Hi Heaven's Kevin ♡
I had to attach some beautiful nature pictures from Norway in this letter, hehe ~ These days it is snowing more than ever, and the mountains all over the country are looking like a real life winter wonderland. I have always been mesmerised by the nature during winter, just how beautiful and bright it all looks. I feel like, if I go a year without seeing the nature during winter, something in my life is missing. It is strange, but looking at the snow kind of calms my mind ❤️
These days I haven't been doing much. Getting used to my old uni again is taking some time, especially with newer restrictions making it harder to follow lectures and workshops. I have also been thinking a lot these days. In June I will finish my bachelor degree and after that, I really am not sure what I want to do next. I am still looking for a dream, something I want to do with my life, but these days I feel more lost than ever. I want to find something that makes me happy, something I can talk about for hours non-stop. As I am getting older I realise more and more how affected my decision-making in life and plans for the future are affected by friends and family. I didn't realise that the reason why I still don't have a dream, is because I listened too much to the people around me when I used to have one. Dreams are something personal to us, but the opinions of the people that mean something to us can really make us question what we truly are dreaming for. For me, my parents have pushed me a lot to go for safer directions in life. My little brother already knows what he wants to work with, but I am still unsure. I really hope I one day can find that dream I have been looking for. I heard once that we don't need to look for a future, we need to create it. I wish I was brave enough and confident enough to just try random things and create a future that suits me, but it is scary.
I'm not fully sure what my purpose in life is yet, but I hope I will figure it out one day ~ ♡
These days I have been making a lot of beads (yes you inspired me 😅). Actually, I used to make a lot of beads when I was younger. As a kid I wasn't as interested in playing with bigger dolls and toys, but I enjoyed smaller toys and creative activities. Drawing and beading were what I would usually spend my time on 24/7 as a kid, and you could literally find beads in every corner of the house. I'd show you some of my bead patterns, but since I haven't really made that much beads since I was a kid, I'm not really confident in my current bracelets 😅 And I definitely had no idea how to use glue with beads as a kid, so that part has been new to me as I started beading again. I really do enjoy making beaded bracelets though, it reminds me a lot of my childhood ❤️
Btw~ I have started to prepare my birthday gifts for you already ~ I have some super sweet friends back in Seoul who are helping me out with sending everything, and I am so incredibly thankful for the help they are giving me ♡ I have put a lot of thought into this years gifts, and the amount of gifts is bigger than last year 😅 I hope you will enjoy the gifts once they arrive, and that they can put a smile on your face ♡ I think sending gifts is fun, so I really put a lot of time into this ♡
I wanted to write you a longer letter today, but I am planning a pretty long letter for you on your birthday, so I need to save some paragraphs for that hehe ❤️ I hope you are doing well these days and staying safe. Kingdom is coming up and I am super excited for all of the cool stages you guys will be doing ❤️ You can do it ~
Thank you for being a source of happiness and comfort for me. You mean a lot to me and I will always be cheering for you ♡ You are wonderful ~
- Helle ❄️💕