💛To Donghyuk:
Thank you Dongie for being my light in this dark world♡
Today or rather yesterday, it was a year since you brought happiness back to my life.
A year ago I wrote you something on instagram almost without thinking, saying that I felt bad. I don't know why I wrote to you specifically but I did.
At that time I had moved away from kpop and almost everything, I wanted to rest and I did, but everything felt like a dream and that happiness didn't feel real, it wasn't mine.
Some time after that happened, I tried cutting ties with them (I shouldn't say this but I will) and I think it really worked with most of them except you. You were always there and when I least expected it happened, you reacted to a message from me on instagram and all my attention fell on you. I don't know if it was a coincidence or you did it on purpose but you made me feel good again, I felt like someone in the world cares about my life and cares about me😪
There is a movie that I really like, it's called Doukyuusei.
It's about two lovers but I'm going to skip most of the movie and just tell you that these guys took some time, one of them (who will be named S) is very worried about their relationship and for some reason that I'll skip, he faints on the train. During his blackout he has a dream, there is his boyfriend with him (this one will be named K), and they are tied by the wrists with a lemon yellow ribbon. K tells S that it is a very pretty color and that he likes it very much and then some voices are heard calling S and K tells him to go, that they are calling him but S doesn't want to go because he is with K and they are tied by the hands and K cuts the ribbon that united them in half. S was very surprised because K liked that ribbon very much but K reassures S saying that nothing happens and they will tie it again and S is not very convinced because it will not be the same and K says: what does it matter? We'll tie it differently and it will look even nicer. Who cares, if the color is the same.
And then S wakes up.
What I mean by this whole story is that I feel the same with you Donghyuk, I feel that we are tied by the wrists with a ribbon that I decided to cut so that you could go where you were needed but you came back and tied the ribbon again to get back together.
And you know the best thing about cutting it? That now we're closer than we were before🫂
I feel like you are my destiny. 🔮
If it sounds too romantic, forgive me but this is what I sincerely think of you.
Thank you for giving me back my happiness that day, thank you for giving me a reason to go back to doing and listening to what I loved, thank you for being one of the reasons I live. I love you
❤
Aaaaaaaaaa now I feel the weight of that word.🙈
That's it, I'll just leave two songs I wish you could hear:
I almost revealed my identity😳