Etta Mae Hartwell – Half Awake, Half Gone

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Same coat on the chair, same shoes by the door.

I walk out but I don't know what for.

Faces pass all stitch the same,

smile wide eyes with no name.

I used to dream with my fists in the air

Now I barely breathe, barely care.

Tried to outrun whatever I become,

But every street just spells my name.

I'm half awake, half gone, still moving, but I don't belong.

The lights on green, but my feet won't run.

Just watching the world forget what I've done.

Coffee turns cold before I even sip.

News plays on, but I let it slip.

There's a note on the fridge.

I think it's old

Don't know who wrote it, but it still holds.

I've been alive, but ain't been living.

Got a name, but it don't feel gi

Some days I want to burn it all down,

But I just sit and don't make a sound.

I'm half awake, half gone, still breathing, but the fire's withdrawn.

I used to fight.

Used to feel so strong.

Now I just drift where I don't belong

Don't adk me how I lost the spark.

Somewhere between sunrise and dark.

I blinked and the years were gone.

Now I'm just half awake, half gone.