# 牧牛堂主 一代記(목우당주 일대기)(68) The biography of Mokwoodangju

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통신 행정병과 함께

前方(전방)의 軍生活 時節(군생활 시절)의 週末(주말)이나 休日(휴일)
특히 名節(명절)때에는 非常時(비상시)가 되어 外出 外泊(외출 외박)은 커녕
夜間 鐵柵線 巡察(야간 철책선 순찰)을 다니었는데
後方勤務(후방근무)인 通信學校(통신학교)로 轉入(전입)해서 부터는
週末(주말)마다의 休日(휴일)은 自由(자유)의 몸이 되어 좋았다.

헌데 休日(휴일)의 주말인데도 여러번 고단한 山行(산행)에 同參(동참)한
후학 도반들이 고마운 마음으로 人類 救濟衆生(인류 구제중생)의
天下事(천하사)를 熟考(숙고)하고 보니
苦行(고행)은 道通(도통)의 지름길이요,
積善(적선)은 萬福(만복)의 根源(근원)이며
山行(산행)은 神仙(신선)과 疏通(소통)하는 門(문)이라는 것이다.

正心(정심)의 眞實(진실)함으로 努力(노력)을 다 기울인다면
天地神明(천지신명)은 결코 外面(외면)하지 않을 것인즉
必然(필연)코 吉慶(길경)의 結末(결말)을 맞게 될 것이라 믿어 疑心(의심)치 않는다.

배곯아 苦生(고생)했던 일꾼에게는
錢神(전신)과 穀神(곡신)이 應(응)하여 富子(부자) 되게 할 것이고
權勢者(권세자)의 越權(월권)에 의해 抑鬱(억울)에게 當(당)했던
經驗(경험)의 일꾼에게는 將軍神(장군신)이 응하여 神權(신권)을 갖게 될 것이며
求道(구도)의 正心 修行(정심 수행)에 邁進(매진)했던
일꾼에게는 聖人君子(성인군자)가 應(응)하여 大人(대인)이 될 것이다.

내 나이 三十才(삼십재)에 通信學校 學生聯隊 行政課長職
(통신학교 학생연대 행정과장직)에 補職(보직)된 후에 연대장과 늘 마주하며 근무하게 되다.

三十(삼십)은 先天(선천)끝 자락인 重火離卦(중화리괘)의 나이이다.
선천시대를 마무리 짓고 후천시대로 접어든다는 뜻을 가진다.

통신학교 學生聯隊(학생연대)는
첫째 領官昇級 對象者(소령진급 대상자)인
大尉(대위)들을 敎育(교육)하는 OAC 과정의 학생들을 관리한다.

둘째 사관생도들을 대상으로 한 병과교육 학생들을 관리 한다.

셋째 부사관 학생들을 관리한다.
즉 통신병과 간부교육을 관리하는 연대이다.
OAC중대는 소령이 맡고 兵科敎育(병과교육:OBC교육) 중대와
副士官(부사관) 중대는 대위가 맡는다.

行政課長(행정과장)이란
人事 軍需(인사 군수)를 맡아 업무를 감당한다.
매월 10일이면 교육받는 學生幹部(학생간부)들의 奉給(봉급)을 支給(지급)한다.
간부급들의 봉급이니 액수가 많았기로 돈을 따블빽에 담아 짊어지고
行政室(행정실)로 가져와서 OAC 대위들을 비롯 사관생도들과
하사관 후보생들의 봉급을 나누어 주는데
經理(경리)의 計算(계산)이 안맞으면
다시 確認(확인)하며 맞추는데 애를 먹었다.
돈이야 남을리 없으니 자칫하면 모자라게 되어
다시 확인해서 모자란 金額(금액)의 錯誤(착오)를 찾아내야 했던 것이다.

또 衣食住(의식주)의 軍需業務(군수업무)를 管理(관리)해야 하니
亦是 神經(역시 신경)쓸 일이 많았다.
허나 無理(무리)없이 行政(행정)을 處理 執行(처리 집행)하였는데
聯隊長(연대장)은 公式會議(공식회의) 때마다
행정과장인 나에게 指摘(지적)아닌 叱責(질책)을 많이하며 화를 내었다.

나는 純眞(순진)해서 몰랐는데
하루는 나보다 먼저 行政課長職(행정과장직)을 맡아보았던 先輩將校(선배장교)가
나를 불러 이르기를 엄지와 검지의 손가락을 둥근 모양으로 지어 보이면서 '
이것 때문에 그래' 라는게 아닌가!
그 뒤에 곧 바로 同期生(동기생)도 나에게 똑같은 표현을 해주었다.
늘상 空然(공연)히 지적받는 내가 안쓰러웠던 모양이었다.

행정업무를 집행함에 있어서는 인사 군수에서 行政 支援金(행정 지원금)이 나오는데
이것을 거짓으로 執行(집행)하고 그 돈을 上納(상납)하라는 뜻이었다는 것이다.
가짜로 領收證(영수증)을 日誌(일지)에 附着(부착)하며 거짓 根據(근거)를 남기고
實際(실제)로는 上納(상납)하는 非理(비리)가 盛行(성행)했다는 뜻이다.

군 인사비리를 알고 군 진급을 포기한 나는
통신학교가 더 심하게 비리로 물들어 있음에
통신병과 장교로서 甚(심)히 부끄러운 마음과 失望感(실망감)을 크게 가진바 있다.
至今(지금)은 그렇지 않으리라 믿는다.

나는 固知識(고지식)해서 公務(공무)를 그렇게 非正常(비정상)으로 집행하는 짓은
國家(국가)에 不忠(불충)하는 짓이고
背反(배반)하는 行爲(행위)로 罪(죄)짓는 일로 보았기 때문에
部隊運營 資金(부대운영 자금)은 正常執行(정상집행)하면서
나의 奉給(봉급)을 일부 떼어 연대장에게 돈 봉투를 가져다 주었었다.
그 뒤에는 아무 지적도 하지 않았다.
그리고 연대장이 내 봉급을 떼어 주는 사실을 알고 나서는 미안했던지
나를 OAC로 入校(입교)케 했다.

소령진급을 포기한 나에게 오에이시(OAC) 敎育(교육)은 아무 의미가 없었지만
군 발령이니 응하는 수밖에 없었다.
通信學校 出身(통신학교 출신)이라고 敎官(교관)들이
내 점수를 최상으로 올려주는 것이 아닌가!
고마운 마음이 들기는 하지만 이 역시 非理(비리)이었다.

허니 陸士出身(육사출신)들을 비롯 餘他 將校(여타 장교)틀이
나를 몹시 경계하며 시기하는 모습을 보게 되다. 하여 내가 선언 했다.

나는 進級(진급)을 抛棄(포기)하였고 學課成績(학과성적)에 연연하지 않을 것이라고 ᆢ

OAC교육은 진급을 유리하게 成績(성적)을 받기 위해서는
전쟁과 같은 分圍氣(분위기)로 몹씨 殺伐(살벌)한 상태이었다.
나는 兜率山神(도솔산신)에게

비위를 상하게 할 짓은 별로 많지 않은 將校(장교)로 여겨졌을 것이다.

어려서 부터 肉食(육식)을 거의 하지 않았기에
世界的(세계적)으로 數 百(수 백)가지의 닭요리가 유행하지만
치킨요리의 닭다리 한 쪽 뜯어 입에 대보지 않았을 만큼 殺生(살생)도 하지 않았고
남 잘 못되게 못된 짓이나 나쁜 마음조차 갖지 않으려 노력했었기 때문이다.

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영어(English)

During my military service in the front lines, weekends and holidays, especially holidays, were emergency times, so I couldn't go out or stay out overnight, and I had to patrol the barbed wire at night. But after transferring to the correspondence school in the rear, I was able to enjoy the holidays every weekend as freedom. However, even though it was a holiday weekend, I was grateful to my fellow students who had participated in many arduous mountain hikes. As I pondered the worldly affairs of saving humanity with a grateful heart, I realized that asceticism is a shortcut to the Way, accumulating good deeds is the source of all blessings, and mountain hiking is the gateway to communication with immortals. If you put forth your best effort with sincerity and sincerity, the gods of heaven and earth will never turn away from you, so I have no doubt that you will inevitably reach an auspicious conclusion. For workers who have suffered through hardships, the God of Money and the God of Grain will respond and make them rich. For experienced workers who have been oppressed by the abuse of power by those in power, the God of the General will respond and give them divine authority. For workers who have devoted themselves to practicing the Way with a righteous mind, the Lord of the Saints will respond and make them great men. After being appointed to the position of administrative director of the Correspondence School Student Union at the age of 30, I worked face to face with the regiment commander all the time. The age of 30 is the age of the Junghwari Gwae, which is the last part of the pre-heavenly period. It means ending the pre-heavenly period and entering the post-heavenly period. The Correspondence School Student Union first manages students in the OAC course that educates captains, who are candidates for promotion to major. Second, it manages students in the branch education targeting military cadets. Third, it manages the non-commissioned officer students. That is, it is a regiment that manages the signal corps and officer training. The OAC company is the major, and the OBC training company and the non-commissioned officer company are the captains. The administrative chief is in charge of the personnel military and is in charge of the work. On the 10th of every month, the salary of the student officers who receive training is paid. Since it was the salary of officers, the amount was large, so they carried the money in a backpack and brought it to the administrative office to distribute the salaries of the OAC captains, cadets, and non-commissioned officer candidates. If the accounting calculations did not match, they had to check again and adjust them, which was difficult. Since there was no way money would be left over, if not careful, there would be a shortage, so they had to check again and find the mistake in the amount. In addition, they had to manage the military affairs of food, clothing, and shelter, so there was a lot to worry about. However, I carried out the administration without any reason, and the regimental commander got angry at me, the administrative chief, and reprimanded me instead of criticizing me at every official meeting. I was naive and didn’t know, but one day, a senior officer who had served as the administrative chief before me called me over and made a circle with his thumb and index finger, saying, “Isn’t that why you’re like this?” Soon after, a classmate of mine made the same expression‎ to me. It seemed that he felt bad for me, who was always being criticized for no reason. In executing administrative duties, the personnel and military personnel receive administrative support funds, which are falsely executed and the money is to be returned. This means that corruption was rampant, such as attaching receipts to diaries and leaving false evidence while actually returning the money. After learning about the military personnel corruption, I gave up on military promotion, and as a signal corps officer, I felt deeply ashamed and disappointed that the communications school was even more tainted with corruption. I believe that it will not be like that anymore. I was old-fashioned and thought that carrying out public duties in such an abnormal manner was disloyal to the country and a sinful act of betrayal, so I carried out the unit's operating funds normally and took some of my salary and gave an envelope of money to the regimental commander. I didn't say anything after that. And when the regimental commander found out that I was taking my salary, he felt bad and sent me to OAC. Since I had given up on being promoted to major, OAC education meant nothing to me, but since it was a military assignment, I had no choice but to comply. Isn't it true that the instructors gave me the highest grades because I graduated from a correspondence school? I was grateful, but this was also corruption. Honey, I saw that the graduates of the Korea Military Academy and other officers were very wary and jealous of me. So I declared. I gave up on promotion and I won't be obsessed with academic performance. OAC education was very fierce and had a war-like atmosphere in which everyone was divided and killed in order to get favorable grades for promotion. I would have been considered an officer who would not have done much to offend the Dosolsan God. Since I hardly ever ate meat since I was young, I never killed anyone, to the point where I never even tried to tear off a single chicken leg from a chicken dish, even though there are hundreds of chicken dishes popular around the world. I tried not to do anything bad or have bad thoughts that would harm others.

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前方（前方）の軍生活時節（軍生活時代）の週末（週末）や休日（休日）、特に名節（名節）のときは、非常時（非常時）となり、外出外泊（外出外泊）はどころか夜間鐵柵線巡回通信學校（通信学校）で轉入（転入）してからは週末（週末）ごとの休日（休日）は自由（自由）の体になって良かった。 ただ、休日の週末なのに何度も頑固な山行に同参した後学桃たちが感謝して人類救濟衆生の天下事を天考事を熟考してみると、苦行積善（赤善）は萬福（万福）の根源（根源）であり、山行（山行）は神仙（新鮮）と疏通（疎通）する門（門）というものである。 正心の真実さで努力を尽くすなら、天地神明は決して外面しないだろう。 腹に苦しんだ労働者には、錢神（全身）と穀神（穀神）が應（うん）して富子（金持ち）になるようにし、權勢者（権勢者）の越權（月権）によって抑鬱（抑鬱に）將軍神（将軍神）が応じて神權（神権）を持つことになり、求道の正心修行（精神遂行）に邁進（売り切れ）した労働者には聖人君子（成人軍者）が應（うん）して大人（大人）になるだろう。 私の年齢、三十才（三十才）に通信學校學生聯隊行政課長職（通信学校学生連帯行政課長職）に補職（保職）された後、連帯長といつも向き合って勤務することになる。 三十は先天の先裾である重火離卦の年齢である。先天時代を仕上げて後天時代に入るという意味を持つ。 通信学校學生聯隊（学生連帯）は、最初に領官昇級対象者（少佐進級対象者）である大尉（大尉）を敎育（教育）するOACコースの学生を管理する。 第二に士官生徒を対象とした病科教育学生を管理する。 第三副士官学生を管理する。つまり通信兵と幹部教育を管理する連帯だ。 OAC中隊は少佐が当たり、兵科敎育（兵科教育：OBC教育）中隊と副士官（副士官）中隊は大尉が合う。 行政課長（行政課長）とは、人事軍需（人事郡守）を引き受けて業務を負担する。毎月10日であれば、教育を受ける學生幹部（学生幹部）の奉給（給料）を支給（支給）する。幹部級の給料だから金額が多かったので、お金をかき混ぜて背負って行政室（行政室）に持ってきて、ＯＡＣ大尉をはじめ、士官生徒たちと下士官候補生たちの給料を分けてくれるのに、經理（経理）の計算（計算）がある。食べた。お金なんて余りはないので、ややもすれば足りなくなって再確認して足りない金額（金額）の錯誤（錯誤）を見つけなければならなかったのだ。 また衣食住の軍需業務を管理（管理）しなければならないので、亦是神經（やはり気にする）が多かった。しかし、無理（無理）なく行政（行政）を處理執行（処理執行）したが、聯隊長（連帯長）は、公式会議（公式会議）のたびに行政課長である私に指摘（知的）ではない叱責（責め）を多くして怒った。 私は純眞（スンジン）して知りませんでしたが、一日は私より先に行政課長職（行政課長職）を引き受けてみた先輩將校（先輩将校）が私を呼び起こすことを親指と人差し指の指を丸みを帯びた形にして見せながら「これだからそう」というのがその後、すぐに同期生（同期生）も私に同じ表現をしてくれた。いつも空然（公演）指摘される私が苦しくなかったようだった。 行政業務を執行するにあたっては、人事郡守から行政支援金（行政支援金）が出てくるが、これを偽りに執行（執行）し、そのお金を上納（上納）しようという意味だったということだ。ガラロ領收證（領収書）を日誌（日誌）に附着（付着）し、偽の根據（根拠）を残し、實際（実際）では上納（上納）する非理（不正）が盛行（性行）したという意味だ。 軍人事ビリを知って軍進級をあきらめた私は通信学校がよりひどく不正に染まっていることに通信兵と役員として甚(深)恥ずかしい心と失望感(失望感)を大きく持っている。 至今はそうではないと信じる。 私は固知（高知識）して公務（公務）をそのように非正常（異常）に執行することは国家（国家）に不충（不充分）することであり、背反（裏切り）する行爲（行為）で罪（罪）することと見たため、部隊運營資金正常執行（正常執行）しながら、私の奉給（給料）を一部取り除き、連帯長にお金の封筒をもたらした。その後は何も指摘しなかった。そして連帯長が私の給料を離してくれる事実を知ってからは申し訳なかったのか私をOACに入校(入校)させた。 少佐進級をあきらめた私にとって、大栄（OAC）敎育（教育）は何の意味もなかったが軍発令だから応えるしかなかった。 通信學校出身（通信学校出身）と敎官（教官）が私のスコアを最高に上げてくれるのではないか！ありがたい気持ちはするが、このやはり非理だった。 ハニー陸士出身（陸士出身）をはじめ、餘他將校（他の将校）の枠が私をすごく警戒して時期する姿を見ることになる。と私は宣言した。 私は進級（進級）を抛棄（放棄）し、學課成績（学科成績）には関連しないとᆢ OAC教育は進級を有利に成績を受けるためには戦争のような分圍气（雰囲気）で大変殺伐した状態だった。私は兜率山神（ドソルサンシン）に猛威を傷つけることはあまり多くない將校（将校）とされただろう。 幼い頃から肉食（肉食）をほとんどしなかったので、世界的（世界的）に數百（数百）種類の鶏料理が流行しているが、鶏の料理の鶏足の片側に立ち口に対処していないほど殺生もしなかったので、私はうまくいかなかった。

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