I feel selfish for coming here right now. I had something happen that brought up some things about my ex. The past few nights I've had bad dreams because of it. I feel alone today. I feel like . . . idk. . . like there is still so much pain from the past. I feel alone, yes that feeling is very strong. Work has been fine. Nothing special. We're supposed to be getting a new manager. Tammy will be transferring to a different store. The new manager is an assistant manager. I guess I feel like there isn't forward movement anymore here. I'm there to do a job for them. And I am. I feel like I have been setting my expectations too high in so many areas. I'm letting myself down. So yeah. . . tonight I'm struggling. Yet it doesn't feel fair to bring it here anymore for some reason. So I'm not sure if I'll write again. Things just feel different right now. I love you, of that I am still certain.