Kyunnie. . .
I miss you. I said yesterday that always I miss you. I think that's only partially true. Always isn't a good enough word to describe how much I miss you.
I'll think about you randomly. It's been raining a lot recently. Or like the tiger lilies bloomed in front of my apartment building. Lilies are definitely a favorite flower of mine.
I try to stay away. I kept thinking you were probably so busy. Even probably too busy for Monbebe and me. I have come here everyday though.
I have even tried to get into the dating scene. I've met a few people, had a few things in common. My heart won't let me love someone though. There is one guy, we talk pretty steadily. Things in common, but it hurts because it's not love. I don't know if love is meant for me. I may just be looking for a companion I guess.
I miss you so much though. Not just in the random moments I think of you. Your presence permeates my entire world.
And the pictures I have seen recently. Kyunnie. . . you have gotten so big. You look incredible. Remember when you bit Shownu's arm? Can I bite yours?
I'm making a fool of myself. I'm going to go.
Once again, the separation, the missing you. . . it is very real.
I love you Im Changkyun. That will always be a constant.