Dear HongJoong,
I hope you are doing well and that you had an amazing day 😊
My new job is going well, I’m learning a lot of things, which is completely new for me, and my colleagues are very nice with me :) the atmosphere really changes a lot from my previous job but I like it and the job is really interesting:) I’m glad I’m doing this job even if it’ll be only for a year as I’m going to Korea in one year 🙏 I’m excited but also terrified to go as I’ll be there for a long time and I’ve never stayed that long abroad and alone :o except maybe in the UK but I came back to Belgium every three months to see my family so it was fine 😊 UK wasn’t far from Belgium, but Korea is another story 😅 I’m very scared but I have to do it because it’s my dream and I know I’ll regret it later if I don’t do it so I push myself to make my dream come true 🙏
I’m also feeling guilty towards my company because they expect me to stay a long time with them (at least three years) and of course they don’t know that I’ll go abroad in one year and I feel sorry for them as they invest in my training a lot and they try to make me feel comfortable so I feel like I betray them by leaving them in one year already 😅 but I have fo do it because I don’t wanna give up on my dream for a job, and I know many people do it, sacrificing their dreams for their job or family and they regret it :/ so I don’t wanna be in that situation and even if I’ll be sad leaving them, it’s something I need to do so 🙏 the best would be that they’ll hire me again when I come back to Belgium after Korea but I don’t know, I’ll see their reaction first 😅 one thing after another and one day at a time 🙏😌
I can assure you, all these things and this new job, really without Ateez in my life I think I would be so stressed and I won’t have anywhere to gain strength and courage like this 🙏 I thought my anxiety would hit so bad when I start my new job, but actually it’s going fine and I feel kind of good :) when I feel I’m getting a bit stressed about a situation, I’m thinking a lot about you and Ateez then I’m feeling fine 😊 I’m worrying really a lot about unimportant stuff and at the end of the day, things are going fine and less worse than I thought 😌 with Ateez, I feel less lonely and you’re by my side all the time ❤️ You’re my second family and home I can count on 🙏 thank you for existing HongJoong, applying into KQ, becoming an amazing idol for this world and being the captain of Ateez 😊❤️
Take care HongJoong, you did very well today! I love you so much with all my soul ❤️
Anna B. (from Belgium 🇪)