이것은 내가 당신에게 쓴 모든 편지입니다, 많은 것은 영어로 될 것입니다 나는 미안합니다 ...
1. Chiwoo.
You're the most precious person I've ever met. I promise no matter what I'll be by your side to support you! Thank you for everything you've given us tho, the cooking shows, the vlives, your chaotic energy. Your voice. I hope you take time to look after yourself okay? You deserve to rest. Don't worry too much about kingmakers, we'll support you no matter what okay?
2. to chiwoo;
Please know I'll never be mad at you okay? I respect your choices and I sincerely hope you're doing okay.
You gave up your dream to be a footballer to become an idol and you did, you are the best idol I've ever seen, you're so talented not only in dance but also in rap and vocal.
Youre one of my favourite people in the whole world. Your happiness means more to me than anything else.
I will 100% continue to be by your side, whether you redebut, don't become an idol again or become a footballer or whatever I'm going to be your number 1 fan.
You stole my heart a year ago so you're going to have to deal with me for a while :)
You're the most adorable little cat panda in the whole world please remember that? We want you to stay healthy aswell!
Don't worry about us too much just focus on yourself for the time, kingme will support you no matter what!!
Your dimples lemme just, they're so cute... Your entire face is just so cute (I will not argue with you again you are cute strong man)
I got to talk to you this era and I wish I told you so much more than what I did because, I think we thank everyone I was on mute for 20 seconds bc I was screaming aha, I want to tell you no matter what I will tell you everything I need to say to you okay?
You're a strong man okay? Sometimes strong men needs to take a rest and eat good! Please drink good too!
Don't worry yourself out okay? Panda cat strong man. That will be your new name!
You deserve the absolute world chiu. Please look after yourself that's a strong promise 🤞
I will always be your fan till I'm no longer here and that's another promise okay!
I love you so much chichi <33
↪ Wynne ❤️
3. chiwoo~~
Are you doing okay?? Normally you'd be waking up around this time right?
I hope you're doing okay!
Ive not accepted it yet, and I probably won't, a) because I don't believe it and b) because I'm a stubborn bitch.
Please remember to eat and drink today too okay?? Your health is still important!
I made a promise to you I'd never give up,, you're the reason for my existence honestly. No matter how hard it gets ill always stay for you, no matter how much I'm hurting right now I want you to know how much you mean to me Okay.
It's always good to have someone's shoulder to cry on, or someone to hug, so I sincerely hope you have someone there for you and the members can comfort you <3
You will come back right? You promised we'd see each other again, you'll come back when you're ready won't you??
I've said this so much but if you have 100000 fans I'm one of them, 10000 I'm still one, 1000 I'm one of them, 1000 or 100 or 10 I'm still there,if you have 1 ill be the only one and if you have 0 I will no longer exist.
I sincerely hope this was your choice, and if it was I'll be by your side, you had a dream and chose to follow it <3
I want to hear from you again or see your "Chiwoo" notif pop up one last time, I hope it comes back one day
You'll always be our king chi, our chaotic maknae, our chaotic friend.
You'd never want to hurt us I know that so don't blame yourself.
Whenever you're ready please come back, we miss you and I hope you're okay right now <3
4. Chiwoo ah~
How are you doing today? Are you eating well and taking it easy? Please remember to rest okay?! Pinky promise me you're looking after yourself, you can't break a pinky promise either 🤞
Your beauty shines beyond others okay. I know we've met once, but I'm always here for you, you may not even remember me but I got you to call yourself cute :)
You're okay right? We shouldn't worry.. Strong man raised strong kingme <3 please don't worry about us okay? Kingme are strong and we're always by your side chi!!
Don't loose that smile okay? Please never loose it. I love that smile so much when your eyes turn into moons and your dimples show..
I hope we meet again... No matter what crosses our paths, whether I meet you randomly in another country or I meet you as another idol. Fuck, you know me I hate sports but if you chose to go back to being a footballer I'd learn the damn rules you have me so whipped for you.
I haven't cried today so personal growth but as I'm writing this and left my friends I can't help but just cry? I never experienced heart break till I read that letter from them. Funny isn't it? I cried more over you leaving than I did when my ex boyfriend broke up with me adisnsiak guess that's only funny to a few people lmfisnsk 😩
You're the sweetest most precious boy and no matter what's happening in your life know you're never alone. You feel alone at times when you need help but I hope you know you're not alone. Whether it's kingdom, your family, friends or kingme we've all got your back panda
Make sure to keep eating okay? Even a tiny bit is more than okay chi~
You will never see these letters most likely however, I will keep writing them forever and ever and ever.
I've listened to your album constantly like I told you, it's my favourite.
5. Chiwoo ah~
How are you doing today? Are you eating well and taking it easy? Please remember to rest okay?! Pinky promise me you're looking after yourself, you can't break a pinky promise either 🤞
Your beauty shines beyond others okay. I know we've met once, but I'm always here for you, you may not even remember me but I got you to call yourself cute :)
You're okay right? We shouldn't worry.. Strong man raised strong kingme <3 please don't worry about us okay? Kingme are strong and we're always by your side chi!!
Don't loose that smile okay? Please never loose it. I love that smile so much when your eyes turn into moons and your dimples show..
I hope we meet again... No matter what crosses our paths, whether I meet you randomly in another country or I meet you as another idol. Fuck, you know me I hate sports but if you chose to go back to being a footballer I'd learn the damn rules you have me so whipped for you.
I haven't cried today so personal growth but as I'm writing this and left my friends I can't help but just cry? I never experienced heart break till I read that letter from them. Funny isn't it? I cried more over you leaving than I did when my ex boyfriend broke up with me adisnsiak guess that's only funny to a few people lmfisnsk 😩
You're the sweetest most precious boy and no matter what's happening in your life know you're never alone. You feel alone at times when you need help but I hope you know you're not alone. Whether it's kingdom, your family, friends or kingme we've all got your back panda
Make sure to keep eating okay? Even a tiny bit is more than okay chi~
You will never see these letters most likely however, I will keep writing them forever and ever and ever.
I've listened to your album constantly like I told you, it's my favourite.
6. seungjunie~
You're doing okay today right?
Today was kingdoms first fansign without you and it doesn't feel right.. I'll never be mad at you for leaving. You're always part of kingdom and you're forever our king of cloud!
It's still painful... I want to see you again I just want to make sure you're okay.. I want to send you letters so you have something to read but I don't know where I'd send them...
Youre okay right? We don't need to worry? We're used to you not posting everyday but it feels so weird that it's been 3 days and we won't get another post...
I'm getting tired again but I promise I won't give up for you. I'm always gonna be beside you and kingdom. You're the reason I didn't give up last year and you'll still remain the reason I don't give up!
The chances of you seeing these are little to 0 but it's not gonna stop me. I'll post two letters a day everyday till you come back okay?
Junie, take care of yourself please, don't loose that smile or your cheeks okay??
7. it's been 3 days without you...
This will be a mess, I'm writing at 2am while crying over him so fun woo.. I might post this in the morning, or it'll sit in my drafts gathering dust...
Chiwoo... You'll come back right?? You promised we'd meet again... Can we make it soon? I'd be happy with anything honestly. Even a letter that said goodbye would be enough for me...
I miss you so much.
I miss your updates, your smile, your voice, your energy, your personality I miss everything about you..
I never want to say goodbye.
I genuinely thought I'd be like 25 or something and watch you go off to serve or something before something like this would happen..
You're okay right?? I should stop worrying but I can't help it.. Your health and happiness is all that matters to me chi... Not being able to hear from you is agony..
Its not getting easier.. Times going to quick and I'm slowly realising it isn't a dream but I want out this simulation so bad...
It's so hard to do things now. Minnie's been making me eat and we've been there for each other.. Remember? The person I mentioned in the fancall? She misses you too... Fuck we all do.
You'll be okay?? Tell me you're doing okay chi...idc if it's sky writing or whatever the idea of you being sad fucking hurts... You don't deserve anything bad happening to you...
Chi I know you're a big fan of bts.. Do you know they're having a comeback soon? Relax and enjoy it okay?
Please don't hide how you're feeling... If you're struggling Chiwoo please talk to someone don't think you should go through this alone okay? Kingmakers are always with you! I'm always gonna be with you.
I love you so damn much and I miss you so damn fucking much man <3
8. chiu!!
How are you today?? Are you staying healthy??
We had our first concert without you today. Did you watch it? No one sang over your verses so we could still hear your voice but it still seemed empty without your smiley face on stage. They did a good job.
It's okay though.
I know deep down you're okay...
Do you still check weverse and cafe... That's probably a silly question.. Kingme have been leaving you notes all the time now... It feels weird to see no weverse notifs anymore... They left your post at the top! You truly mean the world to them omg... Mujinie isn't spamming anymore which is weird all the time..
Chiwoo, remember to take care of yourself okay? No matter what path you take ill always be there okay?
Hshsh why am I always okay till I write these letters lmao..
Ah, I got two of your pcs finally, one from this era and one from last... They're so pretty :( all your selcas are beautiful so remember to post them okay?? Don't you dare say you can't take good ones again or face my soft poking.
Please take your time before your return okay?? As much as I want you back I want you to be healthy okay?
9. chiwoo~~
I finally got round to watching the Halloween special! I don't know what took me so long, at the time I had little to no attention span, so I decided to watch it before I went to sleep (bad idea bc I was laughing too much).
I don't know.. I feel like I've been watching more kingdom content recently hmm, normally, it takes me a while to watch them between studies and friends I don't have much free time ig??
I'm soon planning to watch through all your vlives!! I love your cooking vlives so much, you're such a good cook how do you do it? I can't even cook noodles properly half the time ♂️ don't ask I feel like I have the capability to burn water..
Omg I took you to the zoo today!! Normally I bring a backpack BUT I decided to bring a Peter rabbit tote I love so much and I forgot it had your pc hanging from it! I remembered half way there and told Minnie and she said to get pictures of you with the animals!! It took 4 and a half hours to find a cat to get a pic with ㅠㅠ I ALSO I really wished I had the pc of you in the penguin fit bc I FORCED my mum to take me to the penguins before we left, she judged me all the time I took pictures with you and the animals but I couldnt give a crap.
I took you to sloths, bears, penguins, frogs, insects, monkeys, lions, butterflies, deer, zebras and so much more!! I wanted to show you the tigers but I couldn't find them ㅠㅡㅠ they were invisible tigers woo
CHIWOO~~ are you doing okay today?? Please remember to eat well okay?? Omg make some delicious bimibap!! I've always wanted to try it? Maybe one day we can try it in a cooking vlive??
Stay hydrated okay?? I'm finally slowly accepting the truth and it hurts, I feel like kingdom posting now is helping a lot... But there's still a hole without you, I hope you can début again soon..
10. chiwoo~!
How are you doing today? Are you taking care of yourself??? No matter what happens I'm always sticking with you okay?
Never let your personality vanish okay. You have such a cute personality and it's so funny, you're clingy but you're also extremely soft even if you don't want to admit it!
Men need rest too chi. I hope you're finally getting some well earned sleep and can relax.
Please eat good food okay? I love watching your cooking vlives and I'd love to eat the food you make one day. Could we try bimbap together? I've always wanted to try it but I'm not a good cook and you're the best one I know, maybe you could live stream yourself doing it again! We have very few vlives of you, so the ones we have are precious <3
I don't know why but I suddenly feel extremely down.. I don't know whether it's my exam, or missing you. It's probably missing you... I don't know honestly. I'm confidentish for my exam, I'll do you proud don't worry!!
How is strong man today? Are you taking it well?? Did you get enough sleep? These are just extremely simple questions I want to know.. Each day that goes on without a word from you gets more painful..
They started posting again and I'm being a childish fool waiting for "치우" to pop up, you're still on weverse.. It hurts sometimes knowing I'll never see it or witness "kingme goodnight" or "my kingme" again.. The truth is well always be your kingme. Kingmakers stick beside Chiwoo forever and always. We always protect strong man we are your fighting force!!
You'll come back right?? Would you prefer to redebut or just do something else?? Either way I'll love you no matter what you do okay. Follow your heart, if you want to be an idol again go make that dream come true a second time, don't give up over this set back okay??
11. junie~~
Are you sleeping well?? I know in like 3ish hours you'll be waking up, so did you sleep well??
You'll be proud to know in the past 5 days I've made karma my most streamed song on Spotify ♂️ WHICH IS GOOD. You already know my fave album is your song omg.. Your reaction was genuinely my favourite thing, you looked so surprised and in shock that I said yours, but when you went "karma?? yes my album because I'm king" I absolutely yes.
I remember in my uni I had my kpop CD's on my wall and you saw them and asked "is that all kingdoms albums behind you" and when I said yes I have them all I remember so badly you went "oh really?! 진짜?!" you looked so shocked 😭 I don't think you ever thought someone had every single album you'd released but in theory, print anything with kingdom on I'll buy it. We had trouble with the call at first but it was obviously my fault bc I'd never done a video call till that day 😗
I don't know if you remember me but I'll savour that moment forever because my dream of talking to you finally came true <3 i lowkey feel bad for minnie tho TnT I got off the call with everyone and I was hysterically CRYING in the voice messages ♂️ she's heard me cry too much Chiwoo I'm telling you she's heard me go "IFJEN GUK SEUNGJIDJS MUWOO RAP I'M CRYING CHIWOOS SO PRETTY" half the time ♂️♂️
Well meet again one day. And I will cry again. Ngl I'm Low-key glad I was muted at first bc my exact words where "oh my god what the fuck" when I saw you. I'll tell you we were manifesting you to be last so we could talk longer but the universe was with us and made you first 😭 WHICH calmed me down more than I expected I was so scared to meet you omg.. Between you and me I had woken up like 10 minutes before the call SHHHH I'm sorry it was 10am on a sunday-
12. junie~~
Are you sleeping well?? I know in like 3ish hours you'll be waking up, so did you sleep well??
You'll be proud to know in the past 5 days I've made karma my most streamed song on Spotify ♂️ WHICH IS GOOD. You already know my fave album is your song omg.. Your reaction was genuinely my favourite thing, you looked so surprised and in shock that I said yours, but when you went "karma?? yes my album because I'm king" I absolutely yes.
I remember in my uni I had my kpop CD's on my wall and you saw them and asked "is that all kingdoms albums behind you" and when I said yes I have them all I remember so badly you went "oh really?! 진짜?!" you looked so shocked 😭 I don't think you ever thought someone had every single album you'd released but in theory, print anything with kingdom on I'll buy it. We had trouble with the call at first but it was obviously my fault bc I'd never done a video call till that day 😗
I don't know if you remember me but I'll savour that moment forever because my dream of talking to you finally came true <3 i lowkey feel bad for minnie tho TnT I got off the call with everyone and I was hysterically CRYING in the voice messages ♂️ she's heard me cry too much Chiwoo I'm telling you she's heard me go "IFJEN GUK SEUNGJIDJS MUWOO RAP I'M CRYING CHIWOOS SO PRETTY" half the time ♂️♂️
Well meet again one day. And I will cry again. Ngl I'm Low-key glad I was muted at first bc my exact words where "oh my god what the fuck" when I saw you. I'll tell you we were manifesting you to be last so we could talk longer but the universe was with us and made you first 😭 WHICH calmed me down more than I expected I was so scared to meet you omg.. Between you and me I had woken up like 10 minutes before the call SHHHH I'm sorry it was 10am on a sunday-
13. chi~
Hihi how are you doing today?? I'm writing this at midnight, I did write this, put it in my drafts but it didn't damn save, SO HI I do not need to cry anymore but it appears I have cried out of one eye- don't ask im a man of many damn talents, I have a headache and I feel particularly sick rn :( but I miss you again so I'm gonna write this and finish it tomorrow. This will get emotional I'm sorry it might might not.
I don't know how I'm feeling right now, I want to hear from you again..
I was scrolling through my old posts to find things to post and it hurt in some way?? I think it was more the réalisation again. I pretend your on hiatus but it doesn't really work half the time.. I feel like today I've been really down.. Now Idk whether it was my exam yesterday or if its because of my headache or whatever... I think it's just happening because I'm worrying about you a lot. Whenever I'm eating I often think "has Chiwoo eaten good today". I have no way to contact you to check rn :(
Well meet again okay? I wanna see you and hear your voice again...
Im gonna go to bed right here and ill try finish this in the morning..
Woo I'm back.. 10 hours later I forgot what I was writing man
How are you today junie?? Are you staying well, eating good?? Did you remember to drink well?? I want to ask you for 2 colours to dye my hair TnT, when you come back I'm gonna ask you~
When you come back to Instagram or wherever you decide to go I'm gonna hype the FUCK out of you, listen I have 6 days of "I miss Chiwoo so bad" energy I will need to release it TnT.
It'll all be okay eventually and everything will get better, whether you debut or not I'll always be your cheerleader chichi <3
WAIT. Do you still have my letter I wrote you in the project I did-
14. Chiwoo... Its been a week since you left..
It feels like time has gone so slow because I swear the news was released yesterday... You're doing okay right? I should stop worrying about you shouldn't I? You wouldn't want me to worry over you so much would you. The truth is everyday it goes on without you just makes me scared ig,, it makes me realise how real the news is..
We didn't even get a goodbye. Which, I know isnt your fault, you'd say goodbye to us if you had the chance right?
If you had Instagram before would you reactivate it??
I had a weird thought of what if you joined boys planet 999 but then I don't want you going through a survival show and having so much stress.
Im not doing okay without you chi, I don't eat a lot anymore which is a plus for me ig but I have a thing called dermatomania and in the last week its gotten worse, but I don't know how to stop it.. Ig it's gotten worse partly from what's happened and me worrying about you a lot but its not your fault..
Just know chi, whether it was your choice or not ill never be mad at you, you followed your dream. I couldn't be more proud of how far you've come. You got your first win with the group in 6/7 months.. Kingdom are constantly roty on reddit and that wouldn't be the same without you, you're part of kingdoms achievements too.
Do you remember going to everland with jahan? I thought about trying to go to everland one day if I ever went to Korea. You looked like you had so much fun~
I miss that ear to ear smile of yours that showed your dimples and made you go ^u^ and your laugh... Not many peoples laughs cheer me up but I always go back to your laugh of videos where you properly laugh, its heartwarming and cute and I love it, its loud but not embarrassingly loud.
How are you doing today tho chi?? Are you staying healthy??
15. Chiwoo ah;
I'm not gonna write a lot, maybe.. I can't promise anything I waffle. I wanna make this one simple.
Are you okay? Please answer this honestly okay, don't worry about hurting other chi... If you're not doing okay genuinely please tell someone, you deserve to be comforted okay? From my own experiences, it's better to tell someone than to hide your feelings okay?
Did you eat well today? 8 mean technically yesterday for you.. Strong men need to eat 3 big meals a day and more okay? If you haven't eaten a lot, make sure to have a big meal today okay. Go get chicken!! I know how much you love chicken! Or go grt BBQ with one of your friends or on your own if you prefer! MKe sure to stay hydrated too!
Did you look after yourself today? Remember to take care of your physical AND mental health too okay junie?? They're both so important!! Go take a walk down han river, you said you enjoyed it there, or go to a cat cafe and play with all the cats!!
Remember how important you are to us okay? No matter what you're feeling we're beside you chiwoo! We will give you emotional support, well stay by your side through everything okay?
Hey, bts comeback isn't far away okay? How about we watch it together?? Ik how much of an army you are so you must be excited about it. What do you think will be your favourite song?? I currently don't have a chosen one yet... You'll let us know how you feel about it okay? That's a must do! And tell us your favourite song!! <3
We were both tae stans too so we have that in common djshsj but now I'm a jin stan 😩🤲 has tae been your bias since DNA?? That was also my first comeback with then but yoongi was my bias- damn I changed biases a lot omfg 😳
16. seungjunie...
How are you doing today??
Are you staying healthy and eating well?
Not a day goes by where j don't think of you.
I may seem dramatic but I miss you so damn much.. Everyone seems to be moving on and handling it better than me so Idk what I'm doing wrong.. I feel mean and I don't really want to socialise anymore so I have so many people I haven't replied too and I feel bad :(. I know you leaving wasn't my fault but I somehow seem to blame myself like "if I didn't stan kingdom you wouldn't have left" even though I know that isn't true. I feel like leaving people alone bc they're better off without me just bc I feel like I worry too much.. Woo enough with the self hatred let's move on ignore that.
I miss you so damn much chi...
You will come back won't you?? The longer it goes on without you the harder it gets. And the more real it gets i guess..
Over a year ago I chose to ult you, thinking I'd never get so attached to someone, but ig it's right what people say, "don't get too attached to your idols".
I don't feel like I'll ever move on from you. Whether you stay an idol or go back to being a non celeb. I just I constsntly want to make you happy and make sure you're okay.
Everyday feels like a waiting game.
Im constantly waiting for you to come back, a simple "hi" would be enough for me honestly. It'll be 2 weeks next week... I just want to make sure you're okay..
Whether you read these or not idm. I'm writing them pretending you'll read them and give us a sign you're okay.
Please make sure you're looking after yourself okay.. That's all we want. Please make sure you keep eating and drinking well, I know sometimes you might not feel like eating but you have to keep your body going. Please don't give up okay you strongman I almost made it all this way without crying god damn it.
17. Chiwoo ah~
How are you doing today?? Did you sleep well last night? I know its almost 11pm in Korea and sometimes you're asleep around this time so I hope you have a good sleep!
Did you eat well today? Strong men need lots of good food to be strong okay?
I've been watching a lot of old kingdom content TnT, it hurts but it's okay because those videos make me smile so much.
I miss your joyful energy and your random singing outbursts shshs
Idk
I feel like my letters are getting shorter, but truly I have so much to say but I can't phrase it well??
Last night they removed your profile from weverse... Which just Idk I get why, it just feels empty without you there. All your posts are gone too so it feels weird.. Its like they're erasing your existence..
But you'll come back stronger and prove them you're stronger and better than this right?
Strong man has strong kingme behind him and will forever <3
I'm also trying to learn Korean for you, so one day I can hopefully write these notes in Korean! I just struggle a lot with it, I can read it no prob but I can't say words or translate them which I find weird for me bc it's normally the other way around♂️
Ah I have 2 exams next week~ the one on Monday I'm not worried for?? But I'm not particularly the best at it?? And the one on Thursday should be okay?? It's pretty easy ig?? I have one a week on Monday and I'm already seeing myself resitting it honestly-it's chemistry but like molecular very confusing they don't even give you numbers for maths type of chemistry-
I'll do you proud tho don't worry~ I promise to take a Chiwoo pc to my graduation 😩 listen, I was a kingmaker when I got into my dream uni I will graduate with the same boys in my phone case I tell you- ngl I'm kinda worried without you...
18. junie~
Hihihi how are you doing today?
This is probably gonna be different but I wanna write about how much I appreciate you TnT.
We gonna say we were both 18 at the time ik about the Korea age system but we were born same month same year so Everytime you say "YAH I'M 20" I have a nervous breakdown bc I think I've missed a birthday ♂️
I feel bad for not knowing you sooner~
I watched you grow during excalibur I think I joined on the 3rd day of promotions! At first it was "this dude cute he might be my bias" then I read more about you and knew 100% you where my bias from the beginning. I normally wouldn't keep biases nor keep ulting groups.. The only ones at the time that I stanned was shinee, mcnd and everglow and I wasn't looking to stan another group. I remember being there when the groups vlive got opened that's how old I feel jfc.
Somehow during the end of excalibur to the start of karma I started to grow attached to you and the group.
You where literally my first ever pull in a kingdom album when I got HOK1 I think I screamed and my mum thought someone died or somet.
Karma was definetly where I think you grew the most... You got so confident and less, not really timid, but you posted more! Which I was so happy about seeing your posts made me happy so much. I think it's what they say "sealed the deal" but I knew from first moment that you where the one.
This era, it was my favourite.. I finally got to talk to you AND AND I GOT YOU TO ADMIT YOURE CUTE SO THAT'S A GODDAMN WIN!! omg I will treasure that moment for the rest of my life I absolutely loved every second 😭 even tho we can both agree I was a MESS. but it made me realise you where all I needed to help calm me down and what I needed to be happy for the first time in a while and I'll always value that 😭🖤
19. Chiwoo ah.. Its been 2 weeks.. I'm not necessarily surprised I'd say that you're taking your time before hopefully coming back.
I just think I Low-key wished time would go slower and I'd wake up one day and this would be like a weird dream I had?? I don't know how to phrase it hmm.
I guess I just miss you, and the longer time goes on the more real it gets and I wish time didn't go on and it froze 2 weeks ago..
Ive been considering taking up archery again because its a distraction ig??
I feel like I'm just constantly thinking of you chi.
"don't fall for your idols" they always say but it was the case with you where I didn't listen..
I don't know if I feel better now than I did 2 weeks ago.. I mean, I haven't cried as much. I did however, cry myself to sleep on Monday well technically Tuesday morning at 2am 😃👍, I don't necessarily know why I was sad or worrying about you. I just suddenly missed you so much..
Hmm...
How are you today chi?? How was your sleep?? Did you do anything fun recently?? I just want to sit down and hear you talk about your day over and over forever and ever.
Remember okay? It's okay to cry when you need too and don't worry about hurting others when you let your feelings out okay junie?
If you feel like the whole world is against you remember there is one boy all across the world in England who is always gonna be on your side okay? Wynne cheering Chiwoo squad 🤠 WOOOO
I miss you so much guk seungjun.. It feels like there's a hole in my heart without you.. Promise me you'll come back eventually okay? I love you so much so please take care of yourself okay? Remember to eat a lot and drink a lot. Sleep is also important chi <3333
20. chiwoo~!
Idk how this is gonna go. Its either gonna get sad or eh or just mellow?
I genuinely don't know lmao.
Hihi chi how are you doing today?? Are you eating well and staying healthy??
I genuinely I have no feelings rn and there ain't one single thought in my head- I guess I feel numb?? Kinda like a void??
I miss you so much..
Idk how to word this.. I kinda like want to disappear? Not like Idk disappearing forever just like become invisible?? You know the feeling where you don't want to be here but you don't want to leave, just like be alone for a while?? Idk if that makes sense lmao.
Idk. I feel like I'm constantly asking you the same questions tho but the reason to that is, they're simply questions I wished I was asked whenever I was doing bad but never was, I promised myself I'd be there for someone and say this stuff TnT
So Chiwoo, please answer these honestly okay?
괜찮아?? 잠은 잘 자요?? 식사는 잘 하고 있어요?
Im sorry if that's wrong I'm still trying to learn Korean to write these letters aha.
Ah are you looking forward to BTS' comeback??? Idk when the date is so knowing me it was 5 weeks ago ♂️. You have to tell me your favourite song from the album okay? And your favourite bts songs all together!! I think my favourite is louder than bombs, epiphany, moon, ddaeng, ugh, the entire tmbmil album TnT. Is it obvious I'm a jin fanboy?? Tell me yours omg 🤲
Ah what are your favourite songs right now?? I can't really decide one hmm... Maybe juice by mcnd. They're my other ults beside shinee and you guys :'3 they're finally having a comeback next week so I guess both our ults are having June comebacks yas 😩😩
Hmm
Chi I wish you knew how much I miss you and how much I love you.. I just want you back tbh.. I wanna wake up and someone go "ApRiL fOoLs"
Come back soon okay? ❤️
21. to the one man whose smile is brighter than the sun~
Chiwoo!! How are you today??
This will probably be a short one I guess? Not sure you know I waffle TnT
Ah how are you ?? Did you eat well?? Are you sleeping well chi??
Did you enjoy BTS' comeback today?! I tried listening to it for you and honestly it's good. I haven't really listened to bts in a long time. It was like a repackage of all their old title tracks? I think that threw me off the most omf ♂️ I hope you shook your booty to it bc that seems to be your go to dance move 😩
Ah I dyed my hair again today- the same style as your black crown hair!! But the blonde is yellow and the rest is green TnT I went back to it keke.. I wanna show you it one day!!
Chiwoo ah~! You're doing okay aren't you? Whether you've figured everything out or gone to do something else imma always support you bb!
I love you so much chi~
Hmmmm what else to say hmm.
OH I have one more exam which is the one I'm dreading the most 😭 ill try do well for you <3
Wow I really don't know what else to say hmmm.
I started watching all your vlives again and omg of you choose to run a cafe or restaurant I'll be your most frequent customer istg I wanna try the food you make~ you're so talented chichi!
22. to the one man whose smile is brighter than the sun~
Chiwoo!! How are you today??
This will probably be a short one I guess? Not sure you know I waffle TnT
Ah how are you ?? Did you eat well?? Are you sleeping well chi??
Did you enjoy BTS' comeback today?! I tried listening to it for you and honestly it's good. I haven't really listened to bts in a long time. It was like a repackage of all their old title tracks? I think that threw me off the most omf ♂️ I hope you shook your booty to it bc that seems to be your go to dance move 😩
Ah I dyed my hair again today- the same style as your black crown hair!! But the blonde is yellow and the rest is green TnT I went back to it keke.. I wanna show you it one day!!
Chiwoo ah~! You're doing okay aren't you? Whether you've figured everything out or gone to do something else imma always support you bb!
I love you so much chi~
Hmmmm what else to say hmm.
OH I have one more exam which is the one I'm dreading the most 😭 ill try do well for you <3
Wow I really don't know what else to say hmmm.
I started watching all your vlives again and omg of you choose to run a cafe or restaurant I'll be your most frequent customer istg I wanna try the food you make~ you're so talented chichi!
23. ah Chiwoo..
I miss you more and more each day. I never figured out why but I always miss you more at night.. Idk why?? The last few days I've been really sad before going to sleep because I miss you that much hmm. It normally comes out the blue too..
Idk what exactly made me miss you but as soon as I said goodnight to my family and went to my room I just I felt sad over you?
I guess one day this feeling will disappear.. I hope it does :(
How are you doing today??
OMGOMG listen to w.a.t.1 by mcnd chiwoo~ they filmed it in the same place excalibur was shot I started SCREAMING, it's also a calming song :')
You should give us song recommendations! We could all exchange song recs and make a big play list??
Hmmm...
I miss you a lot chi.
It's not getting easier the longer time goes on..
I just want you to know, no matter what's going on, where you are, how you're feeling or whatever, I'm never going to be mad at you. I'm never going to see you differently. You're still the loud Chiwoo I loved from the first moment I stanned kingdom.. I promise you chi, no matter how hard my life gets I won't give up for you. I started crying already so this will not get emotional WOO... I just wanna disappear sometimes idk, ik you're not gone forever, but sometimes it feels like you won't come back. I feel like I'm expecting so much considering its only been 2 weeks.. Idk..
Im sorry.. Ik I haven't done anything wrong but sometimes I do feel like it was my fault you left. I just feel guilty a lot of the time, like I could have protected you better?? Idk.. Ignore me lol
Idk why but I'm so attached to you and I can't let you go :')
I miss you so much Chiwoo..
I hope you're doing okay! Tell me honestly okay? Are you doing okay?? Please don't bottle anything inside okay? Did you eat well?? Strong men need energy chi!
응원 횟수 0
|