박성화 my sunrise

[anna30]

What a crazy photo session that day

you are like a carefully drawn painting

 I can't start any other way than this way, excuse me haha I'm totally immersed in that photo session, the only photo session that has seduced me through a screen and you had to Being you as always, I'm still in a crazy trance from which I hope to recover because a comeback comes in March and I have to be lucid and strong to survive your personal abilities

My odyssey with your photo session has been an adventure I want to tell you my moods slowly

I woke up five minutes before the time your photos were to be released but it was to enter Twitter and the second I was faced with your eyes and your seduction and my first impression was to piss on my pants ( I had to go to the bathroom hehehehe)

Years building walls to protect my heart and you with a single photo session   mistreat me, I do not regret it, what a gaze, what a majestic close-up ... I'm freaking out ...

when I came back I wanted to let out a moan of love but at the same time I couldn't scream because it was 2am and I had to let that scream die in my throat so I started spamming my tl with incoherent words

first in my language because the only thing I could think of to praise you were words in my language don't worry everything is positive, then try to write some words in English but I realized that the words were no longer necessary so I just meditated on your beauty for at least an hour and I was finally able to activate my brain to write you a few words in Korean

exquisite, delicate and pleasant, like a delicate violin passage or delicate butterfly wings is what was born in my mind with each of your details, there are two photos that give me vampire vibes it was like meeting again with Seonghwa Vampire who I miss a lot TT - TT but I'm glad to have vibes from him in this photoshoot ... what a beautiful photoshoot.....

이것은 내 배경 화면이고 이제는 매일 내 휴대 전화에서 부드러운 노란색 일출을 목격 할 것입니다

당신은 말 그대로 내 일출의 빛입니다

I have always loved sunrises and now I will be lucky enough to see a star bathed in the light of a sunrise, nature offers me incredible gifts it is ..the miracle of being alive

I have tried to sleep after this mental breakdown but I have literally only slept 4 hours and I am really tired haha ​​luckily I don't have to work until Wednesday so if I am tired I can sleep or just be lazy today I can afford it

I am trying on Twitter to post all the overdue content and I pray not to be banned I want to post my Saturday videos with my words and the Sunday content, my goal is to finish this day without a ban, will I get it? I'll be a fucking boss if I get it

Well, today I felt rejected again because of my age, an account told me that I was going to receive a follow back because my age is very intimidating

What the hell about age in this fandom? age is just a damn number for the love of god and here we are to praise you and to praise Ateez, age should not matter to anyone because we are all here for the same feeling; ATEEZ

Fortunately I am used to it and I am lucky that you support me in this so I am calm although now I will see the color blue almost every day haha, that color was born in my mind randomly and now I will see it all days, I do not regret

With this third comeback with you my smartiny alert is being activated and I have seen many very easy to understand clues, with you I think I am going to see a Seonghwa controlling and very dominant so here I am waiting to see incredible things in this new comeback

One last thing before saying goodbye, it seems that in Spain the media are interested in all of you, firstly it was the Hongjoong Cover that sounded on a radio station with a long range in my country, the second time was a few days ago that some girls performed with Wonderland in a television program with a lot of media coverage in my country and yesterday a news page with a lot of reach in Spain said that Ateez was returning in March

It's funny because last year all of you were in Spain in March and now almost a year later Spain calls Ateez again, I like these coincidences

That's all for today I think I will finally be able to sleep without waiting for anything at 10am Korean time ... no, wait February 9 at 12pm there is something new about the comeback and that means 4am in my country hahahaha another day without sleep I love this I swear but I do everything for you like continuing here in this fandom and using my account only for you because it is so difficult to adapt knowing that I am rejected because of my age ... I do not abdicate for you because you give me reasons to to live

I really liked your update on Twitter about that today a year ago was the concert in Seoul, my first impression was "he went back to black hair!" but it was just an old photo

(me and my strong wishes to see you with black hair back)

and  also really liked the daily update behind the scenes with you in  suit, today I have suffered 3 consecutive heart attacks with you .... and I intend to survive this next comeback? hahaha this is going to be an extreme fight but here I am willing to face your daily charm

I love you so much, please take care and my support will never change

I swear  are my last words but today you are occupying my head all day, I want to think about other more important things and you do not stop invading my brain what beautiful chaos you have organized in my head I love it and I hate it because that creates more anxiety for see you and I don't want that

what an insane madness for you ..... I think that if I tear my skin and become a corpse this thought will vanish,

okay my last words i am proud to be a shinestar