Hi Beomsoo...
Today I was learning a new drawing technique when you came and said you were working on your assignments and exams. Suddenly a random thought appeared in my mind, then I wanted to come here. In this world, at the same time, everyone is struggling in their own way right?
Even if someone looks fine.
And like flowers, which has its own shape, color, and scent. Likewise, humans also have their own beauty. That's way the world feels more alive because of that. Perhaps there are times when we feel left behind by others. But the world would be boring if everything was the same.
After that my wandering thoughts shifted, we don't get to choose who we meet among the millions of lives we have. Of course there must be a reason for each meeting, for example, why do I like you the most out of all the idols I know?
I know so many idols before Xodiac debut. Usually I'm just a casual listener, not tied up at all. It's only you and Xodiac that got me this far. I haven't found a clear answer yet, but from what I feel you are the most influential idol in my life.
Until I wonder how far Beomsoo will change me?
Don't get me wrong, you changed me in a positive way, and I love that 😁
I think because you are very good at receiving and giving love. Your love for your fans is so great that it feels sincere, like a warm hug. So that people who love you feel comfortable. But I hope you don't forget yourself. Make time to do things you like too.
Ummm...there's something I want to say, but honestly, I don't know if this is a good thing or not.
You have changed my life so much, but I will never depend entirely on you for my happiness. Because it will be a burden for you. My happiness will still be my responsibility. So don't worry...
But let me take you to all my happiness, even in the future, when we're no longer this close, maybe when you're too busy to read my letters anymore, or I can't write anymore, when there are too many people accessing PlusChat and my messages can no longer be read. Beomsoo will always be in my heart and my path 💜
I'm a coward. I often hold back when I'm happy. Always afraid of loss and feeling empty. But since you told me not to go, I'll do my best. I Will learn to be happy without fear anymore. Enjoy this day we can spend together, don't waste it.
And the last thing that comes to my mind is...
Just being truly loved by one person is a great thing. Especially if so many people are doing it. But you deserve it and you will find that there are many types of love in this world. When that day comes please don't forget me. It's okay if it's just one simple word.
Thank you for teaching me so many emotions and precious things. 🫶
Sweetberry 🌻