Okey this second message is really less funny, it's seriously things... ㅠㅠ
I told you about hard situation between my father and step mother. But now it's more horrible, I can probably hate my father.
My father go walk on the montain during all a day with a women "for work", lasr week. Plus theses time he seems to say her a lot "for work". With my step mother we asking if my father see a women~
One morning of this week my father had to take me at horse riding on the morning, but this day he "had to work with the women" sober took her with the car before let me at horseriding. But before arrive a her home my father stop the car to clean window, parfum him and don't be early. Is it not strange for "work women" ??!
Yesterday night while we walk on street he didn't stop write message on his phone, and for sure it was snit my step mother... So who was??
Today when I wake up he was not here, I asked my step mother and my brother where is him "He leave and will back tomorrow". Is it not strange again???!
And final.... My step mother arrive in my room with a dress, I didn't understand. But she said :
"- Is it your dress?
-No...
-It's not mine too, and not your bro too~ "
And we just stay without words, she leave my room..... 10 minutes later she come again with a T-shirt.... Show me... Tear in eyes :
"-Is it yours?
-No.... "
What are theses women clothes????!
Wtf is doing my father?? It was volunteer to let it there?? Where is him actually??
It's horrible to do it, my step mother is a so good person, she really not deserve it.
I can't imagine what he is doing, it's horrible to do it.
One day I told you that I had "a strange appointment", but didn't want told you cuz I was afraid about what you can think about it... I will tell you now.
One morning my father told me "This afternoon we go see a psychologist. "
I had any idea of why, but as I understand he think I'm not good or something.
I'm not good when I am with him!!! But he will never understand it... First appointment with psychologist, my father was here, so I just say anything and was cold.
I finally ahad a second appointment alone!! And was "just me", it's spending really good amd the women say that I'm really ok, I have no problem, my father have to let me.
I was happy to know "I'm not a crazy girl" ㅎㅎ
So I want mean that my father take me there cuz he think I have a problem, but it's him the problem!!
My sister ans h don't talk anymore. He talked so bad to my brother last year it was so bad, he used so bad words... But my bro is good so he still talk my father. Then my father have not good relationship with me. Then he do it to my step mother?? So who is the problem?? I think it's not me. He I not good. I hate it. If he was not "father" I wish never aee this man again. But everybody say "It's your father, you have to love him". No, I don't live everybody, I son't want give any love for a wrong man like this.
Ok, now a sad subject... Did you learn that DongYoon of SPECTRUM death yesterday....
I didn't know him at all but I felt sad for all people. I'm in contact with all French Fanbases, so with Spectrum fanbase too.... And I know what I it to loose someone. It have to be a so hard moment.... I hope they heart can feel good soon, I hooe they can be strong for him, but I know it hard...
I can't imagine be at their place.
I already loose someone in my life but I feel it ok now. But tbh if one day it happens something to you Jae, I will never be able to stay strong.... I reflect about it since more than 1 days, I always think that if it happen, who know what can happen in the life. All is so fast... I'm so afraid.
I can't know how bad I can be if something happen, but I think if u get a big hurt or something I will took the first plane I can and just stay by yourside, and for sure I will take care so much of your parents. I will try my best to be sure they are good and have enough money, I will try all I can to help them as much as I can.
But in reality we can't know how I will react or anything~ That so complicate and so afraid....
I pray all the world for a good angel care of you each day ans be aure that all your days will be blessed. I honestly hope you all the happiness of this world. I will give u all I have, all my life.
I have to try my best again and again to protect you as much as I can and show you how much you're important, because we don't show enough our feelings for people, and I guess you deserve a biggest feeling, I will work on it. I hope I can give you the best....
The BlackRoseSelcaDay will be delate in honor of DongYoon. I truly hope BkackRose can support Spectrum fan, they need many love.
And finally a thing better ~ Yesterday I was in a little concert, and there was a bass... and... IT WAS THE SAME AS YOURS !!! I was so happy !! And can't leave my eyes in it It was the second most beautiful bass I see !! (the first is pretty 쥬씨 )
Plus I can hear bass good! I really like the sounds! And I can't imagine you at the place of the man~ But t was impossible for some reason :
-쥬씨 is more pretty
-The man was old
-He was not skin
-He was not tall
-And not good clothes
-Not pretty smile
It was not you~~ ㅎ
Ahh and did u see the moon???
My JaeJae, everyday take care of you and your health, and mind, and heart. I truly hope all your day can be shine for a long time. I hope you will still smile as beautiful as you can and enjoy all second of life.
I will have to protect you more and more.
Be careful of you please.... ♡
_The SweetHeart BlackRose who protect the young good musician_
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