Дорогой Даннчик,
It feels weird to start off my letters as I usually do today. I don't know if hoping that you are having a good day is plausible right now. But I hope you aren't suffering too hard. I hope you aren't grieving too much. But most importantly, I hope you aren't blaming yourself. I know you, Dannчик, and I feel like you would put a lot of blame on yourself for whatever happened. I don't know the details, but I'm sure it was out of your control. And even if it wasn't completely, please don't be too hard on yourself. You are such a caring leader and person in general. I don't want you to be upset. Well... no. You have every right to be upset right now. Just please don't be upset with yourself. That is all I ask. I hope you and the other members have been spending lots of time together resting and healing. I don't know if that has been possible, but I really hope so. It is very easy to forget about basic needs when you are feeling sad, so I am going to remind you now to drink lots of water (especially if you have been crying!), eat food (even if you can't manage much, just have something here and there, okay?) and sleep. Please sleep when you can. I don't want you to get sick because you aren't taking care of yourself. Kingme is already very worried, so please don't make us worry about your health too. I feel like this is a lot to ask of me, but I just really care about you. The last thing I would ever want to happen right now is for you to sacrifice your health because of what is going on. If nothing else, prioritize yourself.
Anyways, enough about all of that. I have always told you that I don't want my letters to be sad. I want to focus on the happy things in my life (and in yours!) when I write to you. I don't have a lot to say about my day today, unfortunately. My class today was online because my professor thought he might have covid (he didn't though!), so he wanted to be safe. So I didn't leave my house at all today. In fact, I stayed in my pyjamas until 7pm when I took a shower! It was a very cozy day. I was going to light a candle but I forgot hehe but it's okay! I will be gone for a lot the day tomorrow, so I probably won't light it then, but I will do it soon. It will be very relaxing. Since I was home all day I got a lot of work done! I finished watching all my lecture videos for the other class I am in (that one is always online) and I got my homework finished for my accounting class. Just to clarify, the two classes I am taking are accounting (the one that is usually in person, but was online today) and economics (which is always online). I was going to take two economics classes, but I decided that three classes was going to be a lot. I didn't want my summer to become all about school. Right now it's all about school, but I hope when my accounting class ends in a month (it is an abbreviated class), things will be lighter.
Oh my gosh Dannчик! Wait I can't believe I forgot! I never told you about my graduation! Ahh this is such a perfect thing to tell you about! Graduation is so special, and I'm sure you'd love to hear about it!! I am going to include some of my graduation pictures in this post. I am usually very shy about showing pictures of me without my face covered, but I am going to be brave and show you today. I hope you like to see them! I thought maybe seeing me would make you smile. I always want to make you smile. I haven't participated in Kingme selca day before, so you wouldn't have seen me from those on Twitter. I hope this is special for you. It will be special for me. Anyways, on with the story!
I hope you had a good day today! I had a great day! Today I graduated from college!! Can you believe it? I sure can't. It is a little bit of a story to tell you about that, but I'm going to do it anyways! But first I am going to tell you more about how my day went!
On the day of my graduation I spent most of my morning in bed, which was very nice and relaxing. But then I got ready and my mom came! We went to campus on the bus together with Mustard to take pictures!
It was really cool for my mom to take the bus with me. She got to see a part of my daily routine by taking the bus with me. It was just really special to me. I pointed out all the stops that I get off on when I go grocery shopping and all that. And then we got to school and took some pictures! I brought Mustard and my mom to a cute spot with a bench and we took some pictures.
Then we walked around and took pictures with some benches as well. While we were looking for more photo spots, we walked past the library. I'm not sure if I ever specifically told you, but I work at the library! So we decided to go inside and take some pictures with the books. It was really fun.
And then the last pictures we took were with the robots! At my school, we have robots that deliver food to students on campus. They're super cute! They were first introduced when I was a freshman, and now I just graduated! I can't say they've been a big part of my college experience (I've only ordered from them like twice... I'm not lazy enough to use them!), but they always bring a smile to my face when I see them. They're cute little guys.
And then my mom and I went back home on the bus to drop off Mustard. We quickly turned around and then went back for my graduation! It was kind of boring.. not going to lie. I was one of the first majors that got to walk across the stage, so I had to just sit and wait for like an hour after I was done. The graduation didn't include all of the students in the entire school, just the people who were in your general area of study. So all the humanities and social sciences students graduated together. Most of my friends are in engineering, so I didn't really know anyone. It wasn't fun cheering for people and all that. But its okay. It was a special moment for me.
But to explain why my graduation didn't really feel like something important. I am not sure if I've told you this before, but I decided to change my career path last year right around this time. At that time, I was set to graduate a year early with a Criminology degree. I've heard Criminology isn't very common internationally, but basically it is a major where you study theories of crime and try to fix it. A lot of people in the Criminology major go on to work for the government or become lawyers. I didn't really want to do either of those things, but I thought learning about crime was cool. But when I was a semester away from graduating, I decided maybe it would be a good idea to figure out what I want to do! So I took a career readiness class and I ended up discovering that a really good career for me would be accounting. Ultimately, I found this out through an interest test. I could've laughed it off or ignored it, but deep down inside, I knew that Criminology wasn't the path for me. Accounting is a lot of numbers, math, and organization. I love all those things. So I decided to switch my major and study accounting. But it was too late to start all over! I didn't want to have to study for another 4 years! Not when I was almost done! But lucky for me there was a solution. There is a certificate program for accounting that crams all the accounting classes into one year. And it requires a bachelor's degree to apply! So by doing this, I can still take accounting classes and prepare for a career, but I am also not completely wasting my Criminology degree! So today I graduated with a degree in Criminology. It didn't really feel like graduation because I still have a year left of school and honestly... Criminology was really easy. It didn't feel like all my hard work had led up to this one moment. It wasn't as satisfying for me as it might have been for others. But it was still a once in a lifetime experience I'll never forget!
I hope you liked hearing about my graduation and seeing my pictures! Graduation is such an exciting experience, and I hope my story made you smile. Or even just the pictures of me and Mustard. Speaking of Mustard, he was out roaming when I was writing to you! He looked sooooo cute! I got some pictures just for you! Look at his black eyes 🥺 He is so precious!
Well Dannчик, I think I am going to go to bed now. I hope you have a good day. I really mean that. It might seem impossible right now, but a happy day will come again, I know it. I will always be here for you. Me and other Kingme. You can count on us. You have supported us so much in the past. I hope our letters and comments have helped numb then pain for you. It's the least we could do. Before I go, I wanted to tell you about my new sign off phrase. You might've seen it in my Daily Mustard posts on Weverse, but I wanted to tell you directly. Since everything has happened, it has helped me realize how much you mean to me. You and the rest of Kingdom. It has made me come to appreciate how much I love talking with you on Weverse. I've always known that I love you very much, but I know even more so now. I can't imagine a future without Kingdom in it. When I first woke up and heard the news, a song got stuck in my head. Not even one I have listened to recently. It is called Навсегда. I will link it below if you would like to listen to it. It is by Alekseev. Anyways, some of the lyrics stand out to me as connecting to how I feel right now. You will always be with me, just as the song says. You will be with me forever. I am going to write a few lines that I think really solidify how I feel. I hope they touch you as much as they touched me. They are approximate translations, but I hope I do them justice.
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Everything will suddenly break in me.
Now and so suddenly.
It won't hurt
...
[They] won't let us go, I'm with you forever.
Forever and ever.
...
Only with you, with you know that
Forever and ever.
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https://youtu.be/d9AYhmvq-Sw
I hope you liked the lyrics. They are a bit bittersweet, I'd say. It is hard now. We have been broken so suddenly. But someday it will hurt less. It will be a dull ache. No matter what, I will be with you forever and ever.
In Russian, the words for forever and always are very similar: Навсегда and Всегда. I have started to sign off my messages saying these two words. Because I will support you forever and always. I truly mean that. And I will not only support you forever and always, I will also love you forever and always. I hope you know this. And now I will sign off for the night. It is getting late. I love you so much, my Dannчик. Forever and always 💙
Навсегда и Всегда,
Kelsey 🦎
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