Hi Allen :) (I hope I’m doing this right, I don’t really know how to use fancafe lol)
Happy birthday!!! 🎉🎉🎉 Can’t believe you’re a quarter of the way to 100 now hahaha. I was supposed to see you in Vegas this weekend but unfortunately that’s not happening, and I would’ve loved to tell you all this via fansign but it’s looking like I’m gonna be busy all weekend… so I’m writing you this letter instead! (I’m cringing a little bit now that I’m reading over this but please bare with me.)
I’ve been casually into K-pop for a while before I discovered you guys but I really feel like I found you and the rest of Cravity at a time I needed you guys the most, and when I found Cravity, never did I expect I’d end up being such a huge fan of some boy who grew up like 6 hours away from me LOL. You were 20/21 when I first found you and Cravity and it’s crazy to see how much you’ve grown as an idol and artist over these last 4 years. It’s interesting watching you guys’ content during your earlier eras now because I can really tell you used to be more shy and quiet, and while I’m sure there are things you’re still trying to figure out (no one really has life figured out, honestly), you really grew out of your shell and have this confidence you didn’t have before. Seeing your growth over the years has been really inspiring to me, and just thinking about it really has me in my feels right now haha 😂
Obviously I love all nine of you, but as someone who is also Asian American and into dance, I felt like you stood out to me early on, and even though you could be kinda cringey sometimes (lol sorry, at least it can be endearing though), I could tell you’re really passionate and hard-working and that you’re someone who takes what they’re doing very seriously. You always strive to push yourself and become a better version of yourself, which are qualities I always try to incorporate in my life and everything I do and work on. Over the course of being your fan, I got through all four years of college (including a rough year during the pandemic where everything was virtual) and graduated, and I’ve moved into my “adult” job and started trying to figure out life after school. In that time, I also ended up taking dance more seriously, and you really became one of my K-pop dance crushes haha, but for real, you’re such a good dancer and performer and I look up to you as a dancer and performer I want to be like. Despite all that, and even though I’ve only really just started at it, life after school has not always been easy, and there are times where I question if what I’m doing is the right thing for me and times where I wish I was back in college with my old friends and with the support network I had then. I had moved to Chicago for college and I met some of the best people I’ve ever known while I was there, and the people I still consider some of my closest friends are people I met there, so moving back to the west coast afterwards was really tough on me because I’m not really in touch with anyone from high school or just before college in general anymore, and my parents don’t live here anymore either, and so even though I was going into a stable job and getting more involved with dance and I had a bunch of other things going for me, it felt like I was starting my life from scratch again and I was having to figure everything out on my own even though I thought I had done that already when I was in school. But looking at you and seeing your journey to getting where you are now really pushes me to keep going, and reminds me that I can overcome these challenges eventually. I’m sure moving to Korea all those years ago to be a trainee and hopefully become an idol was incredibly difficult, but you pushed through and got to where you are now — your journey itself is inspiring, and it motivates me to keep pushing through too.
I know it’s still a long road ahead for you and Cravity, but you’ve accomplished so much and I hope you take a moment to realize and appreciate all your hard work and achievements, all the memories you’ve made over this last year as a member of Cravity and also just as a person, and all the Luvity and your family/friends who I’m sure are inspired by you and are so proud of you — I can at least say as a Luvity that you’re an inspiration to me and that I’m super proud of you. Even though I may not exactly be happy every day, you’re a reminder to me that I need to keep going and that good things will come for good people eventually. I hope you keep this in mind too, because I know it hasn’t always been easy for you and that things can seem hopeless at times, but hard work always pay off in the end. Honestly, these last few days have been particularly tough for me so getting my mind off things and getting myself to write this letter this week hasn’t been easy, but when I sat down and really thought about what I wanted to say in this, I thought about all the hardships you must’ve gone through to get to where you are today, and that made me reflect on everything I’ve done up till now and the fact that I am where I am now and never gave up, too. I may not exactly be happy every day, but I’m trying the best I can every day, just like you are, which is all you can ever really ask or expect of anyone.
Thank you for being an inspiration to me, and thank you for being someone I can always be so proud of. I tried my best but your impact on me is so hard to put into words, so I hope I was able to convey even the slightest bit of my sentiments. Also I apologize if this letter sounded repetitive at any time and I also apologize that this is so long lol. Anyway, have an amazing birthday! I hope you know I’ll always be supporting you through your 25th year of life and more! Haha love you Allen ❤️
- Sisilia
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