hi lovely keb, binnie, kebboreeno, kebboccino -aight i'll stop- it's ur fave selenophile(kidding, ur my fave moon tho no matter what)..waddup bud🥺🥺passing by for a lil chat (little is debatable, yk how i just go off and write u a million things,, i'm so sorry aaaaaagh)
(pretend i haven't used this before, it felt fitting)
these past few weeks have been pretty hard and bad for reasons i don't need to burden u with, but i wanna talk about youuuuuu (i always love talking about u, but i wanted to check in on u), but before i do i just want to thank u exactly because these weeks have been so endlessly hard and yet u were the only single thing that managed to make me smile and kept me grounded from completely spiraling. i just wanna thank u for always being such a comforting presence, whether it's ur voice or a live of urs, or seeing ur art, everything about u is so comforting and in my brain u really are associated with safety and happiness so i really cannot begin to thank u enough, im so extremely grateful for ur existence (maybe give ur mom my thanks on my behalf lol -would that be weird?? cause i'm genuinely thankful, so happy u exist in this world and make it a better place-). u already have a lot on ur plate, i hope this doesn't feel burdensome, i don't mean to put the weight of the role model/saviour figure on u, you're just inspiring all those feelings naturally, without even having to try so like pls don't keep this in the back of ur mind as sth u need to achieve. but yeah as i said i wanted to check up on u and ask how you're doing, like how you're really doing (it's not my place to get this personal, i don't wanna overstep, i just really hope you're fine cause u deserve to feel like a million bucks at all times). in ur latest live u mentioned that u are sb who's riddled with anxiety and insecurities and tho it's inevitable to feel this way sometimes and just some words are not simply gonna change sth that roots deeper, i'm just here to remind u that u are so loved and so precious. u are so important in my life and so many other people's lives. u have positively impacted us in so many ways, ur influence really is so substantial. u work super hard at all times and the results of ur hard work are always immaculate. we are always the strictest judges of our own selves so i understand why u might be dissatisfied with sth despite having executed it perfectly, but i'm being 100% genuine and honest when i'm saying that u really are perfect. like everything u do comes out so beautiful and just the way it should be, especially knowing how much thought u put into ur craft and how much u dwell on every detail just to make sure it comes out perfect..and it does every time. every time is better than the last. also i need u to remember that progress is fluid and sometimes u might feel like you're stuck in the same place or that you've backtracked, but that doesn't erase all the progress you've made and ur hard work doesn't go to waste. these might seem like simple words and i'm sure it's nothing you've never heard before, but do keep them in the back of ur head. u are extremely admirable in so many ways, you're the best person to look up to,, specifically because you're so humane. u don't hide ur human nature, u don't try to put up a façade (u might not share most things, but you're still keeping it real). you're always trying to be as transparent as possible. i know you can't share ur feelings easily, i can tell (i'm the same), also maybe u don't want to and that's completely valid cause they're ur own and they're personal, but i still appreciate the effort whenever u do share sth even if you've pushed urself to say it or as u have done many times, sort of interrupted urself from "oversharing" (share whatever u feel comfortable sharing honestly, u don't owe us anything as once again this is all personal). as u said you're a why guy and it's nice that u wanna know what each mood means and where each emotion stems from or why certain things happen, but that can lead to overthinking (ik u do that, u can't even hide) and also just going in circles around ur own head, torturing urself, so even tho it's tough i really do hope u share ur feelings with sb (i'm so happy u have jacob in ur life, cause certainly he's the person you're closest to, i'm sure u trust him enough to talk about whatever could possibly upset u momentarily or if sth's been making u feel uneasy for a while). once again as u did mention anxiety i wish i could offer more advice than i'm about to, but i'm sort of really bad with dealing with my own, but i will try my best cause i really care about u and ur well being. a few years ago i took up digital drawing for fun cause it looked cool and i wanted to be able to create cool things too, but sooner or later i realised that it really helps me tame my anxiety. if i remember correctly u once mentioned that u draw when u can't sleep (i could be wrong and omg im so sorry if i am, but i think i remember this well), so i'm assuming other than loving to create it's also a copying mechanism for u as well. i dont know if it's helping u relax, but i really do suggest releasing all ur pent up anxiety and stress through art. it doesn't have to be anything awe provoking (even though everything u create is wonderful regardless), it doesn't have to be for anyone but urself. it could just be simple doodles, just anything as long as it makes u feel good or just better than before. granted u have a lot of work and crazy schedules and that just adds to it and it doesn't leave much space for self care and relaxation, but any chance u get to have free time, take advantage of it. doing mundane things help keep u grounded as well i've found to be quite successful. also maybe changing ur perspective regarding some things. maybe some things u used to enjoy and used to bring u comfort no longer do cause they might be linked to sth stress inducing and it's not the activity itself that's not making u feel good but the things that are associated with it (i have no idea if this actually makes sense cause im horrible at explaining things--). being a public figure alone adds a lot of pressure in ur everyday life, but trust me just being ur own, authentic self is more than enough to keep people interested. smol meme break
(sorry i needed to make this a little less heavy cause i don't wanna bring u down and i felt like it was getting a little grim-- but 💕💕💕💕)
(all the hugsies cause we all need them sometimes. u especially deserve them cause you're the best boy in existence)
now i just wanna address the elephant in the room and it's uncomfortable cause i dont wanna put u in a weirder position and also it shouldn't have to be this way, but i'm extremely sorry regarding to what's been happening in ur lives. i really wanna say that ur lives are extremely healing and it's always a wonderful experience and personally i love to hear u talk about whatever, whether it's sth that u learnt and u were excited to share or ur passions or literally anything, u make everything so interesting and pleasant, that goes down to the endless list of all ur skills and talents. but some people don't share the same energy and enthusiasm cause they're completely in over their heads. it's absolutely not ur fault and as i said this shouldn't be happening in the first place. u dedicate ur precious time to spend time with us and what's happening is really, truly so disrespectful. like i'm so sorry for addressing this, i don't wanna make u more uncomfortable, but i really do want u to know that there are so many of us who deeply care about what u have to say. we want to see u talk about ur interests, sth new u might be interested in, ur art, ur music, everything. because you're you and u are wonderful and we owe so much to u, so please pleaaaase never let anyone reduce u to anything less than absolutely talented, brilliant, incredible, amazing, show stopping, spectacular, never the same, totally unique and completely not ever been done before (this might be a meme reference, but you're each and every single one of these words and wholeheartedly mean them). i can't be sorry on their behalf cause they need to realize (truly realize) their mistakes and feel remorse and be the one to ask for forgiveness, but i really am sorry u had to go thru and experience that. ur patience honestly amazes me. see?? you're still the bigger person, once again completely amazed by ur personality and behaviour, you're so so wonderful
here's a pat, u deserve all them pats in the world for being the absolute bestest boy (omg when u said meow meow during the live, my heart absolutely melted, you're the cutest bean help$++$(!$!)
oh and another reminder that..
that's just a general truth, it had to be said
no printer, just fax!!!!!!!!
now now
i can't write u a letter without having my absolutely sappy segment (tho im pretty sure i said summm sappy stuff already -still mean everything tho-)
but hey..you're kevin moon and i just wanna say how much i adore the moon. i've loved the moon long before i got to know you and now i love u far more than the moon i've always loved
if you think about it you're very similar
when u smile ur eyes become little crescent moons and when you're looking at sth they're so full of wonder and they have a special glimmer as if u hold entire galaxies inside them
see?? i didn't lie (and won't u look at that smile too🥺🥺🥺🥺 - 🥺 emoji personified!!)
ur jawline also looks like a crescent moon and ur cheeks look like a full moon
now u dont know share "physical" similarities with the moon
u too shine so bright no matter what (ahem mayhaps u shine ever brighter👉🏻👈🏻)
you offer stability. the moon's always there even if u can't see it. it's the same with u. we may not be able to see u, but we know you're still there offering us comfort. we know that you're working so hard to make us happy and we look up to u, so full of astonishment
also the moon goes thru phases, but it's still the same moon. it may seem like it changes, but it's still the same. people are like the moon. we go thru phases where we might not feel our best. we may feel a little broken, a little thinning, yet slowly but surely we become whole again. we can become whole again. u are capable of building urself back up from anything bad life's ever dodged ur way. u can always find the strength to become whole again
i just really love and admire the moon so u can only imagine how much i love and admire u
(i told u this was gonna be sappy aaaaaa)
i got emotional again, who's surprised?? not me. i don't think you're surprised either😂😂
this is irrelevant, but i was on tiktok one day and i found a sound and i absolutely adoooored it and looked it up and apparently sb had made a mashup cover of charli xcx's forever with grimes' oblivion and it honestly sounded so so beautiful (i'll link it for u). it brings out a weird type of sadness and nostalgia but i love songs like that so i really did loop it for hours (it was also briefly taken down and i freaaaaaaaked out so bad cause it doesn't exist on spotify sadly, only youtube so i thought i'd never be able to listen to it again, but thankfully it's back up now)
this is it woop
i'd love to hear sth like that from u, a mashup with this vibe or an original song
original song omggggg, i would literally not listen to anything else if u released an original song, im already living like this:
#noregrats they really are the best songs, no doubt, no doubt
one last thing,, since i mentioned the live
i asked you if u associate colours with sounds and u said you've watched a documentary about it. i haven't done much research on it (tho i really should), but i believe it's called synesthesia. i experience things pretty often, but not exclusively with colours but also shapes, sometimes both at the same time. i particularly experience both whenever i listen to ur cover of bury a friend. it's a pretty fascinating feeling idk sjdnns i was just wondering if you've ever experienced it
mhm anw that's my cue to go, i already said so many things, some habits die hard (i could write even more but i just dont wanna tire u)
pls make sure to rest enough, u have so many preparations, especially with the comeback too, but at least make sure it's some high quality sleep
eat well at all times and take ur vitamins cause they're pretty important
dont forget to wear ur mask and wash ur hands (which im sure u already do, but i just need to remind u once again)
i hope this comeback brings u a lot of joy and happiness
remember my words if u ever feel insecure or lacking, in that case i'll always be here to remind u how wonderful and freaking dope u are. i'm like the snooze button, u might hit snooze to get rid of me, but i'll be back again to remind u cause u need to know (on second thought that's a bad comparison jdddje, but my point remains!!)
i love u to the moon and further, pls stay healthy and safe🌙🌙💕💕
endless love,
eireen xx 💕💕💕💕
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