안녕하세용 my favorite go-to person! ~ <3
-screenshots because this app won't let me insert the gif ;(-
Kinda sad that i come to you this way, after not writing in a pretty long time and loosing my letter's streak...
I've told you about this at the camp but I'm certain you haven't crossed through it cause there are many other potatoes potating.
This letter's topic is 'Why success feels good only if you have someone to celebrate it with'
I hope whenever you read this, if you ever do it; and if you're practicing for some event or just wrapped up one, you can feel very loved and cheered by the people around you and the ones who love you so much from the distance for so much more than that one success but for who you are, because they're proud of you achieving a goal and being better than you were before...
That said, I'll begin with my Ted talk.
A little bit of context first.
It's the second year my department holds a kinda 'super bowl' but about knowledge. There are three careers or degrees participating:
1) Metallurgy 🪨🧫👩🔬 (somehow i study this)
2) Geology 👷♂️🧭🌋(my neighbor studies this, it's gonna be relevant later)
3) Mining 👷♂️💣⛏️
The main rules in order to participate said:
- 4 members per team: 2 women, 2 men.
-It doesn't matter the semester distribution, meant as for they all can be from the same semester, two from lower semesters and the other two from upper semesters, all from upper semesters, etc. All the combinations were possible.
-The winner will compete with the team that won the bowl last year in order to pick THE team who's gonna represent the department and university at a national expo were all the universities take part in. (universities that impart Earth sciences degrees as the three i mentioned before) That happens every year in Acapulco, you might not know but it's one of the most touristic places Mexico has ️🐚🌴 (if you win, it's all-expense paid trip, that's why many people want so bad to win but they focus on the mini vacation instead of the contest...)
I told my friend, Andrea, that i wanted to give it a try, since last year i was invited to be part of a team and at first i accepted but then i felt overwhelmed by my actual curricular activities to on top of that also have to study for the contest, so i ended up giving up and not participating. The team i declined got someone from my class to complete the team; long story short, they won first place. Because they were if not the best, very well prepared (She had no idea, i felt so angry when she bragged about it cause she literally just was a filler for them to have the number of members complete... and that could have been me but i doubt of myself, anyways)
People from this team were already at their last semester, so they have already graduated.
Back to Andrea; she also wanted to try it and she asked in a big WhatsApp group (with people studying metallurgy in the department) if someone was interested and wanted to join us (men, as we were already two women). A guy sent her a private message right away telling her he had a male friend and they two wanted to participate too. That's how my team was born.
We didn't know each other and haven't seen our faces ever before the first day of the bowl 🥴
Andrea and I studied a lot during the week and even on weekend we went to a cafeteria/library we discovered (I'll show it to you later, not in this letter but later)
As for guy who contacted her, let's call him 'A' and the other one it's 'B'.
A sent Andrea A LOT of files to study, we went through them and they were mostly topics that we haven't studied before but even so, we studied and researched more. I became expert in mineral flotation (hydrometallurgy 💧) for a hot week, now i don't remember all, i might have burnt out my brain... And I noticed Andrea was invested in pyrometallurgy🔥. We are really such a good team, we share many qualities and complement each other in various ways... Best thing, we're friends <3
In the first round, we answered almost everything, we didn't get everything right but we made it to the next set. The guys told us they hadn't studied because they were too busy 😤 and that all was up to us. It was hold on Kahoot, do you know the website? It's like a trivia
You get more points if you pick the answer faster, it's multiple option, etc.
Not gonna lie, the questions that were chemical kinetics problems we were clueless about the formulas, we made what we call in Spanish a 'dedazo' (dedo is finger), which means we typed on whatever that seemed logical or random and miraculously it was right. BUT we also knew many of them, and i want to make this very clear, we didn't get all right because of lucky.
I know i said long story short but you should already know it's never short.
When we passed to the next round, B said it was a truly miracle and he kept repeating that until the awarding... the tone he made was funny 🤣 he was impressed as if Andrea and I wouldn't study our brain off...
I don't know about her but I didn't sleep more than 5 hours and my eye bags could tell, my eyes were itchy all the time, always exhausted, etc. I do complain but i would (and will 🥴) do it again, but taking better care of my health.
The guys were not completely useless, at lest B looked like he study a bit... I legit never saw or heard A contributing but anyways
When it was announced that we were on the final round all were surprised but not surprised 😯, surprised 🤨. No one was on our side for being from lower semesters... Not even the professors, it did hurt me, because being in upper semesters absolutely doesn't mean you know everything equal as being in lower semesters doesn't meant you're a dumb.
We didn't even want to win, we just wanted to try the experience and personally I wanted to see on what i were lacking.
No one from our degree cheered when we won first place, you could tell they were from mining or geology, at that moment i didn't smile. I didn't feel happy or proud of myself or my team, i even felt like i did something wrong. And when the professor announced it, she said 'For a few points gap, the winner is Quebrachos' with this face 😐
Quebrachos is the name of the team, B picked it. It's a depressor used in flotation, it's not relevant how it works now but i would be glad to tell you next time and make a life analogy about it 🫠
The reason why they didn't want us to win is because a guy from 8th semester (let's call him 'Z') is the so called smartest buddy on the school. Remember that i told you i was invited to participate last year? Z was the one who invited me because people told him i was him but in woman... But as i said yes and then last minute declined, we're not besties. It was during COVID so we never really meet but still it's awkward being around him.
I don't know if someone else know that, cause maybe that's adding reasons to dislike our team. + A and B are the only two guys in their classroom and they don't get along pretty well with their classmates, i don't know what they've done or said but that shouldn't take part in this, right?
So, that's why everyone was expecting Z to win and we ruined it for him so we're the bad guys...
I can't believe even the grown ass professors took it that seriously 😒
When we received the award (safety equipment 🎧⛑️🦺🧤 sponsored by mining companies) they shout out loud Z's name, only our friend clapped and it just was so unnecessary... they also yelled 'show your kárdex'.
Kárdex is where all your grades are in, i don't know if they wanted to prove that he's smarter but it was a stupid Kahoot, i told you you get more points if you're faster, you can pick an option without having to do the maths or the chemical analysis... if you want you can call it lucky, coincidence, but we were on the same situation, if he would have got it right (as if it wasn't team work) then he would have won. But he didn't. Like, why on earth are they side-eyeing us?, is not like we cheated or did something wrong!
You want to know how many people congratulated me?
5
And I'm so grateful for them, i definitely will pay them back the gesture. But it felt like cold water on my face when i saw not even my professors attended to the awarding ceremony, didn't they want to look at our face? They didn't even print the paper that said the participated...
Second and third place got prized as well, so i don't know what's their problem.
And i must say I never bragged about ANYTHING, i never said openly that we won, that i was smarter than him or that they were all dumbs, i thought the last one ngl, because their attitude was insanely childish, but i didn't say it out loud. And as far as i know, neither of my teammates did.
All the week i got people looking at me and saying loud enough for me to hear that they couldn't believe it, that it made no sense, that it was impossible we won and i shut up, i said nothing.
So, we won but at what price?
Add to this that i didn't tell my mom about it, because if i didn't win i was planning on not telling her.
And as my neighbor also was participating (his team won second place but he didn't show up at the awarding, i think he was mad cause they were this 🤏🏻 close to win first place) i thought: 'if he wins first place and i win second, i won't go back home this weekend...' because we've been passive-aggressively competing since we're kids for being on top. He's so smart, i have no doubt about it, but I'm also super smart even if i can't recognize it at times... It might sound like a toxic environment 🤣 but it's not that bad.
Also a professor during class said that contest was useless because you could click on anything without having the knowledge, AND THAT'S EXACTLY WHAT I'VE BEEN SAYING FROM THE BEGINNING.
If they wanted to recruit the smartest people, they should have done a written/oral test and individually. It's not our fault it was held on a trivia app.
The thing is, my team (winner 2023) is going to complete against the winner of the last bowl (2022), who wins is going to represent the university in the mining expo i mentioned earlier. So i kinda understand why they want their fricking babies from 8th semester to go, as it's their last chance to participate. But i couldn't care less.
As it's something important it shouldn't be taken lightly. As long as they're committed to study hard and stop being dumbass with me and my team, they can go to Acapulco, i don't care. But i do want to go, Andrea does want to go, A and B also want to go (Those guys urgently need to study too)...
And from the 2022 team, remember i said they picked a classmate instead of me when I declined? She had THE NERVE to tell me now we're competing against each other, when she told me days before she didn't care about it anymore 🥴🥴🥴 and i only tell her she needed to study.
I don't know how this makes me sound like, but for real what does her think she's and actual opponent to me, like, she barely cares about school, why would she say 'we're competing against each other' in a tone of 'be careful' 🧐🧐 it seems like everyone is underestimating me, even myself *laughs in offended*🫠
But i promise i will study harder and check the questions i got wrong. And I already planned on what to say if we won and they don't want us to go to Acapulco, as the overthinker i am.
What saddens me the most is that a guy that i kinda liked cause he's smart and cute bombastic side-eyed me 😭 i never talked to him more than twice and i plan on never do it again but still... What a waste of such handsomeness.
That's how my week was...
I got home and i told my mom about it all, she said i should give a f about what all think and focus on myself, on what i want and treasure the ones who congratulated me. One thing about me is that i give excellent treatment to the ones that are by my side.
It finally felt good to have won, she hugged me and told me she's proud of me no matter what. My little brother wasn't the happiest but i don't care about him (i should but at this point he's always complaining about being my shadow, he's too young to even get how it all works and trust me, those are his ideas only, everyone is always telling him he's smart, capable and reaffirming their proudness to him but he thinks everything is lucky even when he has seen me studying my ass off, crying because i don't understand something, doing homework up to late, i mean he's seen those grades are not easy to get and he still holds that mindset... i want to help him but the moment i talk about it he goes away i softly hate that part of him)
Disclaimer: I'm not saying I'm perfect, I'm just complaining about them, if i were to talk about myself then i would complain about myself as well...
That was the best rant I've had this week... i feel ten pounds lighter
Permission to go delulu 💨💨💨💨💨💨 baby blue our color 🩵
I swear to God, i never get any notification and when i REALLY need not to be disturbed, twitter comes up. 🫠
Please wish me luck to put myself together and finish well my semester and this competition.
I was thinking of some the lyrics from songs that you've sang to
You always pick the ones who make you look like you've been through three divorces but the lyrics are really good, thanks for that🩷🩷🩷
Love you the most! I hope you're healthy and doing well. I can't wait to see you!!
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