Hi Beomsoo...
400 days have passed since your debut, now it's day 401, during this time so many things happened, and so far I'm happy even though sometimes there are difficult times but we managed to get through it together.
Do you remember, some time ago you asked what the reason to like you? my answer is :
I like you because you are Beomsoo
When you are yourself that's what I like the most
Then when I liked you, I remain myself
I don't need to change or force myself
Because I also like what Beomsu likes
I think that’s why I became comfortable liking Beomsoo
But actually it's not that smooth, there are times when I want to give up. I once lost patience and took a step back. Doesn't greet you in plus chat, even turns off notifications. Even though I still read all your messages without exception. I don't know whether you realize it or not. I think I went through it for about 10-12 days.
I didn't do that because it was your fault, It's just that I was thinking, is this really the right way? to be this close to your idol?
or better to just admire you from a distance? like looking at the starlight in the sky so that it remains beautiful, without approaching. So I tested myself, it turns out it's not easy without you either.
Until I finally realized, in any relationship, friends, partners, lovers, family, even idols and fans still need adjustments. It takes time to understand each other. Then I thought, from your perspective do you feel the same way?
You know right? if we like something or get closer to someone, we will develop feelings. And if we are used to being together, we will be afraid of losing.
I think at that time I was just too afraid of the future, so I couldn't enjoy the present moment properly. Now I'm more at ease with that feeling. I'm back, and I'll try to be more patient. Become Beomsoo chat buddy, and help you see a wider world. That way I will see a wider world through you too, a world that I cannot see myself. Be someone who encourages you even if only through words. Become one of those who believe in you, like you who believe in yourself in the past and future.
Now i know, even fangirling life has its ups and downs, like riding the waves... 💜
I said before, I couldn't draw sketches, right? but today I tried it, inspired by your photo looking at the waves in Pohang. This is still very lacking, I don't even dare to draw a face because it will definitely ruin your good looks. For the first time, I think it's not bad.🤣
So now let's live by learning from the waves.
Apart from its beauty, there are several things we can learn from the sea...
The waves chasing each other teaches a consistent attitude. Never get tired of fighting for what you dream of. Just as the waves never stop combing the ocean, so do the efforts you make to achieve success.
The waves are a reflection of the problems you face. Like waves, problems will come and go. Sometimes the problems are very big and disrupt life. Sometimes problems are like small waves that don't have any impact.
So in life, don't stop just because you haven't succeeded. Continue to encourage enthusiasm and try to achieve what you want, live bravely.
I know Beomsoo can do all that, because you are very tough. You will always succeed through all difficulties. Of course I will also try to live like that.
Starting tomorrow you will be very busy, performing in Yeosu, going to Japan for fancon and other Japanese schedules. Hopefully everything goes smoothly, you and all members can perform well without getting hurt. Today my plus chat error, I can't watch your live, the sound can't be heard and the picture can't be seen even though I can send messages and see comments. Are you punishing me? 😌😆
Can only hope I'll be able to see the replay later, I miss you...
Sweetberry 🌻