Kyunnie. . . I'm tired of being nice. I'm tired of feeling like I'm hurting because I'm nice to people and they think it's ok to do whatever they are doing, or say whatever. I don't know how to not be nice. But it's makes me wish. . . idk. . . this is why I don't like trying to meet someone. Why I don't like trying to make friends. I don't understand feelings. I don't understand people. Why do I have to keep being hurt. I feel like I need to keep locking myself away mentally to keep me safe from people. I let them in for what? Just to cause more pain? It's not worth it. It's just not. My heart hurts tonight. My mind feels confused.