It's been a very long couple of weeks. Lots of long hours at work. Plus the cold. I'm always cold though, lol.
Today was a little warmer.
It's always nice those first days after below 0°F temperatures. Like today it got to around 33 or 34°. So the first few minutes outside feel amazing. Enough for no coat.
But also today, one of the times I went on a delivery, the sun was starting to get lower and it was beautiful.
The picture doesn't do it justice.
I passed some apartments and thought, how amazing would it be to have a bedroom at just the right angle that has windows on opposite sides or 3 sides. And then you could lay in bed, cuddling, and watching the sunrise or the sunset. Or watching it rain or snow.
I had to take another delivery later after it was dark. I got to see Orion's Belt. And the moon! It's a full moon, or close enough to it.
One of the last customers I helped today, my heart hurt for her. She asked me about my tattoos, so I started talking about them. I told her about AND and Smoky. She even wrote down the names and your names to go listen to them later. The last one was my ;
I told her it's like a pause. It doesn't matter if it's acted on or not, but you are still here. She started crying. She told me before coming to get her food she had been crying a lot today.
I don't know anymore of her story, it didn't feel right to ask.
I need to go for now. I'm in the process of writing my resume. I don't like feeling like I'm giving up, but at the same time I'm not going to work in the same way I have in the past. I can't and won't for so many reasons. The general manager flat out told me yesterday that I wasn't a good manager and that she didn't understand how I was able to have run my own store.
Well. . . guess what. I had one of the lowest turnover rates in the company. That means that my employees didn't quit as often, they stayed and worked. Here though? They had one of the highest last year. And I understand why. To her these employees are objects. Yet to their face she pretends to care.
She also told me I need to channel my inner bitch in order for the employees to respect me. No. I won't do it. I will not create a hostile work environment to make employees like me. Especially because from the moment I walked in there they immediately liked me. They listen to me, even though she says they don't.
But it's a moot point because I will be leaving.
On that note I need to go finish it up.
Until another time. . .