Dear Changkyun,
Hi,
Hello.
I’m going to be honest, I don’t know how to
start properly this letter, but recently you have
been a lot on my mind.
You see… something happened a week ago,
I got the worst kind of news and since then I found myself trying to cope and heal.
A sense of numbness overcame after the flowing tears and I found myself seeking comfort in small things. And I found home in listening to Slowly on loop.
I know Slowly is about a different type of separation, it’s the natural ending of a relationship that outdid its time, while what I am experiencing is a loss. However, my grief feels so understood by
it’s melancholic vibe. Like a warm hug in which you can cry to feeling accepted. Does it make sense?
I honestly don’t know, to me somehow it does.
Now i feel like i’m stuck on a pendolum, sometime i feel ok, sometimes I’m grieving with heavy sadness, but when i feel like that Slowly comforts me. Again it’s like a warm blanket helping me to accept thtat i’m not ok. That I can be not ok. That it will take time to heal properly and it’s ok. I don’t need to rush.
Again i know this might sound confused or nonesence, I just want to thank you because I feel like I owe you, because I can embrace my grief and heal thanks to you too. Of course, slowly.
Love you a lot