Hello my Kyunnie. . .
How is your day going? Have you eaten? Have you had water? Have you worked out yet?
I was off today. I slept in. Probably slept more than I should have. Sometimes you need that extra sleep though. Have you been working hard and tired lately?
I ended up resting today. I did get laundry washed and dried. I waited until late to do it though. It's more apt to be in use during the day and then I don't have to see people, lol. I can handle people at work, it's my job to be friendly and nice, professional, customer oriented. And I am all of that in general anyways, you know that. But outside of work. . . I like not having to talk to people too much. Definitely not rude or anything. . . I just like my peacefulness of home.
Anyways, my laundry just got done. I just went down and got it.
I did cook tonight. I mad rice. I put a lot of seasoning in it because I didn't add a lot of seasoning to my side dish. I slightly cooked some red onion and tomato. Once it was soft and starting to become translucent I added chickpyand then topped with quite a bit of spinach and then covered with a lid. I stirred it once the spinach was wilted and soft, but it still needed a little more cooking. I stirred it again about 10 minutes later and turned off the heat and waited for the rice to get done. I also added frozen corn to the rice while it was cooking. It was all so good. Have I said I enjoy cooking? I like putting together ingredients in my head and imagining how it would taste together. If I think hey that sounds good, I'll try it. If I don't think it sounds good, I won't.
I watched a little TV and then a movie and a half. The Other Woman and the I got about halfway through The Count of Monte Cristo. I remember bits and pieces of the first one, so I'm guessing it was one my ex bought. I know you don't like me talking about my past with him and I'm sorry, but I also know you like it even less when I keep thoughts in. Feelings of hurt came up when I started the second movie because the reason I bought it was so my ex and I could watch it together because I like that movie. Same with a movie I watched last week. That one was hard for a different reason. The Burning Bed. . . In one of the scenes she attempts to leave but he had taken a part from the car. The night my mom left my dad he did the same thing, took a part from the cars. I was only 4, but I remember pieces of that night.
I'm ready to make new memories with my person. So those pieces of memories from the past, the ones that hurt become less and less. I know the future won't always be happy and rainbows and sunshine, but those good memories and good things will far outweigh the bad.
I feel like I'm a puzzle sometimes. . . So many different pieces that somehow all fit together. Sometimes the pieces are hard to figure out or difficult to place. . . idk if that makes sense at all.
It's late, I'm going to head to bed soon. But first a couple of song recommendations.
The first was from the movie today.
A Sunday Kind of Love by Etta James
this next one came up on my playlist I have for work. Immediately I was like oooooh, that's good. I need to share that with Changkyun. And then I laughed because I realized it was one of your recommendations.
Lotus Eater
Last thing. I saw this scrolling through Instagram but didn't save it. Later scrolling through TikTok I saw it again. The exact same poem or quote or whatever you want to call it. It made me smile. My heart felt full. It was like my person told me it.
I don't love her with my heart or mind. I love her with my soul, in case my mind forgets, and my heart stops beating.
Until another time. . .
I don't tell you enough. . . 좋아해 균이. . .
I say I love you, but not enough that I like you too. I like you Im Changkyun, I hope you know that.