Hi, Jaeyun! 🥰💕
I hope you’re doing alright. It’s getting late there now, isn’t it? It should be around midnight as I’m writing this, so I hope you go to bed with nothing but sweet dreams tonight.💖
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I rewatched the Song Lee Crayon live once again this morning since I’ve been feeling kind of sad these days. It was like 5 am when I woke up today with all these really heavy feelings and anxiety, so I pulled out my earbuds and sat in the dark as I listened to the sound of your guys’ lovely voices break the stillness of dawn. I had mentioned in my last letter that your lives really do heal and soothe me, but I didn’t expect I’d be revisiting it so soon. Nonetheless, thank you so much for being my comfort when I feel like my emotions are eating away at me. I’ll be okay, don’t worry. ☺️
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Another thing I wanted to ask you, do you write to yourself at all? I know you guys kinda do for when it’s a special occaision but out of nowhere?
Not too long ago you uncovered your baby album while you were in Daegu with moments of the past. I wanted to walk down memory lane too and while I couldn’t find my albums or anything, I found an old journal I wrote in 3 years ago when I was 17 and about to graduate high school. Now that I’m 21 and about to graduate from college, it’s insane how relationships between people and ideas change yet I don’t think I’ve changed all that much. Even so, do you look back at any writing from a younger you and think “wow, I remember feeling like this yet it feels so long ago?” 🙃
Now that I’ve found it, I’ve found a time machine and I’m going back to comfort and update the younger Gene. I wonder what kinds of worries and headspace the current Jaeyun was living in 3 years ago, but even then, I hope those worries may be put to rest and that you feel that your dreams are coming true. A year ago, you wrote to me that your dream to become an idol came from wanting to spread positive feelings to others on stage and while I know that’s still your goal, you’ve already done and do that tenfold, Jaeyun. Seriously, I hope you’re so proud of all the progress you’ve made~ 💕
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Finally, on the off chance you do see this letter, I wanted to tell you about how you made my dream from a year ago come true! ☺️
Last year, I’d told you that I felt inspired again to write music again after a long period of depressive thoughts and composer’s block because you inspired me. Never did I think I’d be able to let you listen and react to something I made for you right in front of me at our fancall. I didn’t get the chance to ask you how you felt and I’m so sorry about that, but did you like it? I sincerely hope you did. 🥺❤️
Here’s the link again for the full version of the song I showed you last month at the fancall, the birthday gift I composed just for you:
As well as the playlist of all the other songs I’ve written for TO1, there’s 3 of them! :
Listen with headphones for the best results and also, read the descriptions if you can, hehe~ Please enjoy and look forward to something soon, I may or may not be writing something new. 😉
Anyways, this is all I wanted to share with you today. Thank you always for becoming someone so precious to me, Jaeyun. I’m so proud to love you so dearly. I hope you have a good night and rest well. I’m sorry this is so long >_<“
I’ll write again soon. 💖
Your proudest fan and best friend,
Gene🧬