hey ho hi juyeon how are you?? i hope you're doing incridible fine!!!
after the last letter i sent here i'm back like when our mom finds out something we did and we have to go talk to her like this 😁😁😁 i'm just very thoughtful in the last days sorry
anyway, I wanted to share with you that the last few days weren't easy, I'll not go into details because the letter is unfortunately public and I don't even know if you are going to read it but I mean that I am really emotionally exhausted and tired, I didn't even draw this week (and this is when you say OMG ALLY NOOOOOO). I honestly didn’t want to write to you like that because I feel like I can transmit something negative and 1. I don’t want anything bad for you 2. I don’t want you to "see" my sad side even though everyone else has one right? hehe (but lets pretend i dont i'm just an idea not a person) ok at this point i don't know what i'm saying anymore
THE THING IS: I didn't want to write to you like that but yesterday I realized something I hope you have tissues on your side boy...let's go: yesterday was a really difficult day, it was already night here in Brazil (consequently day in Korea ) my head hurted a lot and i wanted to sleep and wake up just for christmas, and then your fansites previews going to record gayo started to come out AND YOU WON'T BELIEVE ..bro ... i cried ... i was so emotionally exhausted but for a reason i coundnt cry but seeing you was enough for me to cry!! but don't worry it wasn't a bad cry after all it was something like "ok i still have a comfort and something that makes me feel good" i noticed how stressed i was and how important you are in my life how crazy o.O
which reminds me of your last letter again and the "i cant solve all your problems but i can make you laugh for a while" and well, i didn't smile, i cried! and I realized how important it was for me at that moment, and how important you are not only to make me smile but also to make me let go of everything I was feeling. so if you ever happen to feel that way now or in the future, I hope you have something or someone to help you cry! people are always like "UHH DONT CRYYY" but sometimes it is so important and it is what we need, I honestly feel like a piano has come off my back. I hope you cry when you need to, let's demystify crying as something bad.:))) crying is good lets cry more
ANYWAY! I'm really looking forward to the year-end stages of the boyz, and also about the bon boyz voyage. WHAT WAS THAT YOU GUYSSSSSSS!!!!.!.!. HOW YOU GUYS DO THAT !! just to not lose the habit: I am very proud of you all💗💗
with all that said, i wanna say that i'm working on your birthday drawing i hope you like it i'm actually very nervous to finish it when i show you i promise to explain the meaning behind all those things...wait and see
i'll indicate a song from baek yerin's new album !!!!YOU SHOULD HEAR!!!! I love her songs it really speaks to me!! and i hope you like it:))) have a great great day juju
with love, admiration and some tears, ally ♡