Hi babie, good morning~
How are you doing? Did you sleep well last night? Have you eaten? Hope your day is great and even better than yesterday!
Today my day was pretty stressful, but honestly I don't want to talk about it, since I don't need to remind you or bother you with bad things! I just wanted to say that my desire to be free and happy is even greater now, and that I really can't wait to get out of here. I think this is going to be the best and at the same time the most painful day of my life. But changes are needed!
And speaking of changes, today finally, after a lot of struggle, I finally let a friend out of my life for good. She had already quietly walked out of my life for two years, but only today did I realize how emotionally dependent I was on her and I didn't want to let her go. And so today, I let her go. I realized that there was no more room for me in her life and there was no more room for her in my life.
And now I am free of that emotional dependency. I'm grateful for everything she taught me and all the good times we had together, everything she did for me, but I had to let her go. Getting rid of emotional dependence is not being selfish or ungrateful, but learning to live alone and be enough for yourself. And well, I'm learning! And I hope I can be happy like that.
Ah, today I missed class again. It seems like it's becoming a habit, but this time it was really necessary. Those severe pains I said I'm feeling in my back, waist and hips, got worse. And I think actually, it's inflamed. Today I took 6 pills to try to get better, but it didn't help. Literally nothing. My mother tried to give me a massage to help me, but as soon as she touched her hand, I already moaned in pain. It hurts really, really bad.
I really hope that tomorrow I'll be better, because I need to go to work. Today I worked from home, but tomorrow I have to go to the office, and not going is not an option! I really hope to be better. I can barely move, it's unbearable.
To help, under my eye it started to swell and it's pretty roasted. I'm putting on diaper rash ointment and the swelling has gone down, but it's burning a lot. That is, tomorrow I will not be able to put on makeup. I will have to go to work even worse, in addition to going in pain ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ This really isn't my week.
But everything is fine! Bad weeks, good weeks, bad days and good days, right? I can't sum up the whole week in just 1 day, I hope the next ones will be better!
Today I talked a little about you with my friend. I'm missing you so much I'm starting to feel delirious hahahahaha I dream of you and see you in places where you're not even! I really miss you so much. I wanted you to come now. Every day I'm thinking about you and helping you come back soon! So don't worry and you can be sure I'll be waiting for you until the last day!
I love you very very very very very very much. Please always take care of yourself, don't worry about anything you can't do, and live well every day you're alive. Live without regrets.
I love you today more than yesterday and tomorrow more than today.
With love,
— Leticia A.