자작시 3번째......"믿음의 척도"

"믿음의 척도" 일명 "내 믿음은 몇점짜리?"성령 충만으로 찬양을 부를때 말씀에 집중하여 말씀에 몰두할때 눈물을 흘리며 감정을 주체못해 간절히 기도할때...이럴때의 믿음 지수는 100을 찌른다 이순간엔 생명도 바칠수 있을만큼... 무엇이든 할수있을만큼 기분이 업된다..안타깝다...이 마음 생각은... 기도를 마친후... 말씀이 멈춘뒤.. 찬양이 끝난뒤...점점 사그라드는 나의 감정... 그나마 남은 세미한 여운으로 삶을 향해 세상으로 나아간다,.이미 무너져버린 나의 그분을 향한 믿음, 너무한다...어째 아니 한달  아니 한주  아니 하루 아니 한시간 아니 10분... 을 못버틸까...그분을 의지할수 밖에 없는 유일한  이유요 통로인것이다.. 어느상황에서든 거부하는 세상과 달리 그분은 거부란걸 모르신다 포용 배려 위로로.. 늘 나를 사랑의 두팔로  꼭 안으신다,.. 마치 얼마전 천국가신 어머니의 손길처럼생각난다...어릴적 안자고 눈감고 있었지만.. 새벽예배후 자는 내머리에 손 얹고  깰까봐 노심초사 조근조근 얼머무리듯 깊은 한숨처럼 내뱉으시는  세미한 신음의 기도와 눈물... 잊을수 없다..그분은 정말 내삶의 전부이유 삶의 능력이요.. 은혜의 통로임을 고백하게된다..예전 초등학교때  수 우 미 양 가 성적으로 보면  50점이하인 나의 그분을 향한  나의 믿음의 척도..지금 처럼 위기 상황 위로가 필요한 상황 의지가 필요한 상황에  드러나야할 그분을 향한  믿음의척도 90점 이상 받아 그분께 장학금 받고싶다 주님이 동행... 온전히 의지할때 말이다...<a href="tel:2020022013" target="_blank" class="ke-link">2020.02.20 13</a>:10 "†먹빵 Swallow kim 옹♥" English >>>>> A secret communication space with the Lord with praise and poetry.♥"A Scale of Faith" It's called, "How many points do I believe in?""When the Holy Spirit is filled with praise, When you concentrate on your words and concentrate on your words, She's crying. She can't control her emotions. When I pray desperately...At times like this, the confidence index hits 100. At this moment, I'm willing to sacrifice my life. I feel so excited that I can do anything.That's too bad.I don't know what this feels. After the prayer... After he stopped talking... After the praise...My feelings are fading. But with the lingering effects of that's all. Towards life, moving on to the world.My faith in him, which has already been destroyed, That's too much...Oh, no, a month.  No, one week.  No, one day. No, an hour. No, 10 minutes. I can't stand it.I can't help but rely on him.  The reason. It's the aisle. under any circumstances Unlike the world of rejection, He doesn't know it's a no. As a consolation to the generosity... Always with two arms of love  He's hugging you. Like the touch of a heavenly mother not too long ago.I remember...When I was a kid, I didn't sleep. I didn' The dawn worshipper puts his hand on my head.  I'm afraid I'll wake you up. a deep sigh,  The prayers and tears of a semine groan. I can't forget...He's really my whole life. The ability to live. I confess that it's a channel of grace.When I was in elementary school,  By the way, Miss Su-mi's grades are...  My 50 points or less for him.  My measure of faith...We need to comfort the crisis as we do now. In situations where you need to be willing,  We're gonna have to find a way to get him out of the way.  a measure of faith I want to get a scholarship from him. The Lord accompanies... When you're completely dependent...2020.02.20 13:10 "Swallow Kim Ong ♥" <div class="figure-img" data-ke-type="image" data-ke-style="alignCenter" data-ke-mobilestyle="widthOrigin"><img src="https://t1.daumcdn.net/cafeattach/1WX1m/4891497514cd92a145c611d4c8466c052f05aaff" class="txc-image" data-img-src="https://t1.daumcdn.net/cafeattach/1WX1m/4891497514cd92a145c611d4c8466c052f05aaff" data-origin-width="512" data-origin-height="512"></div>