I don't know how to start that because it's more like a vent because I have no one to talk to, in a house you're supposed to feel safe, loved or protected, but all this is what I don't feel In my own home, I feel too much anxiety, and a person in my family is the cause of this. I don't know how I should feel about it, this person should make me feel safe, loved and protected but it doesn't make me feel super bad. On one occasion I got to talk to her about how she made me feel while I was crying, you know it was super difficult for me to do it because I don't usually cry in front of other people. Do you know what this person told me? "why cry?" "How exaggerated, you have no reason to cry, but I do," saying all this while he laughed.
Do you know how bad I felt? I mustered up so much courage to actually tell him what was bothering me so I could fix it but it just didn't work.
Every day I feel more frustrated and suffocated.
I have always been a home girl and good grades as well as good behavior, But you know, sometimes going out with my friends scares me, but it's normal because they are things I've never done before and I feel happy to be able to do them and get out of my comfort zone.
A few days ago my teacher congratulated me in front of my class and other classes for the work I had done, I felt great but I had no one to talk to and I also felt bad. I find that logo more satisfactory because he is a very difficult teacher to please and more because for some strange reason he dislikes me and the fact that he did the above mentioned made me feel happy.
well, I think everyone has some bad day or good days or there are simply days that are not an intermediate between both, I just wanted to thank you if you read this and tell you that you have to be strong Try the things you want to do, just do them and if you see that what you do is not for you you can leave it, but you will no longer have that thought of saying "what would have happened if I did that?" This feeling will simply go away because you did your best to do it, you tried and that's what counts in the end of the day.