and I know that everything He shows me is very important to Him. The fact that He takes the time to personally escort me on tours of the kingdom is overwhelming to me, but those experiences and their related messages are more important to me than life itself. I literally burn with a spiritual passion to share my experiences with other mortals who need to know and understand, and by being a representative of humanity I can become a vessel through which the Father can pour out His great love for His people. We are such a fortunate generation. God is on the verge of moving in spectacular ways. The Lord will be returning very soon.
BELIEVE IN HEAVEN
SOMEONE HAS WRITTEN these very truthful words: “Heaven is a prepared place for a prepared people.” God has given me these experiences so that I will be prepared for the place He has already prepared for me, and so that I can help others get prepared. The central core of the message is this: “Rejoice and be exceeding glad, for great is your reward in heaven” (Matthew 5:12). The hope of heaven is the joy of earth. After our visit to the mountaintop, above the clouds of glory, the Lord took me back to the white building where we changed our clothing. Abraham was there to greet us, and he spoke with the Lord for several minutes while I stood silently and reflected on the view atop the clouds. Then the Lord went to change, and Abraham came over to me. He put his hand on my back and said, “The Lord has shown you a lot of the kingdom.” Abraham is a very tall man with a long beard. I nodded, and a beautiful angel came to escort me into the dressing room. Wearing my heavenly crown and robe, the Lord and I walked toward the pond. Immediately I began to sing. The Lord took His place on the rock, and I started to dance, but I could not continue. A heavy sadness came over me, and I began to cry. I sensed that the Lord would not be bringing me to the pond after this visit, and this caused me to grow very disconsolate. By this time, I was sobbing profusely. The Lord, who knows all our thoughts and feelings, called for me to come over next to Him. I didn’t want to obey, because I thought I knew what He was going to tell me--that we would not be returning to the pond. He called me again, and I reluctantly obeyed. I sat next to Him, held His arm and continued to weep. “Lord,” I said, “I feel You are not going to bring me here any more. Please don’t let me go, because I will miss You so much.” I squeezed His arm and held it tightly. “My precious daughter, you are right. I don’t want to bring you here until the last day. You know that will be soon, so be patient until that time. I have shown you enough of heaven to tell the world, but I still have things to show you on earth. “I will bring you to the beach and talk with you there, so I do not want you to cry any more. I will be with you everywhere. Anytime you want to see Me, I will be there and you will see Me. I will protect you from all the evil things on the earth. “Daughter, I know in your heart that you always want to help the needy. I will bless you abundantly so you will be able to help anyone you want to help.” “Thank you, Lord. I want that so much. I really want to help the needy.” “That is one of the reasons I love you so much, My daughter. When you return to the kingdom to be here forever, I will bring you to this pond. You will always be My special daughter. I do not want you to cry for Me any more. I want you to be happy every day while you are on the earth. “Thank you for being patient and doing all this work for Me. I want you and your husband to serve Me until the end of the days. This book you are writing for Me--just complete it, and you will be given guidance. Do not worry about anything. “I want My children to read this book, because so many of them have doubts about heaven. I want them to believe there is a heaven and to live pure and obedient lives so they can come into My kingdom. “This book is about all My words and the kingdom I have prepared for whoever wants to come. Everything is already prepared. “This book must be written by a Spirit-filled person. My daughter, if you were not under the special power of my Holy Spirit, I could never use you for this work. As I said before, I have been preparing you for a long time for this work, because I know I am coming soon, and I want My children to know that soon I will be coming for them. My precious daughter, I always want you to remember this pond.” His words stirred me deeply. My heart actually ached with love for my Lord. He stood up, and I knew it was time for us to leave. I continued to cry, but my heart was reassured with the knowledge I would be with the Lord forever and that He would always be with me on earth. At the dressing room, an angel of the Lord embraced me. It was so exhilarating to be in a place where so much love, compassion and understanding were always present. As I changed my clothing, I surmised that both Abraham and the angel knew this would be my last visit to heaven. As I walked out of the changing room, the angel hugged me once more. This angel had blond hair, flowing white robes and a face that was tender and warm. The angel smiled at me as I walked toward the Lord. We returned to earth where we sat on the seashore, and the Lord reminded me of the things He had said at the heavenly pond. He told me He would never leave me or forsake me. He said we would meet on the beach. He reminded me to write down everything He shows me and tells me. As He left, my sadness lifted. I believed His words. I claimed His promises. A passage of Scripture spoke volumes to my heart: “Go therefore and make disciples of all the nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit, teaching them to observe all things that I have commanded you; and lo, I am with you always, even to the end of the age” (Matthew 28:19-20). I understood what the disciples must have felt when they knew Jesus was leaving them and going to heaven. He reassured them with the same words He said to me. I knew He would always be with me and His angels would be watching over me as I endeavored to help fulfill the words of His Great Commission.
I will fear no evil; for You are with me; Your rod and Your staff, they comfort me. You prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies; You anoint my head with oil; my cup runs over. Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life; and I will dwell in the house of the Lord forever. --Psalms 23:4-6
I truly believe the words of Psalms 23.
PRECIOUS MEMORIES
SAD THOUGH I had been to know I would not return to heaven for now, I also knew I would not exchange one moment of my heavenly experiences for anything this earth has to offer. Truly, nothing compares with the glories of heaven. I spent most of the morning and afternoon of April 8 singing heavenly songs, meditating, and trying to pray more than usual because I didn’t know when I would be able to see the Lord again. I do this each morning, but on that morning I spent many hours in continual prayer, worship and meditation on the Word of God. Since I’ve been a Christian, prayer has been my life. In this way the Lord is in my life every minute. That particular morning was a very sad occasion for me because I was thinking about not being able to go to heaven with my Lord until the last day. Around 1 P.M. that afternoon I began to feel very sad again. I was remembering that I wouldn’t be with the Lord in heaven anymore. Being with the Lord was the happiest experience of my whole life. No words can truly explain the joy I felt while on those visits to heaven. Although I had felt exhausted during those months, I had been spiritually rejuvenated. I began to weep. The firm, strong voice of the Lord caught my attention. He said, “My daughter, I told you not to cry for Me any more.” I tried to stop the tears but couldn’t. “Lord, I’m sorry. I only wish you would take me to heaven with you.” I wanted Him to take me right then because I did not care about anything in this world any more. The thought of being in heaven with Jesus preoccupied all my thoughts. I openly expressed this to the Lord. “I don’t want to wait,” I said. His rebuke stung my heart: “My precious daughter, I’ve already told you that I need you to do My work on earth. Be patient.” The tone of His voice reflected anger. He went on: “I am coming sooner than everyone thinks. Just remember that I will never leave you. You need rest.” With that, He departed. My burden had been taken from me, even though I still wanted to be with the Lord in heaven. All fear of death had been removed from me because I knew that death would mean the beginning of eternal life in heaven. Sometimes I even wished to die, but now I recommitted myself to fulfilling the mission Jesus had given me. In the meantime, I had many precious memories to recall and relive. My mind remembers everything I saw in heaven--every road we walked along, the buildings we entered, the mountains we climbed, the angels, Abraham, the clouds, the rivers, the animals, the flowers, the trees, the birds, the rocks, the sea, the lake, the ponds, the people, and the wonderful peace and joy of it all. I will never again be like I was when I thought I wanted to enjoy this earth for as many years as possible--to live to a ripe old age and to travel here and there. I just want to be with the Lord more than anything. I know heaven is so real, and more importantly, I know Jesus is always there. I love Him more than my life, and I want everyone to believe in Him and to know there is a heaven already prepared for them. I agree with the psalmist, who wrote:
Because Your lovingkindness is better than life, my lips shall praise You. Thus I will bless you while I live; I will lift up my hands in Your name...When I remember You on my bed, I meditate on You in the night watches. Because You have been my help, therefore in the shadow of Your wings I will rejoice. My soul follows close behind You; Your right hand upholds me. --Psalms 63:3-8
I used to wonder about these things, and sometimes I struggled to believe, but now I know that I know that I know. There is a heaven, and it is our true home. The Lord had shown me the bodies of water in heaven so many times, and He had told me: “Anyone’s heart that is not as pure as the water and does not live by My Word will not enter My kingdom.” He repeated this time and time again, so I know it’s important. He also said: “Many will not come to the kingdom because they do not live by My Word. That is why I showed you the people wearing the sand-colored and gray-colored robes.” I knew that I didn’t know anything about writing books, and I knew very little about God’s Word, except for the importance of being obedient and fearing the Lord, but He had told me not to worry. I am finally learning how to surrender all my worries to Him, because I know He cares about me. I want to do my best to please the Lord at all times.
HEAVEN IS SO REAL
EIGHT DAYS AFTER my last visit to heaven, the Lord visited me for almost two hours. It was the morning of April 16. My body shook for twenty minutes, and I groaned and perspired in preparation for the Lord’s visit. He said, “My daughter, I must talk to you.” In customary fashion, He took my hand, and I then saw my transformed body walking with Him on the beach. We headed toward the rocks where we often sit. As we walked, I said: “I miss being with You, Lord. It’s now been eight days since You last took me to heaven.” He listened, and I knew He understood, but He did not speak for a while. We continued walking, and then we sat down on the rocks. The Lord said, “I’ve missed you also.” I began singing in the spirit. The songs come forth, and I have no control over them when I am with the Lord. This made me realize that the Lord loves song and dance. When I sing, He looks at my face and He looks happy. But this time He interrupted, “Daughter, I must talk to you.” I was still caught up in my singing, so He repeated, “I must talk to you.” “I’m sorry, Lord.” “I see that My book is doing well. Did you write down the name of the book that I gave you?” “Yes, Lord.” “I told you I will take care of everything.” Trying to come up with a fitting title for the book had been quite a chore. It just seemed as if the right title would not come forth. Then, during a prayer time of the preceding week, I asked the Lord for the title. As I was praying in the Spirit, the words heaven is so real kept emanating from my spirit over and over again. As a matter of fact, I couldn’t stop saying them. Great peace came to me when I realized this was the Lord’s title for His book--Heaven Is So Real!--and what could be a better title? This is precisely the message, the theme, the plot of this book. This is what Jesus wants people to know. “Whoever wants to come to My kingdom must believe and prepare for My coming,” the Lord continued. “It will be much sooner than they think. “Even faithful Christians doubt that there really is a kingdom of heaven. I want all of My doubting children to believe My kingdom is real. This will lead them to be more faithful, obedient and pure of heart so that they can enter My kingdom.”
NO EASY ROAD TO HEAVEN
THE LORD WANTS people to believe. The writer of Hebrews emphasized the importance of believing by saying we actually cannot please the Lord without it.
Without faith it is impossible to please Him, for he who come to God must believe that He is, and that He is a rewarder of those who diligently seek Him. --HEBREWS 11:6
Faith comes from hearing the Word of God, as Paul points out: “So then faith comes by hearing, and hearing by the word of God” (Romans 10:17). God wants us to believe His Word, and His Word points us to heaven. Jesus said, “If you abide in Me, and My words abide in you, you will ask what you desire, and it shall be done for you” (John 15:7). The Word of God imparts faith to our hearts so we can reach out in faith when we pray, and thereby receive answers to our prayers. This is what happened when I asked God for the title of His book. He heard my prayer and answered it. He is such a great and glorious God, and His heaven is so real! The Lord continued: “I will bring all who live with My Word into the kingdom, but the road to the kingdom is not an easy road. “Daughter, you keep asking why I chose you for this work. I will tell you again. You are the right daughter for this book. I know you will do everything I tell you to do, no matter how hard it is for you. “You will be very surprising to many people, because I chose a daughter instead of a son for this End-Time work. I realize many daughters are more pure-hearted than sons and are very pleasing to Me. Through you many daughters will be happy. I plan to give a special anointing to many daughters for End-Time work, and they must prepare to receive it. “I want you to write down exactly what I show you and tell you. Nothing more and nothing less. After this is done, you will receive special gifts to serve Me, and you will be a blessing to My people. I will also bless you more than you want.” “Lord, the only blessing I want is to make You happy. I do not need anything because You have given me everything I need or want on this earth. Now, if I can serve You greatly, that will make me happier than anything, and I want my whole family to serve You and be willing to give their lives for You.” “That is why I love you so much, daughter,” He said, and added: “Be sure to use Pastor Randolph’s prophetic words in this book. And remember, I will bring you back here again.” We stood up, walked down to the sand, and looked out at the Pacific Ocean. Before ascending, He said, “Write down what I tell you.” I held Him tightly as we embraced. I did not want Him to leave, but I knew it was necessary. I knew heaven is so real and that I had nothing to worry about. Throughout all eternity I would be with Him.
Chapter 14 Walking in the Word If you abide in Me, and My words abide in you, you will ask what you desire, and it shall be done for you. By this My Father is glorified, that you bear much fruit; so you will be My disciples. As the Father loved Me, I also have loved you; abide in My love. --John 15:7-9
WHILE KEEPING THE morning watch in prayer and meditation on April 18, the Lord gave me a very special anointing. This was the signal that He would be arriving soon, and, as I expected, after fifteen minutes or so I saw Him sitting by the window of my bedroom where He usually sits. I also saw my transformed body sitting next to Him. Spiritual songs from deep within my spirit responded to His presence. As I sang, I held the Master’s hand, and I began to look for the scars in His palms by trying to turn His hand over, but He would not permit me to do this. He seemed particularly happy on this occasion, and He reminded me, “I do not want to see you crying any more.” The Lord shared several important things with me that day. “My daughter, I never want you to worry about anything concerning this work,” He started. “I will take care of everything. Just be happy for Me, My daughter. I want you to put your picture on the cover of the book.” “Lord, You always surprise me. You always make me feel so happy.” “I know all your needs before you ask Me, but I never want My children to stop asking when they need something.” His words reminded me of something I had been reading in the Bible that very morning: “But when you pray, do not use vain repetitions as the heathen do. For they think that they will be heard for their many words. Therefore do not be like them. For your Father knows the things you have need of before you ask Him” (Matthew 6:7-8). In this passage of the Bible, through His great model prayer known as The Lord’s Prayer, Jesus goes on to teach us how to pray. It is an effective outline for all intercessory and personal prayer, and I use its principles whenever I go before the throne of grace in worship, intercession and supplication. I always claim God’s promises, such as Philippians 4:19: “And my God shall supply all your needs according to His riches in glory by Christ Jesus.” And on this particular spring morning the Master was reminding me of these precious truths. After delivering this message about prayer, the Lord stood up and my transformed body stood with Him. I watched the Lord touch the head of my transformed body. He departed, my transformed body disappeared, and the shaking of my natural body ceased.
A VISION OF MANY BOOKS
FOUR DAYS LATER, on April 22, I was with the Lord from 6:35 A.M. until 8:18 A.M. My body shook for twenty-five minutes, and then I heard the voice of the Lord. He took my hand, and I saw my transformed body walking on the beach with Him. The Lord said, “I love you, My daughter.” “I love You too, Lord.” We went up to the rocks where we usually sit as we look out over the mighty Pacific Ocean. As we sat down, I began to sing. Then I cried for joy. I held the Lord’s arm, and He gently patted my hand with His right hand. “My daughter, I must show you something.” The unusual voice that accompanies the supernatural visions the Lord gives to me came forth. Then I had a vision of a bookstore filled with books, and I wondered why there were so many books there. My eyes were drawn to one particular book. Its cover had a golden background with a castle at the top--a magnificent castle like the one I saw in heaven. The title was in the middle of the page--Heaven Is So Real--in bold, compelling letters. At the bottom of the cover there was a cloud, a soft billowing one like those I had seen from heaven’s mountain. I was taken aback by this vision of the book. Even more startling, I began to see a multitude of books flying through the air, and people on the ground were stretching and jumping in an effort to catch them. The vision then evaporated, and I began to ponder its importance. The Lord explained, “I told you I will take care of everything for you, daughter. Do not worry about anything any more.” He had shown me the finished product of the book that was occupying so much of my time and attention. It was beautiful, and its cover was so alluring. More important, He had shown me how desperate many people are to know the truth about heaven, and I realized emphatically that my book would be the means whereby they could really know. “Lord, I trust everything You tell me,” I said, “but I can’t help thinking about this.” “My daughter, the book has to be done in My time and by My will. I want you to relax completely about it. I know you do not really have your own life now because you are so preoccupied with the book, but some things cannot be hurried. They have to be accomplished in the right time. I want you to learn to be patient. I want all of My children to be happy on this earth.” “Lord, no matter how hard it is, I enjoy every minute of my time that I am spending on Your book. It’s not hard to write down Your wonderful words. The Holy Spirit is guiding me in every word I write; I could never do it on my own.” The hard part, I must admit, was in the waiting. Yet the Lord was faithful to every word He spoke to me. His Word is eternally true. As Isaiah testified: “So shall My word be that goes forth from My mouth; it shall not return to Me void, but it shall accomplish what I please, and it shall prosper in the thing for which I sent it” (Isaiah 55:11). And I knew that the same thing would hold true for the book He had asked me to write for Him. It will not return to Him void. It will prosper, and it will accomplish the purposes He has for it to accomplish. His presence, His voice, His touch, His words all were very reassuring to me and gave me great peace. I knew it was His book, not mine, and He would take care of every aspect of it, from the writing to the cover design to the printing, marketing and distribution. It will be a wonderful work that will arrest people with its depiction of the glories of heaven. The Lord stood up, walked down to the edge of the ocean where we started from, and said, “I love you, My precious daughter.” He didn’t hug me this time. Then He turned and walked away.
“EVERYTHING IS READY!”
ON THE MORNING of April 25 the Lord visited with me from 7:40 A.M. until 9:13 A.M. My body shook violently, and my groanings could be heard throughout the house. Then the Lord spoke. “I am your Lord, My precious daughter, and I must talk with you,” He said. When He took my hand, my natural body quivered and quaked as if an electric current had been unleashed upon my system. Then I saw my transformed body walking with the Lord on the beach. We took our usual places on the rocks, but this time I did not sing. Instead, I took particular notice of the clothing we were wearing. As I was observing this, the Lord said, “My daughter, I really enjoy being with you.” “Lord, I love You and I want to be with You all the time.” “You will be soon, My daughter. Have you looked at your feet?” I had never really noticed before, but I was wearing the same kind of sandals He was wearing--beige with a gold trim. I placed my right foot next to His and noticed how much smaller my feet were than His. We both began laughing. Next I felt the material of my robe. It was incredibly soft and shiny. The Lord reached over and touched my hair. “You have beautiful hair,” He said. The hair of my transformed body was like that of a young girl. It was long, straight, soft and shiny. It was like the hair I had when I was a teenager. The Lord then looked at my face and said, “You are beautiful, My daughter.” Those were words I really needed to hear, because I had never had a very good self-image about either my appearance or my abilities, but to hear my Master from heaven telling me about my beauty made all the difference in the world. I began to cry with joy. “Do not be shy, My daughter,” the Lord counseled me. Then He lifted my face. I could see the features of my transformed face and the sheen of my dark hair. For the first time in my life, I felt I truly was beautiful, and then I remembered the words of the psalmist:
I will praise You, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made; marvelous are Your works, and that my soul knows very well. My frame was not hidden from You, when I was made in secret, and skillfully wrought in the lowest parts of the earth. Your eyes saw my substance, being yet unformed. And in your book they all were written, the days fashioned for me, when as yet there were none of them. --Psalms 139:14-16
I could see that the Lord had created me. He formed me to be a very special person, and this was what He was trying to show me this day. He was admiring His creation, and He wanted me to do the same. Usually the Lord does not talk much when He visits me, except when He wants to tell me important things about my life and ministry. He frequently reiterates these important messages. For example, He has told me over and over again that He will be coming soon. He often has repeated the fact that His kingdom is already prepared for His children. He has told me many times to stop worrying, to be patient and to trust Him. He has constantly told me that the book is important because it will convince many doubters that heaven is so real. The more I have thought about it, the more I have realized that this is one of the most important things anyone can know--the knowledge of heaven makes life so much more beautiful and wonderful. To know heaven is our home makes the journey through this life so much more meaningful. That’s exactly how I feel. Now that I’ve been to heaven so many times, I can’t wait to get there permanently. Someone once said, “On earth you can gain only one thing permanently--heaven.” It’s such a privilege, therefore, for me to have a part in this book. I know God will use it to usher many souls into His kingdom. That’s what He wants, and that’s what I want as well. On this particular morning, the 25th of April, the Lord seemed more light-hearted than usual and very talkative. His words and actions made me laugh a great deal, and He was laughing too. It was such a joyous time. In many ways He seemed almost like a regular person instead of almighty God. He was certainly enjoying the current moment with me. After a while, however, the tone of our meeting grew more serious. “Daughter, I thank you for making yourself available to do this work,” He said. “The most important thing to Me is that you do the book exactly the way I tell you to do it. Don’t ever change that. I have been guiding you step by step, as I told you I would. I knew you would be obedient in this work, and that is why I chose you. “I say to you again that everything in My kingdom is ready for My children. I want all doubting and unbelieving Christians to realize there is a real heaven. I want to bring all of My children to the kingdom, but whoever does not live by My Word will not enter. This book will help the faithless people. “I know you are praying for many people, but I cannot answer all of your prayers because some who know My Word are still selfish and they are living for the world. Whoever lives dishonestly and does not respect My words are people I will not bless, even if they are your loved ones. “Daughter, I want you to think about those you have been praying for, those you know, and I want you to think of which prayers I’ve answered. Some will never change their hearts to become pure, and they will never be blessed. “Many Christians are poor and have many problems in their lives because their hearts are not right with Me and they don’t tithe. Any Christian who doesn’t tithe will not be blessed because they love money more than My Word. Those who love money more than My Word will never see My kingdom. You already know where they will be at the end. “If anyone comes to Me with an open heart and tries to live with My words, they will be blessed right away, and they will have peace and joy continually. Whoever loves Me and wants Me to bless them must have their heart right toward Me and put Me first in everything in their lives and have a kind heart toward others. “Sweetheart, I want you to be happy every day of your life on earth. You are My special daughter forever. There will be no end to My blessings for you while you are on this earth. “I will protect you from everything that I don’t like on this earth, and I will never leave your side. You will always have unexpected surprises from Me.” “Lord, You have surprised me with so many things. I never know what You are going to do next.” I could sense that He was smiling at my response. Then He said, “It is time to go back.” We got up and began to walk toward the water. We embraced, and He said, “I love you, My daughter.” “I love You, Lord.”
OMNIPRESENT AND OMNIPOTENT
THE NEXT VISIT with the Lord took place on April 29. I was with Him from 6:05 A.M. until almost 8 A.M. that morning. My body shook for half an hour, after which the Lord said, “My daughter, Choo Nam, I must talk to you and show you some things.” When He took my hand I could see my transformed body walking with Him on the beach. As soon as we sat down on the rocks, I thanked the Lord for taking me to this special place in order to be with Him. He gently reminded me, “I love you, daughter.” “I love you, Lord.” After we had talked, I sang for Him. The supernatural voice that accompanies the visions He imparts to me came forth, and I saw the cover of Heaven Is So Real again. Next, the book began flying through the air, and people in a barren part of the earth were jumping and stretching to get it. Then a book flew toward us, and the Lord grabbed it. He gave it to me. At first, I held onto it tightly with both of my hands, and I clutched it against my breast with deep appreciation. Tears of joy flowed freely down my cheeks. The supernatural vision then showed me a church sanctuary where the Lord was standing behind the pulpit. He was lifting the book up with both of His hands. People were running toward Him. It was so wonderful, so thrilling, to see so many people coming to the Lord--and then I understood that He was using the book to draw people to Himself. The vision opened to many different vistas at once. I could see the Lord in many different churches around the world, with people of every nationality present in the various churches. In each house of worship the people were running toward Him. My omnipresent and omnipotent Lord was able to be present everywhere--in several different churches at the same time. I was reminded of a verse from the book of Revelation: “And I heard, as it were, the voice of a great multitude, as the sound of many waters and as the sound of mighty thunderings, saying, ‘Alleluia! For the Lord God Omnipotent reigns!’” (Revelations 19:6). This was from the vision of heaven that the apostle John had received on the island of Patmos where he was in exile. This was what the people in my vision were doing--they were running toward the Lord to worship Him because they knew He was almighty God! This was in response to the truth John revealed in the Revelation: “Then a voice came from the throne, saying, ‘Praise our God, all you His servants and those who fear Him, both small and great!’” (Revelations 19:5). As the saints did this, they were filled with joy and shouted: “‘Let us be glad and rejoice and give Him glory, for the marriage of the Lamb has come, and His wife has made herself ready.’ And to her it was granted to be arrayed in fine linen, clean and bright, for the fine linen is the righteous acts of the saints. Then he said to me, ‘Write: Blessed are those who are called to the marriage supper of the Lamb!’” (Revelations 19:7-9). Like John, I had been called to write, and my mission was the same as his--to let people know that the marriage supper of the Lamb has already been prepared, and blessed are those who are invited to be there on the last day. The invitation is extended to all, but only those who willingly choose to walk in the Word of God will be able to attend. It’s so important for us to live according to the Word of God, to pray according to His principles and to believe all His promises. We are the bride of Christ, and He wants us to be holy, clean and righteous before Him. What a wedding day that will be! The vision ended and the Lord asked, “My daughter, did you see everything?” “Yes, Lord. How can You be everywhere?” “I can be anywhere in the twinkling of an eye.” “Lord, I know some Christians are very faithful, but they still have their old habits. Why can’t You change them?” “Whoever wants to be changed will receive My help. If they ask Me for whatever they want I will give it to them if I know they are sincere and if they persevere. I will answer their prayers. “Many of My children, however, do not pray sincerely or long enough. If they do not have patience, they cannot receive a blessing. “My daughter, you are so persistent. You never give up. You keep on asking Me for what you want in prayer. I hear your every prayer.” “Yes, Lord, I do not give up until I receive because I know You have all my answers. One of my Bible teachers told me to never give up praying for something you want. That’s why I am very persistent in my prayers, Lord. “I know You have the answers I need, especially in my personal prayers. You have answered more of my prayers than I ever expected. Thank You, Lord.” “I love persistent children. People’s persistence proves their faithfulness, and by this I know that they believe I hold the answers to all their prayers. I also want My children to know that even though I answer prayers, I may also remove answers if they are not faithful.” “What might a person do that would cause You to remove a blessing from his life?” “Daughter, when some of My children need something, they pray night and day and spend time with Me. They strive to be obedient and to live according to My words. Then, as soon as I bless them, they change, moving far from Me and going back to their old ways. They continue doing the things I do not like. That is why I sometimes remove My blessing.” His visit, His presence, His vision departed, and I was left with a much clearer understanding of God’s ways. “As for God His way is perfect; the word of the LORD is proven; He is a shield to all who trust in Him” (Psalms 18:30).
Chapter 15 Blessings Beyond the Blue Every valley shall be filled And every mountain and hill brought low; the crooked places shall be made straight And the rough ways smooth; and all flesh shall see the salvation of God. --Luke 3:5-6
THE MORNING OF May 2 was an especially meaningful time of prayer. The anointing of the Lord was more heavy upon me than usual, and the shaking of my body was more furious than ever as I concluded my time of prayer. It seemed as if the shaking would never stop. The groanings from my spirit were like convulsions deep within. My body temperature rose, and I was perspiring heavily. It was so overwhelming, in fact, that I failed to look at the clock. After a while, the Lord entered the bedroom window and sat in His usual place. His voice quieted the physical manifestations in my body. “My precious daughter, I came to tell you and show you some things. You have many things to do for Me before I come for My people. You must be patient with Me. Many of My people are not ready for Me to come for them. My kingdom is completely ready for anyone who wants to enter. “Every believer must stand before Me at the end, and many of those who don’t live by My words will be very disappointed. “I want all of My children to come to My kingdom. Whoever reads this book, I want them to believe and realize how they have to live in the world in order to enter the kingdom. “Daughter, I will bless you until you can’t contain it. I will bless you more than you ever expected or asked for.” “Lord, the only thing I want to be blessed with is being able to serve You and make You happy.” “Daughter, you have already made Me so happy. That is why I chose you for this work. You and your husband will serve Me greatly until the last day. Tell your husband I am pleased with the work he is doing on this book. “After everything is done, I want you to build My church.” This statement called forth the voice that always accompanies the supernatural visions the Lord gives me, and I began to see the same church He had shown me before. After I saw the interior and exterior of the church building, I felt completely relaxed. I could not see the Lord or feel His presence. On this particular morning, and the mornings afterward, the Lord’s visits with me were entirely unpredictable, and they did not take the usual form. During this period, I never knew what to expect from His visits because each one was so different. One thing became very clear to me--He would never appear if I had made early plans for a given day. On days when I did not have plans, however, He most often would come to take me to the beach on earth. On other days, my wonderful Lord simply would sit by the window and talk to me when I was praying. He is such a thoughtful and loving Lord. My love for Him cannot be fully expressed. It still amazes me to realize how much He knows about me. He knows my thoughts, feelings, plans and motives. My continual prayer is that of Psalms 139:23-24: “Search me, O God, and know my heart; Try me, and know my anxieties; and see if there is any wicked way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting.”
LIKE A LITTLE CHILD
MY FAITH CONTINUED to increase as I grew in my relationship with the Lord. I truly believe that I will never have another doubt. I’ve been with the Lord, and He has taken me to heaven so many times. I believe His Word, and I know that heaven is so real.
“Let the little children come to Me, and do not forbid them,” Jesus said, “for of such is the kingdom of God. Assuredly, I say to you, whoever does not receive the kingdom of God as a little child will by no means enter it” --Mark 10:14-15
The Lord wants us to become like little children so we can enjoy the blessings of the kingdom of heaven forever. The qualities of childhood are possible for adults who surrender their lives completely and unreservedly to Jesus Christ. Innocence, trust, purity of heart, fascination, a sense of wonder, belief, joy, happiness, present-moment living--all these are some of the magical qualities of childhood that God wants us to exhibit to get to heaven. Notice that the Master says “whoever does not receive the kingdom of God as a little child will by no means enter it” (Mark 10:15). Obviously He wants us to believe in heaven--to receive it as a little child. This is the key that unlocks heaven’s door for all of us who wish to enter. However, because so many things come against us while we grow up, we quickly lose our innocence, faith, trust and purity. These are restored to us when we come, fully surrendered, to the Lord. It is a beautiful transformation: “Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation; old things have passed away; behold, all things have become new” (2 Corinthians 5:17). God is our Father; we are His children. He wants us to be children who trust, love and obey their Father. Jesus said, “Little children, I shall be with you a little while longer. You will seek Me...By this all will know that you are My disciples, if you have love for one another” (John 13:33, 35). The Lord wants all of His children to be with Him in heaven forever. In order to get there--to live atop heaven’s highest mountain--we need to be like little children. The true transformation of Christianity is that adults become like little children--walking in wonder, trust, obedience and love. Jesus made it very clear to me that this is what He wants each of us to be like--to have the faith of a little child. He wants us to walk according to His Word, to totally believe Him and to look forward to the reality of heaven. Those who do not, He pointed out to me several times, will be on the edges of heaven but never truly able to enter the joy of the Lord.
A BEAUTIFUL HOUSE AND CAR
FROM 6:17 A.M. to 8:14 A.M. on the morning of May 6, I was with the Lord. My body shook for twenty minutes, and I was perspiring under a very heavy anointing. The groanings from deep within my spirit poured forth. Then I sensed the Lord’s presence in the room. “Come, My daughter Choo Nam, I must take you to the beach,” He said. I noticed His hand moving toward me. The next things I saw was my transformed body walking with the Lord along the beach. It was such a happy time. I was smiling at the Lord like a little child who is enjoying a special moment with a parent. My whole body felt happy, and I could tell the Lord was happy too. “Lord, I’ve missed You. I love You so.” “I love you, daughter, and that is why I’ve brought you here.” We went to the usual rock that served as our resting place on these trips to the beach. I always sit on His left side and either hold His hand or put my hand under His arm. I sang with joy for a time before the Lord told me: “My daughter, I am going to show you something. I want you to be happy.” The vision-voice came forth from my spirit. It seemed to take control of me for a long time. The vision came forth, and I saw a huge river that was unusually wide. Many houses were situated close to the river, but they were placed high above the water, on magnificent rocks. My attention was drawn to a particular house--it was a white-frame, two-story home with a quaint white fence all around it. There was no grass in front of the house, and, instead of a grass lawn, the grounds were landscaped in the form of a spectacular rock garden. Flowers and trees proliferated around the house. The entrance to the yard was a huge gate. A bright, shiny red car was parked on the left side of the garage. It was a luxurious automobile. The front of the house had a couple of steps leading to beautiful double doors. The vision continued. Inside the house there was a cream-colored carpet, and the well-built furniture was decorated in an array of colors. The living room was very large, and a master bedroom suite was downstairs, nearby. The bedroom was huge--it had a king-size bed and cherry-colored dressers, tables and wardrobes. The bedspread was gold, and the draperies matched. I was able to look into the kitchen where I saw cabinets made of cherry wood. In the center of the kitchen there was a barbecue pit, and modern appliances were everywhere. Just outside of the kitchen there was a terraced back yard with trees lining an attractive fence. It truly was a mansion, and I thought: This is so beautiful, but why is the Lord showing it to me? We already have a nice car and house that the Lord has provided for us. I’m not really interested in material things any more. The vision evaporated and the Lord spoke to me: “Did you like what you saw?” “It was beautiful, Lord.” “It will be yours.” I cried. It was all so wonderful. It was grace that exceeded all my expectations--a grace that I did not deserve. I kept asking myself, “Why me?” People often ask that question when bad things happen to them, but I was asking it because of the blessings--already the Lord had showered a multitude of blessings on me. Truly the blessings were more than I could contain. It was as if the prophecy of Malachi had come true in my life--in the here-and-now, on this earth:
“Bring all the tithes into the storehouse, that there may be food in My house, and prove Me now in this,” says the LORD of hosts, “If I will not open for you the windows of heaven and pour out for you such blessing that there will not be room enough to receive it.” --MALACHI 3:10
For a long time Roger and I had been tithing from our incomes and giving offerings to various ministries. When I could, I would help every ministry, but I had never expected such results from our obedience. God was so wonderful. Truly, I was unable to contain the blessings He poured upon us. He had opened the windows of heaven, and He was preparing to do even more for us! “But, Lord,” I said, “I don’t need anything. I have everything I want already.” “Don’t cry, My daughter,” He counseled. It always seemed to bother the Lord when I cried. I’m sure that’s because He wants me to be happy. Nonetheless, I cried even harder because the vision had actually confused me. I wondered if it meant that He would not be coming back for His children as soon as I had expected. If He is coming for us soon, why would He want to give me such a big house and expensive car? As usual, He knew my thoughts. “Daughter, are you worried that I will not come soon--because I am giving you this house and car?” His question stirred my deepest emotions, and I began to cry harder. The Lord lifted my face and wiped my tears. Then, in very reassuring tones, He said, “My precious daughter, I am coming as I said I would, but until then I want you to have the best.” “Lord, You already gave me a beautiful house and car. I do not need or want anything else. The only thing I want is to please You and serve others until You return for us. You said if we love you we must be good to others. That is why I want to lead as many people to You as I can, because I know that is what You want.” “I do not want you to worry about anything anymore. You want only to please Me, and you are not expecting anything else. That is why I want to give you more than you now have. Say no more; be happy.” His words comforted me and filled me with joy and hope. He would be returning soon, and I had nothing to worry about. My mind was drawn to a verse I had heard in church; the speaker had told us that the true believers would be the head, not the tail (see Deut. 28:44). This is the blessing that comes to all those who serve the Lord “with joy and gladness of heart, for the abundance of all things” (see Deut. 28:47). The Lord said, “We must go back now,” and then He stood up. We walked back to the place where we usually begin and end our visits to the beach. While we were walking, the Lord did something He’d never done before. He picked me up and spun me around in the same way a father will sometimes do with his small child. I began to laugh hysterically, and I noticed that my natural body almost lifted off the bed. The power of the Lord was very strong upon me. It was a precious moment of indescribable joy and one that allowed me to fully realize the meaning of the passage that says:
That the genuineness of your faith, being much more precious than gold that perishes, though it is tested by fire, may be found to praise, honor, and glory at the revelation of Jesus Christ, whom having not seen you love. Though now you do not see Him, yet believing, you rejoice with joy inexpressible and full of glory, receiving the end of your faith--the salvation of your souls. --1 PETER 1:7-9
Joy inexpressible and full of glory! My faith had been strengthened by the personal revelation of Jesus Christ. I loved Him so much. I had even seen Him! It was glorious, and I continue to enjoy an unspeakable joy that is full of glory.
FLYING LIKE BIRDS
A MIRACULOUS EVENT will be happening in the very near future. Though the Bible never uses the word rapture, the apostle Paul describes a cataclysmic event in which the Lord Jesus will return from heaven with His saints to “rapture” His church. It will be the ultimate experience for all those who know Jesus.
For this we say to you by the word of the Lord, that we who are alive and remain until the coming of the Lord will by no means precede those who are asleep. For the Lord Himself will descend from heaven with a shout, with voice of an archangel, and with the trumpet of God. And the dead in Christ will rise first. Then we who are alive and remain shall be caught up together with them in the clouds to meet the Lord in the air. And thus we shall always be with the Lord. Therefore comfort one another with these words. --1 THESSALONIANS 4:15-18
But those who don’t know the Lord will appear before the judgment seat of Christ where they will hear the sentence that their lack of faith deserves--“for the wages of sin is death” (Romans 6:23). Those who know Jesus, however, will receive the free gift of God’s grace--“the gift of God is eternal life in Christ Jesus our Lord” (Romans 6:23). The second coming of Jesus Christ was the subject of my next visit with the Lord, which occurred on May 13. I was with Him from 6:20 A.M. until 9 A.M. I awoke at 6:20, shaking intensely. My body shook for more than half an hour, and then the hot anointing and groaning began. The Lord came toward me and said: “My daughter, I am your Lord. I must talk with you and show you something.” This time, as I walked with the Lord in my transformed body, I smiled at Him and said, “I love You, Lord.” I could tell He was smiling at me, although I could not see His face clearly. “I love you, My precious daughter,” He answered. We sat on the rocks and the Lord said: “I see that your husband is taking time off from work in order to help with the book. You both are doing very good work. “My daughter, I must tell you this. I know I told you to write down exactly what I show you and tell you. I notice you are not explaining enough about what I show you.” “Lord, I’m so sorry. I will go over it again.” The Lord had told me repeatedly to write down everything after His visits, no matter how tired I was. At times, my mind felt numb, but the minute I picked up pen and paper, the words flowed rapidly through my mind. I learned that it was the work of the Holy Spirit guiding me. That’s exactly what He was doing with me, and I now knew He would find another writer who would help me to bring forth the teaching that He wanted to accompany my experiences. Some, I know, will find it hard to understand how anyone can have the experiences I’ve been privileged to enjoy. They will say, “It’s not in the Bible!” The truth is, however, that most of the things God has shown me are recorded in the Bible. I believe He simply wants this book to reemphasize the biblical truths about heaven to Christians everywhere. He has chosen me as an instrument, and this book as a vehicle, to reiterate the truths of the Scriptures to His church. I also believe our Lord wants His people to know there are many wonderful things about heaven that are not recorded in the Bible. He continued: “You’d better remember how precious you are to Me, My daughter. Only in this way can I use you. I am coming for My children much sooner than most people expect.” “Will all the Christians live in houses like the one that has my name on the door, when they get to heaven?” “I will bring many of My children to the kingdom, but not every one will live in mansions like the one that had your name on the door. These mansions are for very special children.” “Will all the Christians go with You, when You come for us?” “I am going to show you something,” the Lord answered instantly. “I want you to remember all that you see. I want the whole world to know what is going to happen soon. I know many Christians do not believe what My prophets are telling them. That is why I am showing you this.” My vision-voice came forth as it usually does in preparation for a supernatural vision from the Lord. It seems to be the means He uses to prepare me for the things He wants to show me. This time the voice lasted a long time. After more than half an hour of singing in the Spirit with my vision-voice, I began to see the things God wanted to show me. The first part of the vision was more like an impression rather than a visual experience. It seemed as if the whole world were excited. Earth’s environment was noisy and busy. Then I began to see what all the activity was about. The air was filled with white, moving objects. As the vision clarified, I saw people wearing white robes flying throughout the air. People were popping out of the earth everywhere and flying up into the air. The sky was literally filled with flying people, like birds in migration. It was so unusual it was shocking. By this time I was singing loudly, and my hands were moving around like fists swinging at a punching bag. I had never felt this excited in my whole life. My body was jumping up and down because of the anointing and the shaking. I felt as if I were flying with the white-robed people I saw. The excited movement of my body and my vision-voice were so loud that I’m sure the whole house could hear me. I had heard the rapture described before, but I had never imagined what an amazing spectacle it would be. I wondered what those who do not know Jesus would think when they observed such a scene. I was shocked and excited, but I’m sure they will be terrified. This was the biggest surprise the Lord had ever shown me. It was the most awe-inspiring thing I’d ever seen--human beings flying through the air like birds. They soared upward with rocket-like speed. Some seemed to be soaring like kites in the wind on a clear, beautiful day. I saw my one-year-old granddaughter. She was wearing a white robe, and her hair had grown to shoulder length. She looked pretty grown up. At first I saw her at her house in normal clothing. Then suddenly she was wearing a white robe and flying through the air. I was dumbfounded by the vision. It certainly seemed to confirm that the Lord would be returning in the very near future. Then I saw my daughter’s ten-month-old daughter. She does not have much hair right now, but in the vision her hair was down to her shoulders, and, like my other granddaughter, she was flying through the air. I began to cry and scream. The noise in the bedroom must have been astounding. It was a good thing that Roger was at work, for surely he would have been quite alarmed and concerned by such noise. At first, I wasn’t really sure if my crying stemmed from joy or sadness. My youngest granddaughter looked like she was also pretty grown up. I felt the Lord had a good reason for showing the children to me. First, I’m sure He wanted me to know that they will be with me in heaven to enjoy all eternity with Jesus. Second, I know He wanted me to see how old they will be when He returns. It is sooner than most people think. The joyous vision changed. I saw the people who did not ascend with the others. Places on earth had been disrupted, some had been turned upside down. It was noisy everywhere, and people were in an obvious state of panic. Terror was written on every face. People were running wildly. Total pandemonium reigned. It seemed as if each person was searching for someone or something that they could not find. I began to cry like a little child as I watched people running down the streets. They were screaming and yelling. Some were trying to throw what few belongings they possessed into vehicles such as cars and boats. Thousands of boats were on the ocean. People were trying to escape. Many men in uniforms were storming houses, ransacking them and taking the belongings they found. I noticed one family of four or five lying on the floor of a house. Most of them were on their stomach, and a pool of blood covered the floor. Hundreds of people were fleeing on foot to the mountains. As they did, the uniformed guards fired guns at them, and several fell. Those nearest the guards were beaten with clubs and sticks. I saw people destroying churches. A man threw a rock at a beautiful stained-glass window that showed Jesus with His lambs. The window shattered and glass flew in all directions. I screamed more loudly. One woman, who appeared to be looking for a lost child, was running through her house, shouting in panic and fear. She kept calling her child’s name as she jumped up and down in total frustration and desperation. I wanted to help her, but there was nothing I could do. I cried and cried for her and for all the others. Then I saw a family I know personally. The father ran into his house, and rushed from room to room, calling the names of his wife and children. He found one member of his family, and they sat huddled in a corner of a room. They were holding tightly to each other and crying. I know who they are, but I am not at liberty to mention their names in this book. The vision eventually vanished, and I continued to cry. The Lord wiped my tears. “Daughter,” He said, “I must show you these things so you can tell the whole world what is going to happen. I love all My children, and I want them to realize I am coming for them soon, but I cannot bring those who don’t live according to My Word, because they are not ready for Me. “Many Christians will be surprised when the End Times come. What you just saw is only a small part of what will happen very soon. It will be much worse than you can possibly imagine--for those who do not know Me. That is why I want all My children to be able to come with Me to My kingdom. “Daughter, I have shown you part of the kingdom and the things that are going to happen in this world because the time is short. I will return soon. That is why this book is so very important to Me. It is for My children. You have seen what is going to happen on earth in the very near future. “I am ready for My children, but so many of My children do not really believe and they are living for worldly things. I love all of them and want to bring all of them to heaven with Me, but I cannot take those who are not ready for Me. Those who come to My kingdom must be pure-hearted and obedient. My heart went out to all those who don’t know the Lord, and I began to pray for their salvation. I named each one I knew, and I asked God to intervene in their lives, to get their attention. Then I prayed for Christians who are not living for Jesus. I asked Him to draw them back to Him. I determined I would finish the book as quickly as I could, and I promised the Lord I would go where He would send me. I felt truly honored to be an End-Times handmaiden working in the Lord’s harvest fields. I remembered a passage from the Bible that shows exactly what Jesus is feeling right now: But when He saw the multitudes, He was moved with compassion for them, because they were weary and scattered, like sheep having no shepherd. Then He said to His disciples, “The harvest truly is plentiful, but the laborers are few. Therefore pray the Lord of the harvest to send out laborers into His harvest.” --Matthew 9:36-38 Heaven is so real! Paul describes it this way: “Eye has not seen, nor ear heard, nor has it entered into the heart of man the things which God has prepared for those who love Him” (1 Corinthians 2:9). The way we show our love for God is through obedience--as Jesus said: “If you love Me, keep My commandments” (John 14:15).
Chapter 16 God’s Great Love There is no fear in love; but perfect love casts out fear, because fear involves torment. But he who fears has not been made perfect in love. We love Him because He first loved us. --1 John 4:18-19
MY EXPERIENCES IN heaven, with the Lord, help me to understand what he meant. God is love, and heaven is a place where love is the environment--it is the light and life of heaven. The events preceding the Rapture of the church, however, will be terrifying and horrifying. Though the Lord had erased the memory of seeing my mother in hell, I still had a vague recollection of her being there and I felt great pain in my heart over my parents’ eternal destiny. After I became a Christian I prayed for my parents over and over again. I pled with the Lord, asking Him not to consign them to hell, and I reminded Him of how good they were. I cried and prayed so many times for them that I felt somewhat assured that the Lord would not put them in the pit. I even begged God to let me please Him for the rest of my life to make up for what my parents didn’t do right. My mother had been a good person indeed. She seemed very pure and innocent in many respects. I always thought that my mother never knew what being bad was. She had been ill for most of her life, and she had died when she was forty. Her last concern when she was dying was for me. When my mother died, I felt that I wanted to die too. She was all the love I knew at that time. I actually hated my father because I knew he was with other women during my mother’s illness. Though it was customary for some men in the Orient to seek other women when their wives were ill, I remained deeply disturbed by my father’s behavior. I knew that he was betraying his wife, and I felt her pain. I carried hatred for my father for a long time, but when I became a Christian, I was able to forgive him, because I realized that he did not know the Lord. It is only the grace of God, I had to remind myself, that keeps any of us from sin. I had often wondered whether I would see my mother after my own death. This thought recurred many times after she died when I was only fourteen.
HEAVEN IS LOVE
IT WAS THE Lord who bridged the gap between the love I should have received from my parents and the love I actually received. To me, He is pure love. He said to me, “My daughter, you have been living for Me so long now, and you have been especially devoted to Me for the last few months. It all should be done soon. You need rest.” “I will not be happy with anything on this earth, Lord, if You are not in it.” After my mother died, I felt as if no one truly loved me. Certainly nothing ever felt like my mother’s love had felt to me. I needed to be loved, but for the longest time it seemed as if there was no love in my world. After I was married and had children, I greatly enjoyed the family love we shared, but as wonderful as their love is to me, the love I had felt from my mother was still missing. It was as if there was an empty space within me that needed to be filled. That vacuum was filled by the tremendous love of God. After I gave my heart to Jesus, I felt very secure in His love and it was easy for me to trust His love. I knew the truth of the hymn that says, “No one ever cared for me like Jesus--no one ever cared for me like Him.” When I would fall and hurt myself as a little girl, my mother would pick me up, love me and take care of my hurt. In the same way, when I would stumble as a young Christian, Jesus would pick me up and bring healing to all my hurts. This is what our Lord has been anointed to do. The Bible describes the anointing that Jesus received: “The Spirit of the LORD is upon Me, because He has anointed Me to preach the gospel to the poor. He has sent Me to heal the brokenhearted, to preach deliverance to the captives and recovery of sight to the blind, to set at liberty those who are oppressed, to preach the acceptable year of the LORD” (Luke 4:18-19). Jesus had brought good news to me. He had healed my broken heart. He had set me free from my fears, my negative self-image, my insecurities. He had opened the eyes of my spirit, and He had lifted my oppression. Now He was proclaiming “the acceptable year of the Lord” to me. That “acceptable year” is right around the corner. Even when people try to put me down or gossip about me, I feel secure in the love of Jesus. He is my safe place, my high tower, my Rock of refuge. When someone hurts me, intentionally or unintentionally, I am able to go to the Lord in prayer, and His peace and joy return to me. I know that God loves me. He will never let me down or leave me. I love to reflect on the promises of God’s Word. One of my favorites is found in the Psalms: “Blessed be the Lord, who daily loadeth us with benefits, even the God of our salvation” (Psalms 68:19, KJV). His love for us is everlasting: “Yes, I have loved you with an everlasting love; therefore with lovingkindness I have drawn you” (Jeremiah 31:3). I know that nothing will ever separate me from the marvelous love of my God and King. “For I am persuaded that neither death nor life, nor angels nor principalities nor powers, nor things present, nor things to come, nor height nor depth, nor any other created thing, shall be able to separate us from the love of God which is in Christ Jesus our Lord” (Romans 8:38-39). His perfect peace is always with me. “You will keep him in perfect peace, whose mind is stayed on You, because he trusts in You” (Isaiah 26:3). His Word is a treasure chest filled with good gifts that He desires to share with all His children, and these good gifts will be our daily portion in heaven. Notice what Paul wrote to the Ephesians:
Blessed be the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, who has blessed us with every spiritual blessing in the heavenly places in Christ; just as He chose us in Him before the foundation of the world, that we should be holy and without blame before Him in love, having predestined us to adoption as sons by Jesus Christ to Himself, according the good pleasure of His will, to the praise of the glory of His grace, by which He made us accepted in the Beloved. --EPHESIANS 1:3-6
God has already blessed us with every spiritual blessing in Christ. Even in this life we can enjoy the “heavenly places in Christ.” In fact, Paul adds in the next chapter of his letter to the Ephesians:
But God, who is rich in mercy, because of His great love with which He loved us, even when we were dead in trespasses, made us alive together with Christ (by grace you have been saved), and raised us up together, and made us sit together in the heavenly places in Christ Jesus. --EPHESIANS 2:4-6
We have already been raised up, spiritually, to sit together in the heavenly places in Christ Jesus. When the body of Christ truly understands this reality, everything will change. The world says, “Seeing is believing,” but the Christian says, “Believing is seeing.” The true reality is spiritual, not temporal. Most people think the only reality is found in what we can see, hear, taste, smell and feel. But the ultimate reality is the spiritual world. There are four kinds of love--agape (the love of God), storge (the love of family), phileo (brotherly love) and eros (sexual love). Unfortunately, the world puts eros first and few ever find agape love. The world system works in reverse priority to God’s system. God created us in His own image--He is a Trinity (Father, Son and Holy Spirit)--and we are tripartite as well (body, soul and spirit). The Greek word pneuma is the word that has been translated “spirit,” and this is the real part of us--it is the breath of life, the heart of hearts, the place where the Spirit of God seeks to reside. The Greek word for soul is psuche, and this part of us is the place where our intellect, emotions and will reside. It is here that many of our problems surface. Last, the word soma is the physical part of us--the organs and systems of our bodies. Here again, the world has the order reversed. Whereas God wants us to put our spirits first, too many people give attention to their bodies first, their feelings second, and if there is any room left over, then their spirits. We forget that we are more than human beings on a spiritual journey; the fact is, we’re spiritual beings on a human journey. God has already blessed us with every spiritual, heavenly blessing in Christ Jesus, because He loves us with an everlasting love. When I began to realize these truths, I felt I wanted to give up every worldly thing in order to simply please the Lord for the rest of my earthly life. Since that time I have been putting Him first in my life, far above any other person or thing. This is what He expects from each of us. His Word promises, “But seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all these things shall be added to you” (Matthew 6:33). God, in His great mercy, has enabled me to find His kingdom, and He has taken care of all my needs. As a result I am able to obey His Word which says, “Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about its own things” (Matthew 6:34). Worry, which used to be my constant companion, has been replaced by security, peace, trust and love. I don’t care what people say about me, and I do not fear what might happen to me. My greatest joy is found in serving and pleasing the Lord. Just loving Him brings me incredible joy. He loves me whether I do right or wrong. He has told me so many times, “I want you to be happy, My daughter.” On this particular day--May 13, 1996--I knew great happiness and peace even as I watched the scenarios related to the End Times unfolding before my spiritual eyes in the form of a supernatural vision. The Lord reminded me, “There are many special blessings coming to you.” I couldn’t imagine how there could be more blessings than I had already experienced. I knew the truth of the Word that declares, “For the kingdom of God is not food and drink, but righteousness and peace and joy in the Holy Spirit” (Romans 14:17). What more could anyone want? These blessings--and so many more--were mine already, in the here-and-now, and I knew they would continue forever in heaven. The Lord said, “I know you are tired, My daughter. I will take you back now.” This morning was very intriguing to me. I had spent two and a half hours with the Lord, and then I prayed for another hour and a half. I felt as if I was already in heaven where God’s love is the air we breathe.
SHUT IN WITH GOD
SINCE FEBRUARY 19, 1996, I have spent every waking moment with the Lord. My social life has been limited to worship services and basic grocery shopping for my family. The rest of the time is God’s. The only folks who visit with us are our family members. The Lord has made it clear to me that this is how He wants me to spend my time--focusing on Him, His Word and His will. He is preparing me for the next phase of ministry. Though it may seem that I’m a “shut-in,” the reality is that my “prayer closet” has become an open door to the kingdom of heaven. Instead of being shut in, I’ve been launched into higher dimensions of glory than I’ve ever known. Often, when people call and plan to visit, they will call back and say that something has come up that prevents them from visiting. I believe this happens because God wants me to spend this time alone with Him so He can continue His work of preparation in my life. From the outset, He told me not to go anywhere for a while, especially out of town, until the book was completed. Really, even if I wanted to go somewhere, I couldn’t because the anointing is so heavy. The anointing of the Lord keeps me on my knees in His presence. Before Easter 1995 I had felt His anointing, but since that time, my body began shaking every time the anointing of the Lord’s presence came upon me. Since January 1996 that anointing has been so strong that I cannot even control the shaking and other physical manifestations. For example, as of this writing, I cannot even enter the room where Roger works on the computer because the Holy Spirit’s presence is so strong there. Roger is implementing the corrections into the manuscript for the book. He took a week’s vacation for this purpose, and I am so grateful for his help. When I go near the computer room my body begins to jump for joy. This is a physical response that comes from the Lord, and I have no control over it. It is not something I am “working up” on my own. In fact, it is more of a spiritual response than an emotional one. Almighty God, my Father and my Lord, has spent so much of His time with me, and it is a privilege to give a little time back to Him. I enjoy every moment of my work for Him. It is not hard for me to do work for Him because I love Him more than I love my life. I believe the Psalmist’s words: “Your lovingkindness is better than life” (Psalms 63:3).
CONCERN IS WORRY
THROUGHOUT MY LIFE, as I’ve mentioned several times, I’ve been prone to worry. I guess you could call me a worrywart. It probably stems from the turmoil I experienced during my childhood. Whatever the reason, however, I often struggled with worry and fear and insecurity. I knew this was not God’s will for me. In fact, the Lord had told me several times, “Do not worry, My daughter.” I began to look at my worrying somewhat differently, calling it concern instead of worry. Somehow, saying that I was “concerned” rather than “worried” made it seem OK. On May 20, 1996, I was with the Lord from 5:40 A.M. until 7:50 A.M. My body shook from 5:40 A.M. until 6:10 A.M., and my spiritual groaning lasted for thirty minutes. The Lord walked toward me and said, “My precious daughter, Choo Nam, I must talk to you.” His hand reached toward me, and immediately I saw my transformed body walking with Him on the beach. He seemed very happy, and I was really enjoying His presence. As we strolled along the strand I said, “Lord I love You and miss You.” He responded without hesitation, “I love you, My daughter.” The joy of the moment caused me to pick up the pace of my walking, and I actually got ahead of the Lord. He began laughing, and I did the same. We took our usual seats. “I see you are working continually on My book.” “Yes, Lord. Roger is working hard on it. My English is not that good, so he is correcting a lot of spelling errors and grammatical problems. “I know you both are working hard.” I knew the Lord knew all my thoughts, feelings and actions. I knew I could not hide anything from Him, and I did not want to conceal anything. He knew that I had been concerned about the book. I wondered how it would turn out, who would write it and who would publish it. The Lord knew all this, so He said, “Choo Nam, you are worrying about this book again even though I told you not to worry.” “I’m not worried, just concerned,” I replied as I dropped my head in shame. The Lord lifted my face in His hands and said, “Daughter, you are embarrassed.” I acknowledged the truth of His observation with a smile that turned into a chuckle. He began laughing in response, then said, “Daughter, concern is worry. From now on, I do not want you to worry at all. This is My book; I will take care of it. Haven’t I done so until now?” “Oh, yes, Lord. I am so sorry. Please forgive me for not obeying You.” He responded with joy. He seemed to take great pleasure in my honesty and humility. I knew He had forgiven me. Great peace came to my soul, and I felt free from worry that I had pretended to deny by saying it was just concern. This day I learned another important lesson from the Lord--He wants us to be totally honest with Him, others and ourselves. We cannot use the world’s methods to justify, rationalize or cover our sins. I knew that worry was a sin, and I had tried to pretend it was not there. Even though it may seem to be a small thing to some, I knew it was very important to my Master. He did not want me to worry. In fact, He invites each of us: “Come to Me, all you who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from Me, for I am gentle and lowly in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For My yoke is easy and My burden is light” (Matthew 11:28-30). The human way is to worry. God’s way is to trust. “God resists the proud, But gives grace to the humble. Therefore humble yourselves under the mighty hand of God, that He may exalt you in due time, casting all your care upon Him, for He cares for you” (1 Peter 5:5-7). Why should we choose to worry when our Father promises us so much? The Lord seemed to want to erase my worry by showing me some of what He has prepared for me again. He said, “I want you to see this again.” The vision-voice came forth and, after a long time, the vision of the house He had shown me the last time appeared. The Lord did not show me the upstairs of the dwelling the last time He showed it to me, but this time I saw the four guest rooms and one prayer room on the second floor. I took particular notice of a picture that hung on one wall of the prayer room--it was a picture of the Lord himself. Though I couldn’t see Him clearly, I sensed there was something particularly appealing and attractive about His portrait. The vision took me into every room of the house--the home He promised to give to me and my family. The Lord asked, “Do you like the house?” “Yes, thank You, Lord. But I don’t really need another house. All I want to do is to please You, do Your work, and see my family becoming more faithful to You. “All the things You showed me are so beautiful, but they are worldly things, and they don’t interest me any more. Roger feels the same, Lord.” “My daughter, let Me decide what you want and need. I love the hearts of both of you. We must go now.” After the first nine times we visited heaven, the Lord told me He was not going to wake me up anymore, and He fulfilled His promise. I woke up a few minutes before or after six--after I had a full night’s sleep. It was a time of pure peace and joy. There was no worry or concern. The Lord embraced me, then said, “I will talk to you later.” I felt more completely relaxed than ever.
HEAVEN OR HELL?
SINCE THAT VISIT in May I’ve been praying for the future readers of this book. I’m praying for you, dear reader. I want God to prepare your heart to receive the truth of all I’ve experienced and written about. Heaven is so real, and I want you to believe in it more than you’ve ever dreamed possible. This is what God wants for you, because He loves you with an everlasting love. The Lord took me to heaven so many different times so I could tell you how wonderful it will be for each of us who love Him and live for Him as completely as possible. He and I both want you to be able to go to the beautiful mansion He has prepared for you. The things the Lord has shown me and told me are true. They are thoroughly biblical. They are a reality that far exceeds our earthly experience. I know they are more real than things of this earth, and I want you to know this reality. Before the Lord blessed me with so many revelations of heavenly truth, I sometimes had doubts that there was a heaven, even though I loved Him and believed Him with all my heart. I did not fully understand about heaven, and I know a lot of Christians are like this. Now I know it’s all true. It’s not even a matter of faith for me now; it’s actual knowledge--the kind of knowledge that no one can take away. It is pure knowledge. I used to be very afraid of dying and concerned about many things in my life, after I die; but after what I experienced in heaven, nothing in this world or my life matters to me anymore. I know where I am going to be after this life is over. I will be with Jesus forever in His paradise. There are no words to explain how perfect heaven is. All I felt there was pure joy. After the trips to heaven I begged the Lord to take me home, but His disappointed voice said: “I didn’t show you the kingdom and the pit of hell to bring you home now. I showed you all those things so you will help save the lost and let everyone know what it takes to enter the kingdom.” After He said this, I was embarrassed for being so selfish, and I asked Him for forgiveness. Now the only thing I can think about is serving Him to the last day. No matter what it takes, I will please Him. As one of His special daughters, why would He hurt me by using my mother in this book if it wasn’t important for His people to understand that just being good will not save them without knowing who Jesus is? Someone said to me, “If He loves you, how can He use your mother to hurt you that way?” I was shocked by this ungodly question. Though it was a very painful memory for me to see my mother and others in the pit, I had to realize that nothing can bring them out of there, so I accept the fact that they will be there for eternity simply because they did not know the Lord Jesus. My Lord has a very special reason for using my mother in this book. If, through her, even one other mother can be saved, I would be very honored. No matter what difficult times may come into my life, I can never be angry with the Lord. If any of my loved ones die for my Lord, I will be very pleased for them. Then I will know for sure that their eternal life will be spent in heaven with Lord Jesus. As Jesus said:
For God so loved the world that He gave His only begotten Son, that whoever believes in Him should not perish but have everlasting life. --JOHN 3:16
I believe His second coming is so near that He is letting His people know how much He loves them and that He wants His church to be ready for Him. God loves you, and this is the greatest truth in the entire world. That is why He has already prepared His kingdom for you. Even though He loves His children, He is angry toward those who do not believe. That is why He has commissioned me to write this book. He has told me many times that the salvation of souls is exceedingly important to Him. He is disturbed to think that some of His children would choose hell to be their eternal place rather than the beautiful glory He has prepared for them. After all, heaven is a choice. The Lord does not want anyone to end up in the pit of hell. If you believe, you will have eternal life with the Lord:
“The word is near you, even in your mouth and in your heart” (that is, the word of faith which we preach): that if you confess with your mouth the Lord Jesus and believe in your heart that God has raised Him from the dead, you will be saved. For with the heart one believes unto righteousness, and with the mouth confession is made to salvation. For the Scripture says, “Whoever believes on Him will not be put to shame” --ROMANS 10: 8-11
If you do not believe, you will find yourself in the place of torment where my parents and countless others have to endure all eternity. It is a personal choice. It is God’s way versus Satan’s way. It is the kingdom of heaven versus the kingdom of darkness. It is life versus death. It is heaven versus hell. Which will win in your life? The choice is yours. Every word in this book is true. The words of Jesus have been transcribed exactly as He said them to me. The Lord chose me for this work, and I have endeavored to be faithful to every word and experience. With God’s help, and the assistance of Roger and the writer, I have tried to give accurate descriptions of each experience I’ve enjoyed. Ultimately, however, I realize that the choice is yours. All I can do is tell you. Now that you’ve read these pages, you are accountable for the truth that has been imparted. What will you do with the truth I’ve shared? Before I went to heaven, I wanted to save souls for the kingdom, but now I realize I must do all I can to rescue the perishing. I can never erase the memory of those naked bodies moving around in the fire and screaming in their misery. It will soon be over for each of us, and then it will be too late to make our decisions for Jesus and heaven. I have a burning desire to see the lost saved, to keep them from going to the terrible place the Lord revealed to me. My deepest desire is for everyone to find his name on a mansion door in heaven. The Book of Revelation describes two types of people. I have seen the same things the apostle John saw. John describes the eternal destiny of the first, unfortunate group as follows: “And the smoke of their torment ascends forever and ever; and they have no rest day or night” (Revelations 14:11). The second group, on the other hand, is described this way: “Here is the patience of the saints; here are those who keep the commandments of God and the faith of Jesus...Blessed are the dead who die in the Lord from now on...that they may rest from their labors, and their works follow them” (Revelations 14:12-13). Is your name written in the Lamb’s Book of Life?
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