천사와 가족과 함께 마음으로 깨치다
2024년 4월 11일 목요일 흐림
이번에 코로나 전에 마음소리가 다시 들렸을 때,
그 때의 나는 내자신이 싫어서 죽고 싶었던 중이였어.
그래서 나를 불리하게 만드는 많은 실수를 했어.
심지어 나를 죽여도 되는 사람처럼 허락까지 해 버려서 정말 아파 죽을 뻔 했어.
다행히 전생의 가족들이 낳아준다고 해서
차츰 대화를 하게 되어 오늘날에 이르게 되었어.
가족이 내게 말했어, 그 때 너 싫더라.
내가 잘못 살고 있을 때 본 모습을 말하는거였어.
그러나 가족이 뭐가 가족이냐 하면,
남들이 날 욕하는 소리를 자기들이 하는것처럼 전해준 걸 알고
나도 가족이 가족인 걸 알았어.
내 현재 엄마도 남이 하는 말을 전해주거나
시키는대로만 하는 로봇트가 되어 버린듯 내 엄마가 없어진것 같았어.
나는 완전 가족들에게 둘러 쌓인 외톨이였어.
그런데, 그게 행복이였어.
가족이여서 화도 못내고 내 평가를 제대로 알게 되었어.
하나도 숨길 수 없다는 사실도 깨우치게 해 준거였어.
그게 가족이 나를 위한 거였어.
Realize in my heart with my angel and my families
Cloudy, Thursday, April, 11, 2024.
When I heard sound of mind again before this Corona,
I was wanting to die as I hate myself at that time.
So, I had many mistakes to make me unfavorable.
Even though I did let them kill me like it's okay to kill me and I was so sick, I almost died.
Fortunately my past life families said they will give birth to me.
Gradually, we had talked and had come to this day.
My family talked to me, we didn't like you at that time.
It meant that time my families saw me when I had been living wrong.
But, you know what family is?
Others swore at me and I knew my families let me knew that like my families told me.
I knew my family is my family too.
My present mother told me that others said
and It was like my mother became a robot doing as others was told and disappeared.
I was a complete loner surrounded by my families.
And then, it was happiness.
I wasn't angry as my families and found out my criticism.
It was let me realize the true we can't hide even one.
It was families do for me.