Hello my San, my happy place
I hope your day was great and that you are resting now.
My day was bad. I woke up with a heavy heart, and in a really bad mood. I don't even know why, but I felt like crying or punching a wall all day. 🙁
I couldn't concentrate at work, so I could not finish anything and that made me feel like a failure, so I felt even worse.
It was bad, I started to lose hope in myself, and in the things I love. It was a very negative day.
To try and make myself feel better, I started listening to music. Sometimes, when I feel sad, singing out loud can help me to clean my energy and feel better, so I listened to one of my favorite Brazilian bands, Legião Urbana. I used to listen to them a lot when I was a child. One of my favorite songs is also one of the saddest songs I know, it is called "Love In the Afternoon". The song is in Portuguese, but the title is in English.
I decided to translate the lyrics to English and share with you.
"It's so strange, good people die young
This is how it seems to be when I remember you
That ended up leaving, much too early
When I used to tell you: - I fall in love every day
And it's always with the wrong person
You smiled and said: - I like you too
But you went away much too early
I remain here, my work and my friends
And I remember you in days like these
Rainy days, sunny days
And how I feel, I can't say
- Go with the angels, go in peace
It used to be like this every afternoon, the discovery of friendship
Until next time
It's so strange
Good people die before
I remember you and so many people
That passed away much too early
And much too early I learned to have everything I ever wanted
I just didn't learn to lose
And me, who had a happy beginning
And of the rest, I can't say
I remember the afternoons we spent together
It's not always, but I know
That you are well now
Except that this year summer ended
Much too early"
I know that not everything makes sense, but he is talking about someone he loved a lot who died too young, he is saying goodbye to this person.
Here is the link to this song on YouTube, in case you would like to listen to it: https://youtu.be/EsshwS-Meqc
One day I will be able to translate to Korean for you. 🙂
So, I listened to music, sang out loud (thankfully I was alone, so there was no one to complain about my beautiful voice 😁), finished my work day, wrote my speech for Sunday, and now I am writing to you.
I'm going to try and sleep earlier today, see if I wake up feeling better tomorrow.
I love you still enjoy reading my letters... I always write them with a lot of love. 💜
Oh! Yes, of course I love your concept picture. Looking very handsome, Mr Choi San! 😍
I love you infinitely, my San, my purple oasis, my Sun. 💜♾️💜
✨Sweet dreams, sweet Sanshine.✨
Kelly
I love you 3000
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“Oasis” (as defined by San & Hongjoong): “A ray of hope where you can rest in the middle of the desert.”
“I want you to feel what I feel." - Choi San, December 25th 2021
"Love you to the moon and back" - Choi San, July 11th 2022
"결국 I will find you" - ATEEZ in LA, January 31st 2022, you found me.
Link to my 1st Choi San virtual exhibition: https://www.artsteps.com/view/62ca3d448afe14ca040ebc23
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